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THE ALL STAR

2006-10-23T19:11:00.000+08:00

Cutie right? Well, just before I knew it... I waited 20 precious days just to post a new entry here sa blogger ko... Waaaahh!!! Wish I had updated this one. For a lot has happened before and I never thought that I'm gonna enter the Virtual House (again)... So, was it more of a big deal for me? To be frank? "NA-AH" lolz... Sureness, not that big-a-deal! I am just enjoying this moment, for this game's kindda upbeat plus the fact that I'm now playing with virtual housemates from different seasons. Greatness, ain't it? Now, I'm not just exchanging messages with them, rather I'm now communicating to each and everyone of them. Coolness!!! I remember, I was once receiving messages from them and due to hectic scheds from my work, didn't get much time to respond on their messages. But, like what I said before, I'm so sorry for that...

Well, I hope that as PPBBFG All-Star has now switched in its 20th day, and Eviction Night is fast approaching, I do hope that evrything will turn out right, and hope that all of us will be making rational decisions for this matter...

I remember, I was conversing with my friend... All this time, they just thought that I was fooling around... But really, I am not. I just have this ATTITUDE, that I do know a person first before I get so judgemental and say things against that person just for me to have this great IMPACT with others... It has always been my attitude, that "I just met this person. Why should I say bad and mean things against him/her..." I do make it a point that I should have rapport with that person and try to know him/her and not to be swept away by others points of view. This game should not be some kind of a PEER PRESSURE, but a game of REALITY and how reality will lead you to not do EVILNESS...

I myself isn't perfect... I'm not ideal... What you see in here is "WHO I REALLY AM" and not someone who will try to belong with someone who doesn't want me as their friend. I'M PLAIN AS NATURAL itself... Not a pretender, a poser , and a hater. I never pretended... I never imposed... It's not how we'll play this game... Rather, how we're going to deal on the things that we'll be served righ in front of us. I MAY WIN THIS game... I MAY NOT WIN THIS game... But WIN OR LOSE, I will never regret - not a single thing playing this game and engaging with it. We're not weighing things here... Rather, we're doing things that are necessary not for our own good but also for others. WIN OR LOSE, as long as I proved myself here. Proved, as how I will affect others and how other will affect me, I know there will be nice things that some guys here will never forget about me. But as the game itself "REALITY", REAL, totoo... REAL and NOT REEL or a spool of film were all our actions and the things we say are based on the scripts that were assigned to us. This is REAL and what you see in me inside this VIRTUAL HOUSE is nothing but ME and not some cloned individual that has this shifting that may affect him/her positively or negatively... But, I do believe that whichever case or what-so, I or we all know up to where we can be in this game... But just like what I always said, "IT DOESN'T MATTER up to where and how long we'll all stay here, but on how we'll do and play this the RIGHT way without us having to walked on other's..."

Eviction Night is fast approaching... Para na lang akong naghihintay ng Pasko... But STAY OR GO - I know I've learned a few things here. And I know we'll always be in touch... Am not saying my goodbyes here... JUST BEING REAL here... I'm not hungry for something or someone that will make me TRUE, HONEST or REAL - but I will have others instill or have a doze of what I have to be more real here. Coz, if there's a keyword here... It's being real and true to yourself. Yes, we can all weigh things here. But there are some stuffs that are already floating and all we have to do is grab 'em and put weight on it so we won't let them be driven away through and between thin air...

Till next... Peace out guys... ;) STEADY lang tayo... Doing things against someone WON'T DO US GOOD... It won't merit our stay here. CHILL, it's just right to spice things up and steam stuffs sometimes, but we don't have to boil it all out coz, boiling things here will squeal and spill waters (literally) that will slipped each of us, especially if we don't look at it and walking without looking on what you'll step on. We should always LOOK FORWARD and always be on the BRIGHT SIDE, coz if we'll place ourselves in one corner that's so dark, we won't be able to move forward & release what we really feel inside and will always be a prison of darkness. And it will always be our companion and most especially the one that will lead us doing bad things against others. LET'S ALL BE OURSELVES and not let stuffs affect every action we'll...

Cheers!

FINAL message...

2006-05-21T00:30:00.000+08:00

I was never aware on how to play virtual games... Never had any idea on the "HOW TO'S" of the game... But like what I said, I never thought or imagine myself being a virtual housemate... And with regards on my FINAL MESSAGE for my co-BIG4... We'all soon leave BBK's Virtual House...

The first day was a bit shaky, coz in my mind - there's this though that no one might like me... No one might want me to be their friend... I have things playing in mind like:

* How am I going
to do this thing?
* How am I going to start a conversation with each of my co Virtual
Housemate?
* What if di nila ako feel?
* What if they get intimidated
by my looks?
* Will they like me ba? Who among the 11 Virtual Housemates kaya ang
una ko magiging ka-close?

A lot of questions played in my mind... There are also different things that I consider mind boggling... Coz I really don't know how to play this game virtually. I don't even know how I'm going to establish a rapport with my co-virtual housemates... If there were some things I won't forget in this game, it will be:

* Receiving a Friendster message from Paolo (when at that time, I know, I'm not a housemate yet) dated February 02, 2k6

hello maristel this paolo miguel ur
co-virtualhousemate...ndi ku alam unge-mail add muahehhehe..add mu aku sa
friendster mu okieh???thanks abunch!!!paololovebritney@yahoo.compaolomiguelmata@yahoo.com(^-^)

* And then receiving a Freindster message from Neil TG last February 06, 2k6

hi maristel! =P season 2 has began... i wish u all the best,
and keep the flamegoing til the hundred days are over... it's more on the test
ofpatience,interpersonal relations, and most of all your purpose for being
there...kudos...btw i' neil tg---> season 1 big winner ( this is the lamest
intro onmyself ever...hehehe).sincerely,neil tg

ps...this maybe the second message,my apologies... the first time
i sent messages to season 2 peeps seemed to fail asmy isp slowed down... i just
don't want to miss out on u people...

* When BBK asked me about my first impressions for my fellow virtual housemates... That time, I was not so in the mood to read all the infos from my fellow virtual housemate for some of it was very long... But still I managed to submit my first impressions... One of the first impressions that I was really wrong was when I told BBK that Jen, is kindda hard to reach on... But what happened was, we became the best of friends... Same as with Remcyl, Marge, Pao...

* Later on, I felt that I was having a conflict with time with Kath and Janette but not for so long, we were given the chance to get to know each other well, and we became close friends too...

* Another one was when Jen-Jen and Rems decided to quit the game and BBK decided to put on track our 2 Ex-virtual housemates and that's Ian and Heidee... :) Ian and I have been in some ways been close to. We do talk a lot about different stuffs... That we both love fashion and we have a lot in common too... When he was returned to the house all the gaps that aroused from the week before he got evicted vanished away and that's when we both become open to each other... It was never hard to reach out on him... Same with Heidee who we both discovered that we both voted out each other on the first nomination and also for the same reason... But when she was back on the game, there were a lot of stuffs that we both love to do pala... Just have to say that the 2nd time's always the best...

* When Adrian entered the virtual house and I never had a rough time being friends with him. Coz the first time we texted each other... There was no hesitation... I love this kid and I will forever cherish the things that we shared...

Anyway, the long awaited final message before the summer ends, this is it!!!

First and foremost... I NEVER REGRET A SINGLE THING being in this virtual game... There may be times that I felt so pressured, but this is a GAME right? We just have to play it right... Being in this game, I felt like I was back as a kid, doing her homework and seatworks... Like the Game Ka Na Ba Immunity Challenge... There was this instance that all the knowledge I had was slowly coming back in mind, in memory. For me, this isn't just a game. THIS GAME is some sort of LIFE for me... I believe that "WE HAVE ONLY ONE LIFE TO LIVE... SO MAKE THE MOST OUT OF IT... AS IF THERE'S NO TOMORROW" That's how I played the game... Ever activity, tasks and deeds here will be forever cherished by me. This isn't just a simple game but it has also been a LEARNING stage for me. For I was able to establish a great rapport with my fellow virtual housemates. I know for a fact that there were a lot of questions playing in my mind before this game has started. But as we were fast approaching the 100th day, I've learned a lot of things. I've discovered a lot of stuffs. I get to know almost all of them not just because of GAME's SAKE, but I KNEW EACH and EVERYONE on this GAME BY HEART...

I'm just as lucky as PAOLO who was the BIG WINNER... I may be hypocrite if I'll say that I didn't expect myself to win... Of course, there's this small pinch in me that "I hope, I win the game" But that's life, right... Paolo and I have been good friends in this game. We're bothe PAJEMAREMAnians... So for whatever reasons, I know and I understand and I do believe that PAOLO deserved the title...

>>>>> PAOLO, pao-pao... my little (but huge) brother... Thanks for all the memories... Thanks so much for the efforts... I will forever keep you in heart. You've always been good and I know you deserve to have everything... For any things that causes you troubles lately... Just lift your head up, there's GOD to hear all of your problems and don't forget to look down,,, ATE MATS is always there for you... We may be miles across each other but I know that through words and prayers we'll reach each other no matter what... I can't promise that I'll be online just like before, but this I say to you... I'm just a text away... I'm just around... Don't hesitate to lean on me. For whatever troubles you, entrust everything to GOD first (di ka pa niya itsitsismis) then call on me... Makikinig lang ako... pao, thanks for being a part of my life... I will never ever forget PBBFG2 for in this game I met and knew a lot of wonderful people... I love you Pao...

>>>>> KATHRYN, kath... ang IDOL ng BAYAN... Thanks for the times and moments that I may say (maybe few) but has always been a treasure for me... We may never talk, chat or text constantly but I do believe that for what it is... I'll be a friend no matter what... This game has ran for almost 102 days - we may never ran into each other everytime sa YM... We may have a very few and little time to talk a lot of things and stuffs... BUT YOU GOT A FRIEND IN ME...

>>>>> ADRIAN, wow! What can I say... I've loved this kid eversince his first day at the Virtual House... He was never hesitant to open up himself to me. He never got tired texting me and likewise... I know you thought that I might get the slot as a Big Winner. You once told me, na nasayang yung boto... But like what I said... Yeah, I was hurt a little, but I never lose anyway... WIN or LOSE - I know at heart WINNER pa din ako, coz I GOT YOU guys... I was once a passerby but I'll never regret passing this way, for once in my life, in this journey I get to know you and that will always be a great prize for me. Di lang basta MEDAL or TROPHY... It's a human reward... Just what I was looking for all my life. You may be young, we have a huge age gap, but I'll forever keep you in my heart for you're a friend I know will never put me aside... Adrian, Halong gid... Good luck in all your endeavors...

>>>>> HEIDEE, heidz.. What now? One thing I won't forget... During our first Nomination... We voted each other out... BBK, put you back in the game - and that's were I get to know you more. We have a lot of things in common. Ika nga ng mga bata, "CLICK"... That's what we are! Ito lang, I hope, we'll have the love of our life soon... Di ba? It's our turn naman siguro... Don't worry, I'll let you know kapag mayroon na...

>>>>> IAN, ang walang kakupas-kupas na tagapagpadagdag ng kulay sa loob ng virtual house ni BBK... I will never forget you! I swear! There has been a few misunderstandings between US, pero... that made us CLOSE to each other more... I know and I read sa SHOUTBOX that you Go for Maristel for the Big WIN... Di man ako ang Big Winner, having the chance to know a very vocal and straight-forward person like you was such a BLAST! Basta, where you are, halong gid... Hahaha!!!

>>>>> JANETTE, I know there were just a few times and hours that we chatted... Pero since textmates na din tayo ngayon... Thanks for all the inspiring words you sent me... You know what, sinesave ko pa yun ngayon... Like Marge, you didn't forget my birthday... Remember you text last MAY 18? Yung,

"Ang laki din pala ng money klangan nyo,d ble ol
things r possible w/God,His grace is sufficient 2 r nids,don't wori,ayl let r
community 2 pray 4 d baby,ano nga pla name nya?Wla aq kc ibng mai22long kundi
prayers..Nga pla nkapunta kn b sa caleruega? Sa tgaytay? Ganda kc don,prang ur
already touching heven,sobrang solemn..Try mo dun magcmba sa bday mo."

To tell you frankly, what popped in my mind was, sana nakilala pa kita ng mas mahaba pa... You know what when I was reading the last part of your message, (believe it or not) tumulo talaga luha ko... Janette, you made me cry sa text mo... All this time I was looking for anyone or anybody that I can talk to and that exact day, you were there texting me... Sobrang I felt so inspired... Thank you so much...

>>>>> MARGE, my li'l sister in the house... You were there for me everytime. I remember our first chats, sabi mo you don't know how to converse or start a conversation with me kasi malaki ang age gap natin... THAT's awfully true... But of course that proved one thing... IT DOESN'T MATTER how many years you were younger or how many years I am older... The important thing is, we became CLOSE FRIENDS and most of all, we've been through with each other through thicks and thins... Through the RISE and FALL... The GOOD and the BAD times... Words aren't enough to thank such a pretty and lovable girl like you. I remember - I promised you, Jen and Jejo na if I win the game EB tayo, I'll treat you sa Starbucks kasi magbebirthday na din ako... Well, di nga ako ang BIG WINNER pero eto lang... Manalo matalo, tuloy yun, pero siguro after my birthday... I know - you know a lot of things are troubling me now... You're one the few persons I talked to about what's going on with my life... I know you do understand my side... Basta Marge, you will always be the little sister that I never had... Hope you won't change... Stay sweet and pretty... kiwotsukete! aishiteru! achie's always here for you...

>>>>> ROWEN, kopee... We've had so plenty of communications at the Virtual House... Pero, I know kasama ka din sa kumumpleto sa virtual housemates and sure you are a part of my life na din... Congrats for making it sa U.P. Stay safe and God Bless!

>>>>> RHEA, twice lang siguro tayo nagkaroon ng time makapagchat, well, for those times THANK YOU! I know soon, your dreams will come true... Just AIM HIGH...

>>>>> DYLAN, dyl... ang hearthrob ng bahay ni BBK... Ang Mark Herras sa virtual house... Keep your hottie on the loose type... Win Deeh always... Special friends lang kayo... Pero tip lang... Kung kayo na, court her everyday... I know that you see her as "The most precious possession a person could ever have... And that you're so lucky to have her in your life..." Make everydat as if there's no tomorrow... I know and I feel that you really do love her... I just hope that all guys are like you... Like what you always say.... GODSMACK!!! Stay safe...

>>>>> REMCYL, rems... My ever faithful and fighter friend!!! If there are a few person I trust my life with in this house... IT's ALWAYS BEEN YOU and JEN... For all the times that we spent chatting, GOD! I don't know how to thank you for it... For the times that I was so down and still you manage how to make me smile and cheer up... You may not see how you made wonders in me but I know for myself that YOU'VE ALWAYS been the FRIEND I'm wishing to have forever... I will forever keep in heart the times that we both had LUCKY ME PANCIT CANTON and coffee sessions at YM... The last time that we chatted, THANKS for that! I badly needed that, that time... You really are the type of friend that I will forever keep inside my heart... You know the ways to make me happy and jolly... I love you Rems...

>>>>> JEN-JEN... my ever true good to be true friend! Nung umpisa talaga, tingin ko sa'yo di kita makakasundo... But that impression taught me the first impressions never really last... Coz YOU proved that wrong... We've been through the game for all the time... And for that Jen, I wanna thank you from the bottom of my heart. I recall our last texts... I once told you that I thought of quitting 3 days before the finals... You know why, a lot of bitter things happened... That i really don't know how to deal with it anymore... I know, that there's this part of you, na hindi ka maniniwala dun. But it's very true! But if there's one virtual housemate who taught me everything and on how to fight this game IT WAS YOU and I will be forever thankful for that! For the crazy things we shared along the way... Words are not enough for me to appreciate that... You've been a TRUE FRIEND, REAL FRIEND, a HOUSEMATE and a SISTER all in one... In one package... You've been so helpful along the way, you never kept me out of sight. You've been my confidante and my mentor! With you I feel so safe sa virtual game and for that Jen, thank you is not enough... If in some way, I hurt you or nagtampo ka, sorry for that... But this I swear, I will keep you forever as long as I am living... Hope you will still help me keep on going with my life... Kahit tapos na PBBFG Season 2... Jen, thanks and I love you... I know we'll see each other soon...

>>>>> BBK, ang misteryosong Big Bad Kuya!!! Thanks for the experience and thanks for trusting me sa lahat ng bagay sa virtual house... I owe you a lot in this game... Without you, I wouldn't be able to know a wonderful people sa katauhan ng mga co-vrtual housemates ko... Thanks a lot for all the time that you spent chatting with me... And most of all for teaching me this blog thing! I will miss you BBK... I will miss PBBFG... This virtual game will be a SEAL in my heart...

This is Maristel Ocampo, PBBFG Season 2 Runner up, signing off... Am out... Peace out! CHEERS!!!

2006-05-17T01:08:00.000+08:00

MAKING MEMORIES OF US

I’m gonna be here for you baby

I’ll be a man of my word

Speak the language in a voice that you have never heard

I wanna sleep with you forever

And I wanna die in your arms

In a cabin by a meadow where the wild bees swarm

And I’m gonna love you like nobody loves you

And I’ll earn your trust making memories of us

I wanna honor your mother

I wanna learn from your pa

I wanna steal your attention like a bad outlaw

I wanna stand out in a crowd for you

A man among men

I wanna make your world better than it’s ever been

And I’m gonna love you like nobody loves you

And I’ll earn your trust making memories of us

We’ll follow the rainbow

Wherever the four winds blow

And there’ll be a new day

Comin’ your way

I’m gonna be here for you from now on

This you know somehow

You’ve been stretched to the limits but it’s alright now

And I’m gonna make you a promise

If there’s life after this

I’m gonna be there to meet you with a warm, wet kiss

And I’m gonna love you like nobody loves you

And I’ll earn your trust making memories of us

I’m gonna love you like nobody loves you

And I’ll win your trust making memories of us

** two of my IDOL's favorite... Ace Young & Chris Daughtry...

FINAL QUESTIONS from the Ex-VHs

2006-05-13T14:07:00.000+08:00

Heidee: What do u miss most about having a boyfriend?

Maristel: You got me here Heidz... I really am jaw dropped with your question! This question surprised me... What I miss most about having a boyfriend? Well, I guess it's the precious moments... I know there's a special time spent for our family, special time spent for friends... But there are certain things that not even your family and friends can provide but our boyfriend... In having a boyfriend, I have a family, I have a bestfriend, I have the glow and a different inspiration. I miss precious moments like sneaking out... Conversing over the phone till the sun comes up... Complimenting every little thing I do and definitely mean it... I miss the warm embraces and kisses that lasts forever... I miss the spark... I miss the petty quarrels, the fights, the argumentations, and most of all the "kiss and make-up" thing... It's very literal! After the fight, he'll hold me by the hand squeeze it - hug me as if I'm a stuffed toy, kissin' me on my forehead (sounds like I'm a Lola) and him looking at me straught in the eyes and utter the word "I'M SORRY" - and that way, I'm melting... I miss the kilig moments... The simple greetings (text greetings, phone greetings) on simple Monthsary and Anniversaries... The dating, the sneaking time (like him giving my hand a massage, givin' it a peck and simply take my hand under the table and hold it so tight that feels like he doesn't want to let go of me), the simple celebrations... I'm not talking about my last boyfriend... It's Zidane I'm talking about and I do miss everything about him...

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Ian: When was your last bestfriend? Hehe

Maristel: My last bestfriend? This question seems a little ambiguous... Well my last bestfriend? I have to think about this a couple of times... But to be honest with you and to everyone... I really don't believe in "bestfriends" - why? For some reasons that I myself can't understand my logic... Maybe because bestfriends always end up the best mortal enemies... But, I sure do have TRUE FRIENDS... Though people I consider my true friends are only few... Just to answer your question, though... My last best friend that ended up my mortal enemy was Judith. I guess, I have already frogotten her. We've been friends for a long time. I gave her my full TRUST and RESPECT as a friend but what she did in return was say negative thing behind my back. There were really a lot of guys who want to court her and when they learned and discovered from themselves her real color they end up befriending me. So instead of pursuing her, ako na lang ang gusto nila lagawan, but I did turn them down (honestly), coz I don't want to cause trouble and I don't want to ruin our friendship. But there's this one guy that I know who has been so good to her and gave her everything... If he could only give her the stars and the moon he would... He was so into her but he found out after a year that my friend only used her for material things... So he ended up telling me his problems and I became his shrink for months... By then, I didn't know that time healed all his wound and he was falling for me na pala... But I didn't give him a chance coz I know that down deep inside his heart it's still Judith that he really love... Although, I've loved him na din... Judith and I didn't fight over that guy... But what happened was, sinira niya ako sa guy... It was me who turned out to be the evil one... Till now, we doesn't talk... I never heard from her again and vice-versa... And now I know there's this silent war between us... I don't want to do something about it, coz I know somehow that all my life I've been good to her but she never was...

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Jen-Jen: Hows ur relationship with your parents?? any problem with them?? what and why??

Maristel: I have nothin' to hide... My life's an open book since the start of this game... My relationship with my family? Me and my Mom's in good term, we're best buds all my life though at times I know that there's a favoritism in our family. I do love my Mom, just a while ago I bought her his maintenance medication for her hypertension... My brother and I has always been more than brothers and sisters... We're barkada... We don't hide things from each other... When one of us has a problem and worries it's me he runs to and likewise... Right now my brother RJ is really facing a big problem with his daughter "Nice"... The other day, they went to Fe Del Mundo Hospital at Banawe and my niece's Pediatrician advised my brother and his wife Karen to take their daughter to a heart specialist and undergo 2D ECHO... Just yesterday, they brought Nice to the Hospital and underwent the 2D ECHO... The result was bad... Before pa kasi their Pedia noticed a murmur on the baby's heart... So yesterday, they found out that may dalawang butas ang puso niya. And the baby has to undergo a surgery before her 1st year burthday this September 15. The estimated amount for the operation is 375k... If they won't have their daughter get an operation, the doctor said that she might not reach grade school and lose life... Or if they'll have an operation, still there's no assurance but they know that baby will live a little longer... Nice has some features of Down Syndrome and most cases about it are either baradong puso or may butas. As for my Dad, just the other night I updated my blog and wrote something about my relationship with my Dad... Now, Jen you're making me cry... My Dad left us when I was only 5 years old... He's a womanizer at heart... Just recently there were words he said against me that really tore my heart into pieces... I felt like the world was against me... Sometimes, my Dad and I are okay, but you can count it by the fingers in your hands how many times that was... Mas lamang yung hindi kami magkasundo... I just don't know how to start now... I don't know why he's doing this to me? Why he's treating me this way? All my life I wished to give him the happiness he want... Kung saan siya masaya, I am more happier for him... Kung sino mamahalin niya, I will love and respect that person more... I just can't figure why at all times, di niya ako feel... Life is beautiful and most of the times difficult... This is what God gave me and I know in due time I'll surpass this. I know kahit sino kausapin ng Dad ko na intelihente or mapagmahal na magulang he will never have his mind enlightened up... I just have to accept this though it hurts big time...

*** P.S. Jen some of the reasons the what's and why's na sa huling blog ko... I can't help but cry now... I know that I have God - He's my listener, my confidante and all I have to do is HANG ON...

FINAL QUESTIONS from co - BIG FOUR

2006-05-13T01:10:00.000+08:00

Three more days left and WE'RE (Adrian, Kath, Pao & Me) all soon be leaving BBK's Virtual House. The first day was a bit shaky, coz in my mind - there's this though that no one might like me... No one might want me to be their friend... I have things playing in mind like:
* How am I going to do this thing?
* How am I going to start a conversation with each of my co Virtual Housemate?
* What if di nila ako feel?
* What if they get intimidated by my looks?
* Will they like me ba? Who among the 11 Virtual Housemates kaya ang una ko magiging
ka-close?
A lot of questions are playing in my mind... There are also different things that I consider mind boggling... Coz I really don't know how to play this game virtually. I don't even know how I'm going to establish a rapport with my co-virtual housemates... If there were some things I won't forget in this game, it will be:

* Receiving a Friendster message from Paolo (when at that time, I know, I'm not a housemate
yet) dated February 02, 2k6

hello maristel this paolo miguel ur co-virtualhousemate...ndi ku alam ung
e-mail add muahehhehe..add mu aku sa friendster mu okieh???thanks a
bunch!!!paololovebritney@yahoo.compaolomiguelmata@yahoo.com(^-^)

* And then receiving a Freindster message from Neil TG last February 06, 2k6

hi maristel! =P season 2 has began... i wish u all the best, and keep the flame
going til the hundred days are over... it's more on the test of
patience,interpersonal relations, and most of all your purpose for being there...
kudos...btw i' neil tg---> season 1 big winner ( this is the lamest intro on
myself ever...hehehe).sincerely,neil tg
ps...this maybe the second message,
my apologies... the first time i sent messages to season 2 peeps seemed to fail as
my isp slowed down... i just don't want to miss out on u people...

* When BBK asked me about my first impressions for my fellow virtual housemates... That time, I was not so in the mood to read all the infos from my fellow virtual housemate for some of it was very long... But still I managed to submit my first impressions... One of the first impressions that I was really wrong was when I told BBK that Jen, is kindda har to reach on... But what happened was, we became the best of friends... Same as with Remcyl, Marge, Pao...

* Later on, I felt that I was having a conflict with time with Kath and Janette but not for so long, we were given the chance to get to know each other well, and we became close friends too...

* Another one was when Jen-Jen and Rems decided to quit the game and BBK decided to put on track our 2 Ex-virtual housemates and that's Ian and Heidee... :) Ian and I have been in some ways been close to. We do talk a lot about different stuffs... That we both love fashion and we have a lot in common too... When he was returned to the house all the gaps that aroused from the week before he got evicted vanished away and that's when we both become open to each other... It was never hard to reach out on him... Same with Heidee who we both discovered that we both voted out each other on the first nomination and also for the same reason... But when she was back on the game, there were a lot of stuffs that we both love to do pala... Just have to say that the 2nd time's always the best...

* When Adrian entered the virtual house and I never had a rough time being friends with him. Coz the first time we texted each other... There was no hesitation... I love this kid and I will forever cherish the things that we shared...

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Adrian: What is the worst thing that a boyfriend ever did to you and what did you do about it?

Maristel: I've been through a lot of relationship. I know and I believe that there really are no perfect relationship... I've been through a lot of heartches... Painful moments that I know will happen anytime soon during the time that I was on the relationship. But from all the relationships that I've been through - I consider that the worst thing a boyfriend ever did to me was my very last relationship, with Jan de Luna... This happened April of last year (2005)... It was a whirlwind romance... It all started via Sun Cellular when it was the peak of call and text unlimited for a very cheap price. He's a friend of friends... A common friend I may say. I once checked my Friendster and saw a message from him posted at the bulletin board. I've know him for a long time. We've been introduced to each other everytime we bumped into each other at their Village, but we just take it as a common introduction everytime... Last April, naging kami. April 12 to be specific. May 15 he left for U.S. we've been constant textmates and chatmates (still) I took the risk of continuing and fighting for our relationship though I know long distance relationship rarely survives... But as time fly - I heard a lot of things about him, having an affair with a younger woman... And worst, di lang ako and yung girl na yun ang karelasyon niya... 4 kami... But still after hearing from him the truth, still I hang on. What hurts the most was, I send him loads so we can still text each other. Before he left I gave him something to remember me by... I gave him a Reebok jersey that I bought at Toby's Sports Plaza... I'm not into material things (really) akin naman kasi, I don't ask something in return. Yung suklian lang, okay lang. I remember he once told me na ha has something for me. You know what it was... It was his picture, a 2x2 picture. Kahit I hear from her other girls na merons exhanging of rings and necklaces and stuffs like that, okay lang sa akin... Lahat tinaggap ko. Although he asked me for marriage, sabi ko, no problem with me. Kahit alam ko na he was just playing with me - stii I hang on for months... When I tried to complete the puzzle and the questions that boggling my mind... There's just one answer to what he did... He used me to get back with my cousin... He has false accusations kasi... I know it hurts a lot but all I have to do is accept it, although I've learned to love him na... It's just hard, kasi what my Dad was doing all his life with women, sa akin lahat bumabalik... And I know how it feels to be fooled not just once but many times... MASAKIT...

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Kathryn: Having a seemingly successful career, is there anything else you want to achieve in your field (e.g. business)?

Maristel: I can't say that I have a successful carrer na (right at this moment)... But if there's one thing that I want to achieve right now is to have MY OWN and stable business. Yung ako ang Proprietor. I am not dreaming of a big company and having my own building at Makati. But just a mid-class business that will make my family - especially my DAD proud of me... A business that will have my trademark and will be my pride. A business enough to sustain my FAMILY's needs. And a business where I can save money and to have a house of my own. I've always dreamt of having my own house. I know right now, it's impossible - but with me to achieve it, I have to strive hard and I should have the perseverance... I do believe that I 'll have this someday, maybe even without my Dad's help - but I do believe that God's with me... He do always listen to my prayers and I know in His perfect time, I will achieve it. I just have to KEEP THE FAITH...

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Paolo: What do you think of me as a co-housemate?

Maristel: Now, this question made me smile. Pao, you as a co-housemate is such a pleasure on my part. You are very special to me... I know you're one of my closest in this game (not because you're a PAJEMAREMAnian) ... But YOU, as a virtual housemate sure knows how to make your co-vHousemates special... You're very much willing to do anything for us... You're such a sweet person and I will never ever regret knowing him in this game... He's a kid and a brother to me. And I will forever treasure you. I will keep you inside my heart for once in my life a kid named Paolo Miguel walked in my life and made it worth living and fighting for. I love you Pao...

A MUST READ: Just Can't Take it Anymore...

2006-05-11T01:46:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was not the exact day I have been seeing in my mind for some time lately... I woke up early yesterday... Thinking of things to do... Like for our next outing at Pansol, Laguna (again?!?!)... So I was thinking of what I have to bring... But some bad news came... That my Dad was planning to bring 3 girls at the Villa. So we decided, not to push through that plan... I also heard that my Dad's dating a new lad, from Tarlac. And that he's planning to bring the lad @ Baguio this Friday... My heart's been aching and it's tearing me apart... I want to shout! I want to scream! I wanna get mad! I wanna CRY...

I feel so fed up! It's like all my life, what I'm doing is understand him... Love the women that came into his life... Respect them and love them more than what my dad can offer... I dunno, why there are men that's like that. I feel like I'm inside an empty box... That can't breathe...

Then yesterday while I was having my siesta with my Mom and Karen... My brother called me up on the phone... The conversation was like:
MATS: Hello!
RJ: Hello Mats, sandali...
then suddenly I have this feeling that he's not the one who wants to talk to me...
DAD: Ano? Dito ba kayo kakain?
MATS: Ako po hindi. Aalis po kasi ako...
DAD: Sila Doinx nasan?
MATS: Hindi ko po alam. Umalis sila kanina eh...
DAD: Siguro magtatagal sila noh?
MATS: Text nyo na lang po. Alam ko sa NBI and sa WPD lang sila pupunta...
DAD: O sige...

So that's it! What a conversation, right? I was just having this not-so-well feeling that I might be going there and end up doing nothing and worst... Hear words that will definitely break my heart... I wasn't wrong...

Around 12midnight, my brother arrived from Bacood... He has Kare-Kare that Mannique cooked for my Dad and the rest of the fellas at my Dad's place...

We prepared the dining table so we can have our late dinner... I sat in my usual dining chair, just clicking the plate... When my brother placed his clutch bag on the china cabinet and sat in his usual chair... He told me, "Napakadami ng sinabing masama ni Daddy tungkol sa'yo... Masama daw ang loob niya sa'yo... Kesyo sabi mo raw nung minsan, nakakumpirmiso na yung mga aso mo sa ibang tao... PARE-PAREHO lang naman daw ang KULAY NG PERA..."

I am totally clueless on what he said... All of a sudden there I was... My tears fallin'...

Masakit lang kasi, if there was this "kinumpirmiso" na sa ibang tao thing... That's just one puppy... Our friend Bong Aycocho has been expecting for a puppy since last year pa. Nakakahiya lang naman kung di ko pa din siya mapagbibigyan. Ganun din naman, kung ibebenta ko, same price pa din naman, mas mura pa nga ang benta ko sa dad ko... What hurts the most was, lahat daw ng puppies para na daw sa ibang tao ko na ibebenta... Tapos biglang siya daw ang last option ko... Hindi yun eh... Meron akong isang salita... I told him sa kanya ko lahat ibebenta... Kasalanan ko bang mahalin yung dalawang puppies na ngayon inaalagaan ko na... Katabi ko pa sa pagtulog... Pinadala ko na sa kanya the other night yung dalawang puppies pa na sobrang mahal ko na din... It's not that easy leeting go of something na napamahal na sa'yo... Like yung naunang german sheperd that he bought to me, masakit for me, kasi he brought the puppies at Pampanga, and yun namatay... Andun na ko, binayaran niya ako... But the effort that I gave, the love and time that I gave for the puppies that's my point... He once told me that he will bring the Japanese Spitz that I gave him 2 years ago at Pampanga... Ganun din daw yung mga puppies na bibilin niya sa kin... Okay na nga eh... Yung isa I brought it at Metrobank, G. Araneta - Quezon Ave. Branch. The Manager there is a friend of my Dad kasi, and he gave the puppy to her as a gift... The thought is... PARE-PAREHO LANG PALA FOR HIM ANG KULAY NG PERA... Bakit hanggang ngayon di niya pa ako binayaran sa aso na yun?

Second, kahit nakikita ko namakapal ang pera na hawak ng kapatid, ENVY or JEALOUSY never ever popped into my my mind... I know pinaghirapan ng kapatid ko yun sa company ng Dad ko... Alam ko malaki ang pakinabang ng Daddy ko sa kapatid ko. Kung anung meron ng kapatid ko, I'm happy for him. Bigyan niya ako or hindi, it doesn't matter.

I remember... If I am not mistaken April 19 this year... While we are at Pansol Laguna... Around 3:30 am I saw him talking to some women sa may comfort room... Then he blocked my way may be because he thought that I might confront the women and asked them why my Dad's talking to them... My Dad suddenly grabbed me by the arm ang gave me the tightest embrace ever... He whispered to me these words... " 'nak kapag nabenta ko yung Pajero natin, promise ko sa'yo - bibigyan kita ng 50,000..." I remember, I told him "No. I don't need that... Usapang lasing 'to, I know bukas nakalimutan mo na 'to" He told me, "Hindi, 'nak... pangako yan... Tapos, hintayin mo mabenta yung lupa natin sa Paco, bibigyan kita ng kalahating million, kaya lang baka ubusin mo na naman agad..." Simple lang sinagot ko sa kanya, "Yung huli mong binigay napunta sa pagpapagawa ko ng Barbershop, tapos yung iba pinaayos ko yung kwarto..." Sabi lang niya, "Oo nga pala no! Basta kapag nabents yung Pajero, wait ka lang..." Those was his last words for me... But right deep in my heart, I never expect... I know I might get hurt in return, mas masakit yung ganun...

So, I think a week ago, I was at my Dad's place nung mabenta yung Pajero. I was sitting next to him on the couch when he counted some bills from his pocket and gave it to my brother... But since I was in their middle, I grabbed the money... Sabi ko lang, pahawak naman... I count the money... Uy, 25k!!!" Then I gave it to my brother... No heart feelings, I know right then and there wala akong matatanggap from him... So we went home... I went hope empty-handed... It's fine with me... Okay lang naman lagi sa'kin eh... I am the type of person who doesn't know how to demand... Hindi ako mapag-hanap... Hindi din ako reklamador...

So last night, while I was having a cigarette after our late dinner, I was doing some thinkings... I was talking to my brother's wife, Karen... Here's what I thought... Pare-pareho naman pala ang kulay ng pera di ba? Sana nung nabenta niya yung Pajero ano ba namang inabutan niya ko ng pera na kulay UBE (100) or yung kulay PULA (50) or yung kulay ORANGE (20) or worst kahit sampung piso lang... Pare-pareho lang naman pala kulay ng pera eh... Gustong gusto kong umiyak... Di ko na kaya lahat ng sinabi niya... Ginatungan pa daw ni Mannique (his other woman) na "Tuta lang lang naman yun... Para tuta lang, bakit kailangan pang bayaran?" First, when I asked my brother to bring the puppies at his place... Di ko naman sinabi sa kapatid ko na kunin nya yung bayad para sa mga aso... Di ako naningil... I did not even text him, telling him na anjan na yung mga tuta pakipadala na lang kay RJ yung bayad! Wala yung ganung salita... Sobrang sakit! Parang dinudurog ako!

You know what? I have a lot in mind right now... There has been a lot of sacrifices on my side that I did for him... I did not have any side comments or what-so-ever... I kept quiet for a long time. I was 5 years old when he left our family... My Mom gave birth to my brother, 1984 when he started doing stuffs like that. Nagkaroon ako ng dalwang kapatid all on my father's side... The first one was Nica, my Dad doesn't know that I was secretly meeting the child and his Mom. i treated them out... Watched movies, ate out (Eastwood) and bought a lot of clothes and books for her... I know kasi kapatid ko sya. So I think - I have to do what all Ate's have to do for their younger sister... Before pa magdecide ang Dad ko na ipakilala sa kin yung bata, di niya alam, I am acquainted with them na... I've never been an "evil sister" I have never been mean. Instead minahal ko yung bata, even her Mom, Mannique... All of those, I am doing it not to get a good attitude or personality for others... I am not coming in clean for them... I am doing it for my Dad coz HIS HAPPINESS means A LOT TO ME...

When I was a child there are only 2 dreams I want to pursue... It's either to become a DOCTOR or a FLIGHT STEWARDEES... I graduated Bachelor of Science major in Psychology at Far Eastern University, Year 2000. I decided to take a break for a sem... October, I went back at my Dad's place and told him that I made up my mind, and I want to continue and take Medicine... He refused to. Gastos lang daw yun! Masakit! Ang dami niyang pera, it was his dream din naman for me... It has always been his reponsibility as father to provide things for his children. Pero lahat ng responsibilidad niya like sending me to school and napagraduate niya ako, lagi na lang niyang sinusumbat sa akin... Alam ko malaki ang utang na loob ko sa kanya, but it's his responsibility, it's his obligation as a father. So I end up frustrating... Ang yaman niya, I was never the type of daughter who gets what I want... I was never spoiled... I have never been a Daddy's Girl... So, I started up a small business... A playstation House... Then I sell Facial and Beauty Soaps, Longganizas, Loads and other stuffs... Got my first 100k on my savings account Year 2004... Bought my first cellphone when I was in college with my own money... Ngayon naka N70 na ako and not a single centavo came from him. Lahat, sariling sikip! I strived hard to get what I want in my life. To pamper myself. To give myself the things that I long waited for my Dad to give me - but he did not...

My dad made me stronger... From him I learned to hide what my real feeling are... I always have to smile and laugh on things eventhough it hurts... Ayaw na ayaw niya ng umiiyak kapag pinagsasabihan niya, so that's what I did... I learned to answer his accusations and different stuffs that we always argue with... Minsan nga pakiramdam ko... MANHID na ako... Kasi paulit-ulit lang naman yung nangyayari sa amin... Parang sirang plaka... But what I heard last night - that's what HIT me straight from the heart... Di ko na kaya! I swear... All my life, I wanted him to be proud of me... For him to be happy, pero lahat ng ginagawa ko, kulang para sa kanya... He don't know how to appreciate things... He doesn't know how to show love for the people who truly loves him...

With this blog, I was able to release all my pent up emotions... Sukdulan na... I can't take this anymore... I know he will never ever change... I just hope wag na nya hayaan na may mawala na malapit sa kanya just for him to realize things and do good for others...

Anyway, it's me Mats signing off... till my next update...

To my fellow VHs, I am missing you much... :)

pics attached:
-->>> 1st, New Year 2005
-->>> 2nd, My brother and my cousin's Bday August 2005
-->>> 3rd, my Dad with Viobeth (with a son, Ravio)
-->>> 4th, my Dad with Mannique (Nica's Mom)
-->>> 5th, Me, my brother RJ and Nica
-->>> 6th, Me and Ravio...

gOt myself a new swim wear...

2006-05-02T22:51:00.000+08:00

Wow! For the first time! The blog that I just made was deleted!!! Now, how am I going to start over again... I've been sick for the past few days... Had this major hyperacidity that I really can't take and my doctor advised me to take Prevacid 30mg for 7days... Been through a lot lately....

We've been busy for the past few weeks too. We had 3 big events last Saturday... A convention @ Westin Philippine Plaza who PGMA was the guest speaker. We had a wedding @ Peninsula Hotel... We had a 50th Wedding Anniversary at Oriental Gardens...

Been sick... Recuperate, but still been a SHRINK to a lot of people. There was cousin Bryan who was having problems with his minor wife. His petition papers from the U.S. already arrived and he's scheduled for a medical anytime. He's having problems on how he's gonna convince his wife and his wife's mother to sign as the petitioner for the anullment of their marriage... Also been a shrink to Nadine Bosch, my cousin Archie's girlfriend. They've been having problems lately. I am really willing to give them a helping hand. I don't want their relationship go a stray... Also been a shrink to my cousin Bea who was still in pain with his ex boyfriend AJ... See, eventhough I'm sick, still, I get to help other people... I hope at least by little means I helped them with their probs...

Well I can't wait for our one day vacation at Nasugbu, Batangas. It's all expense by Theresa Linzo. A lesbian friend of my cousin Bane. It's a post celbration of her debut. It's her treat for us. My cousin Bane keeps on teasing Theresa to me.. I dunno why... Pati tuloy yung gilfriend niya, jealous na daw... Anyway, al old friend of mine who happens to be married for two years now, is asking me if he can court me... Wow!!! I don't know what to say! If he isn't married and doesn't have a family, why not? He's sweet and thoughtful... But that's a big problem! See, now I'm telling you... I'm a relationship wrecker!

To Adrian, I remember you once texted me, that you might be the next evictee... Well you're definitely wrong! You made it to the BIG FOUR! I'm happy for you. Anyway, I miss our little chit-chats sa texts... How're you and your SunsHine?

To Paolo, what happened to you... For the past two days, I'm getting online but you're not there... I always buzzed you, pero wala... I know you're so sad with Kellie Pickler being eliminated in American Idol... Wag ka mag alala! You made it naman sa BIG FOUR!!! Anyway, I miss you Pao...

To Kath, I'm so sorry... Alam ko ang dami ko ng atraso sa'yo... Don't worry, when I come back from Batangas, I'll give you the info's

To Heidee, it's been real fun sharing little beauty stuffs with you! Hope to hear from you soon!

To Kath and Heidee... Whoever leaves or stay at the house... I'm happy for you... Kung sino man yung aalis sa vHouse ni Big Bad Kuya... I'll be treasuring a lot of memories forever... Whoever leaves, I never regret given the chance to know you... Whoever stay, I hope we will all stay stronger! Whatever happens, after this season, we will be friends forever!

Anyway, for two consecutive days, I busied myself shopping... Till I saw this beautiful fuschia crocheted two-piece and I can't wait to wear it! As if!!! The guts naman!!!

Anyway I'll keep you posted soon... Miss you all guys!

All Of A Sudden

2006-04-26T02:52:00.000+08:00

A surge of emotions

Too ambiguous to understand

Intense

Overflowing

Bewildering

Capturing the heart

Beholden by a spell

Enslaved by the majesty of the moment

All of a sudden

Crazy over the thought

Of spending a lifetime together

Closer

Deeper

Stronger

Conquering the test of time

A vox to fulfill

When two hearts become one

All of a sudden

Through the years

Counting the blessings one by one

Blissful

Rosy

Sunny

Bundles of joy

Who delight over fairytales

Giving a reason for being

All of a sudden

Choices to make

Hurdles to take

Painful

Bitter

Confusing

Farther apart we go

Silence in between us

Strangers we are to each other

All of a sudden

Confusion...

2006-04-26T02:40:00.000+08:00

~*~ There's this certain song that keeps on running in my mind... Since yesterday that I watched the video at Myx, I just can't simply take it off my mind. I know you all know the song "JUST ONCE" - as what with my last posts on ProBoards... I remember I once declared that I wanna be in love. I need some loving. Someone who'll understand me. Someone that I can give my love whole-heartedly...

Recently I had this thinking, that I may not have had the perfect relationship, but I know that in each relationship I went through - I know that it made me stronger. I've had almost all the bad relationship. I wasn't fooled once. I wasn't fooled twice. But still I continue living... I continue loving life. It's just that LOVE's a little out of my way.

They say that LOVE is like a butterfly that the more you chase it, the more it eludes you. But when you just let it fly, it will come the least you expect it... Just open your hand and that butterfly will surely make it's way right into your palm... I've always believe in that saying.

That I shouldn't find love. That it's love - that has to find me. There has been a lot of surveys in Friendster that I have answered. If I'm not mistaken, the question "have you been in love?" has been overused for quite some time now. And all I have to answer is "WHO DOESN'T?" Now tell me? It's right, right?

We all have been in love. We all loved the feeling of being in love. We all have been crazy in love. But most of the time, we all end up bruised - by love... We all end up hurtin'... We all end up in pain. But no matter hoe painful it is - I know and I believe that everything happens for a reason. Everything that happened in our life has its own purpose. It may be good, it may be bad... But God knows that He gave us that trial because He know that we can overcome it... We'll surpass it and we'll learn from it...

I just can't simply understand why FRIENDS CAN BE LOVERS but LOVERS CAN'T BE FRIENDS... I, myself really is aware of that. Sometimes, it just confuses me. Coz some people around me still ended up friends with their ex lovers. When I myself, can't. They always told me that maybe I am just being "bitter"... I know down deep in my soul that once I called it quits - it ends there. Yes, I am open for friendship - but the closeness we had before we'll never be the same again. I still do believe that maybe some ex couples became friends is either because thay really didn't love each other that much or maybe there really is no love deep inside...

But somehow, I'm wondering, why some people can be a total strangers after all....

I dunno what popped in my head, why I am so all over for love right now. I am recuperating because I've gone sick for a few days - but what really strucked me now is L.O.V.E. - maybe because I am a hopeless romantic and I am now open for any chances...

I've took risks, I've taken chances before but still - I didn't get much love in return. I just wish, that maybe someday, somehow, love will find it's way to me...

VACAY

2006-04-21T02:02:00.000+08:00

~~> April 17 , Monday

Woke up around 11 am, kaya lang nag CR lang muna ako... I went back to my bedroom, climb up the bed and guess what?!? Natulog ako ulit!!! Hehehe!!! Naalimpungatan na lang ako when I checked my cell and see what time it is... OMG!!! 18:00!!! Hala!!! Lagot! Kaya ako naman, dali-dali talaga akong tumayo! Grabbed my purse and my cellphone! Deadma muna ako pagbaba ko! wala lang... Hahaha!

We asked Bane na pumunta sa palengke and check kung may mabibilhan pa ng liempo. After 20 minutes she came back, and WALA NA daw! Hala!!! Patay na! Kung kailan tuloy na tuloy na yung outing namin tsaka naman, wala mabilhan ng liempo! So ayun, inutusan na lang namin si Bryan and Bane na pumunta ng SM and dun na lang bumili ng liempo.

Nung nakabalik na sila... I did my thing na. Nilinis ko na yung chicken. Nagprepare na ako ng dalawang bungkos ng garlic. Basta lahat ako na! I swear! Mahirap! Nilinis ko yung mga liempo. Ang hirap talaga kapag walang assistant! Si Bane naman kasi naglinis pa ng kamay at paa!!! Tama daw bang kung kailan oras na ng trabaho tsaka magmamanicure and magpedicure!!! Haay naku talaga!!!

We're going to borrow my Dad's MB100... Para van na lang kami. Para di na kami magdadalawang sasakyan. Mahal ang krudo!

Late night while I was preparing the foods, my dad came! Ininvite din kasi sya ni Tita Lani. Since maghihiram kami ng van sa kanya nakakahiya naman kung di namin sya isasama di ba? Anyways, ayun kwentuhan sila sa bahay namin! Ako naman, talagang nagpakabusy na sa pagpeprepare! 2 1/2 kilos of pork liempo and 2 kls of chicken for adobo ang niluto ko. Ang sakit pa sa kamay ng bawang! Muntik na din ma-overcook! Naawa pa ako sa mga puppies ko kasi sobrang late na and di pa sila kumakain! So I rushed everything! Pinalabas ko na sa fridge yung 4kilos of liempo pa (para naman sa ihaw-ihaw)... Tinimplahan ko na din! Salt and vetsin na lang! Mahirap pa dun, mabuto! Kaya ang kamay ko - eto puro sugat...

~~> April 18, Tuesday

2:30 am -- when I finished preparing the foods. RJ and Kuya Sander come with my Dad. Kukunin kasi nila yung van. So ako, I took my time. Naligo na ako! Ayaw ko naman bumyahe ng di naligo! Ayaw kong manlagkit and wala din ako tulog! So I went upstairs and grabbed my bath things! Nung nasa CR na ako, I texted my fellow vHousemates muna... Phew! At long last! This is it! Tuloy na nga kami! Pagod pero I know pwede na din! Iilan lang naman kami kaya pagdating dun pwede na kami magtulong-tulong.

3:30 am -- ayun, nag pack up na talaga ako! I grabbed my swimming gears. I grabbed 4 tees, 1 skirt, 1 shorts, 5 undies, and some of the things I'll be needing. Since I have my period I bought one pack of napkins. Mahirap ng maubusan!

4:00 am -- we received a call from Kuya Sander, asking kung prepared na nga raw ba! So ako I woke up Bryan and told him to get ready, Kuya Sander's on his way na. So ako, bumaba na agad. Checked on the things we'll be bringing sa biyahe.

5:30 am -- kinamada na nila yung mga gamit sa sasakyan! Magdadalawang sasakyan pa sana kami, kaya lang 3 lang naman yung sasakay sa Safari so, sabi namin! Sama-sama na lang. Saktong 6:30 we left. Nakakalungkot pa nga kasi di man lang makakasama mom, my brother and his wife and his baby... So sabi ko sa kanya, pilitin niyang makasunod!

~*~ on the road... wala naman masyado traffic! ~*~

7:30 am -- Ayun na! Sa wakas nahanap din namin ang VILLA V... Hahaha!!! Nagbreakfast muna kami... Swim! And played Badminton with Paulo! Hahaha!!! Mega sound blast kami agad! Para naman masaya! I texted my co vHousemates na andun na nga kami!

Nakipagkita kami dun sa dati naming driver.

Ayun na! Nag-umpisa na ang mga kalokohan! Swimming dito! Tulakan dito! Lunuran dito! Dapat walang pikunan! Nung nagkapaguran na kami! I dried myself na! Nung okei na ako! Punta na ako dun sa room ko! I changed my shorts ...

Natulog muna ako... Mga 1 hour lang siguro... Paano ba naman, I heard my cousins shouting "Andyan na sila!!!" So ako, tayo agad ako! and checked kung sino dumating. There, I saw my Dad's Pajero... He's with his friend Dyunie, Lando and 2 maids Jessa and Jobie. I also saw my cousin's Safari... Yung kapatid ko na pala ang nagdala! I saw Karen, Nice (the baby), My mom and our maid Meck. So kumpleto na! Wala ng kaming hinihintay! Swim na lang talaga ulit!

By 11pm inantok na talaga ako! Di ko na talaga kaya!!! Kaya I took a short shower - I clamped my hair and strike anywhere na lang ako! Natulog ako! Di ko alam, sumunod pala sila Papu, Bane and Bryan sa akin. Natulog din. Nilatag na lang nila yung sleepingbag na dala nila.

Dumating din pala yung Dad ni Kuya Sander with Thessa, Yonick, Criselle, Yonick and Ian. Sorry, pero talagang di na kinaya ng powers ko and di ko na sila naharap! Di nga din ako nakapagdinner... :( Lahat ng pinrepare ko - di ko natikman...

~~> April 19, Wednesday

Mga around 3:00 nagising na ako, kasi nagtalak na mommy ko sa room! So I stood up... Direcho na ako sa labas. Sabi ko sa Mom ko kung may makakain pa - sobrang sakit na talaga ng sikmura ko. Ayun nakapagtabi pala si Kuya Sander ng hipon. While I was having my meal, lumapit Dad ko and gave me a money. I asked him, what's it for... For the puppy? Di daw... So, ok... I told him thanks... I can't kiss him kasi dirty lips ko. Kumakain ako eh...

Wala na din pala kami maiinom, pano naubos ang yelo! So nagpaalam ako sa Dad ko na lalabas kami and bibili ng yelo. Dinala na namin ang van. Sumama na sa kin sina Bane, Paulo and Bryan drove us sa bayan. Bumili ako ng Vodka Cruiser, melon flavor. And isang lapad ng Tampurador - este Emperador, for the youngsters! I bough some cup noodles din for my Dad and Mom and para kay Bryan. Pano... Walang natira sa amin. Swerte namin ni Bane kasi naka tig dalawang hipon kami kahit papaano. Pati yung 4kilos na Liempo that I prepared, wlalang natira! Sinigang na Hipon wala din! Pati ung napakaraming mais na binili namin, wala! As in SIMOT!!!

Pagbalik namin sa Villa V, dun kami sa kabilang cottage, inom! And card games kami! Tulog na lahat and yung Dad ko naman nagpapababa ng tama sa dami ng nainom!

Mga around 5:00 am nagaalam Dad ko. Alis na daw muna sya. Punta sya ng Sta. Cruz Laguna with Dyunie and Lando. Iwan na nya yung mga maid nya para makatulong. Sad to say! Wala naman naitulong! Walang mga kyeme eh...

Around 6:00 am I talked to the the caretaker of the Villa magpapaextend kami till 12 noon. Okay daw. Hanggang sa nagising na lahat and asked me to talked to Ka Azon ulit kung pwede kahit till 10pm na lang daw kami para di mainit sa biyahe... Yun nga lang dagdag 2k daw. So till 7pm na lang kami nagpa extend.

I practiced some divings. Yung una ulo. That I can't do kasi. When my brother decided to swim, ayun, sabi niya dive daw ako ulit. Ayun, kung di talaga matiga ang ulo ko, huling dive ko na nga, nadisgrasya pa ako! Nauntog ako! Tumama ulo ko sa flooring ng pool. Sumobra naman ata! Eh di nagkabukol ako sa right side ng forehead ko! Have to admit it - MASAKIT TALAGA!!!

Pati lunch - late na ako kumain. Paano, nakaidlip ako. Around 2 pm ginising lang ako ni Bryan para makapag lunch na daw ako... Inihaw na tilapia! My favorite! Pero konti na lang nakain ko - kasi sobrang antok na ako! So after eating my lunch, tulog ako ulit. This time dun naman ako sa room nila Tita Lani. Dun kasi solo ko lang. Para walang maingay!

They woke me up mga 5:00 pm. Magprepare na daw kasi uuwin na. So I packed my things and sinakay ko na sa van. Naguni-muni muna ako...

Sakto 7pm biyahe na kami! We got home 9pm... Di pa ako agad natulog! Nilinis ko muna lahat ng cooler na dala namin! Inayos ko mga puppies ko... I took a long cold bath! Ang init kasi eh! Then Bane called me, kasi dinner nga daw... Ayun, had a quick dinner then, my cousin asked me to make an excuse letter for his friend who was with us, si Japheth...

After that, I brushed my teeth and cleansed my face... I slept na...

I'll be attaching some pics... Proof na talagang I really gained weight... hehehe!!!

1st pic... 'was just takin' a break...

2nd pic... that's Villa V. That's we're we spend our night.

3rd pic... Siyeata ko yan! Bago ako nagpahinga nung tanghali... Di kasi namin nadala yung digicam kaya cellphone cam na lang...

4th pic... Sa cottage while having an afternoon shots! With Kuya Sander, Bryan and Eric (dati naming driver)

Last pic, bago ako nagkabukol. With my cousin Bane...

Anyway, miss you all!!! Adrian, Heidee, Kath, Paolo...

PHOTO COLLAGE (isn't it lovely?) butterflies... angelic... :)

2006-04-17T01:57:00.000+08:00

When BBK told me about this next activity, I was a li'l worried on how I'm going to accomplish it. I don't know hos to use Adobe Photoshop. I don't have programs where I can edit and design pictures here in my pc. Although I have a lot of things in mind on how to do it - still I dunno where to start and how to start.

I was thinking of how to make a collage that will reflect on my personality. So with a little help from my friend Paolo, I told him everything that I want my collage to be. I told him about my concepts, the theme and the colors that he will use.

I love butterfly. I love the beach and I love summer. So I told him to use a butterfly as a pattern for my collage. I want him to emphasize on the color Pink, Red, Baby Blue and Black. I just couldn't imagine about the outcome. Since that was just an imagination for me. I was so super shocked when I saw the finished product. I totally fell in love with the work - the art! It so adorable.

a mistake

2006-04-16T03:26:00.000+08:00

I was up till 10:30... CRYING... For some reasons that any man can't explain. I've been doing a lot of thinkings lately. I've been asking the Lord for guidance and signs for me to stop. Stop doing things for the people who are close to my heart. I've been crying myself to sleep for 4 nights straight. I dunno if it's normal, but just what I learned in Psychology - CATHARSIS - releasing pent up emotions. Everynight, after all my night rituals, I would lay down on my bed. I felt so uneasy. I would end up seeng myself turning myself from side to side - thinking of what I might have done to hurt other people's heart. But I just can't think of any thing that I've done to cause them pain. I was once hurt when I asked my Kuya about my money. I told him that i've been doing a lot of hard works lately and I guess I deserve to get my money in whole. Not just by partial means. I've been working for his company for 4 years and I haven't asked for anything in return. I just wanted to help and see his company growing. I've been taking good care of our clients so that they wouldn't seek for another company that can also provide them of what we can provide them for the past few years. What hurts me was when he told me "Bakit, may ginawa ka ba?" It's just so painful! Coz all this time, that I've been a part of his company, I did my best and I did my part. It's just not so easy putting all your pains inside your heart and not letting it out. Everynight ang lagi ko na lang kausap is our Mighty Father. Coz I know that he's always there and listening to our mourns, cries and heartaches! What we wanted was just a simple outing. An outing that will make everyone happy and make us unwind. But what's been happening lately was "urong-sulong" I dunno what his reasons were - I know there is...

Kasi kami na kasama niya dito sa compound ang lagi niyang karamay and still he's longing for others company. My Aunt and I are willing to do all the works... The cooking, the preparing and everything. Di naman na siguro mabait yun. Coz we offer him everything so that our outing will materialize. I just pity my little cousins who were expeccting from him. Okay na nga lang kahit di na ako sumama - ang happiness ko lang is to see my cousins happy and at least this summer, nag enjoy naman sila...

There was also a certain reason wherein I can't state it here that really broke my heart... He would keep on telling me that some of my relatives really wanted to spend this vacation with me, especially sa outing nga... To those person that he mentioned to me... Katext ko silang lahat. Everyday, I've been sending them quotes - but how come not a single text have I receive from anyone of them saying that they miss me and they're all looking forward seeing me this summer? Lahat sila naka-line... Ako prepaid lang - but still I managed to text them... Am not talking about smart to smart things... Some of them use globe too... Kahit naka unlimited ako I still do remember them... Not just once in while but everyday of my life. It's just breaking my heart!!!

just an explanation:
~*~ Another one... I just saw the site (PBBFG2)... Nalulungkot ako with the outcome of the nomination... I don't want Kath out of the house... Naging close na sya sa akin and I know that there are a lot of things I still want to know about her. Kaya lang parang pinagdadamot naman ata ng tadhana! I know that there's this particular virtual housemate who just voted her out... I hope he or she did a lot of thinking before he or she voted. Kath is a good person. Being a penalty queen is not the basis in this game. Threats are not the basis in this game. I just don't know why some people are so narrow, shallow that they forgot to do some rational thinking. I do believe in free will - it's his or her decision to vote Kath out - but has he or she thought of what he or she might be missing... I myself made a mistake during this 2nd re-nomination. Not that I'm blaming myself but when I voted I was so excited coz I know that we'll be leaving any hour that night and I have to accomplish everything in the virtual house. I submitted my Photo Collage Activity. I wrote and updated my blog... I voted... I left a message for the virtual housemate who recently quit the game.... Everything's been a rollercoaster ride lately... I don't want the same thing that happened when Dylan was voted out. It wasn't intentional. It was an honest mistake.

This time, I know some things are clear and some things aren't... I just hope that for the next few weeks to come, maging clean game na ito. I hate "siraan" I hate "revenge"

I'm a person who happens to believe that for whatever happens we should all be ready to accept the fact... Whether it might be the good or tha harsh way. I've met a lot of people here. I've won a lot of friends and for that I will be forever thankful and grateful that even for just a hundred days... I've met some people who's real and unreal. Life is a stage. We're the actors who plays in it. There will always be villains and people na "naaapi" - but I hope this will end well. Let's not pretend! Let's all be open!

It's not a matter of who's playing it right or the wrong way - but let's all remember that everything will end with just a single flick of a finger. We don't know what will happen next... Kung sino man ang magiging next evictee - I'm wishing you well... Kung sino man ang matitira... Let's all be friends... There's no money involved in this game! Not even a trip to U.S. sana naman let's all pust the past aside... Forget about it! Start anew...

Current Mood: Sad
Current Music: Only Time - Enya

Tearing me into pieces

2006-04-15T15:18:00.000+08:00

I really dunno what's in my mind lately. But honestly, I really am confused on what's happening! I dunno, why I'm feeling like this. I've been crying for 3 nights straight... Am I too emotional? Or was it just my heart and mind who's feeling like that?

~~> april 12, Wednesday

Watched Passion of the Christ... Kindda dragging pero talaga namang naiiyak ako...

Where am I? Just at home! Doing my rounds (as usual)... In and out of the house. Drinking coke sakto or puffing a cigarette... The usual. I heard that Karen brought her baby at Dra. Roque's Clinin at Anonas... My niece, Nice is sick. On and off yung fever niya. The doctor prescribed her a medicine and anti-biotic. The doctor also asked them to change her milk... Enfapro instead of Promil Gold...

I've been expecting a lot lately... Expecting things from a lot of people. Our outing was scheduled today. We're supposed to leave today, but my Kuya Sander's been acting a little weird. He's suddenly becoming so fickle-minded... Biglang "aalis" biglang hindi na nama!!! It really is pissing me off! I just can't take it anymore. He made us expect too much - that in the end we end up st home and doing nothing! It's so irritating. He's leaving all the decisions to us. We don't have any contacts for vacation spots - it's him who has all the contacts! Sa totoo lang, parang ayaw naman niya talaga! He just have to admit it. I know that we're not the people he's expecting to be wiht him this week, kaya lang mas okay sana, kung di na niya kami pinaasa and pinaandaran na aalis. We packed our stuffs tapos wala naman pala!!! Di ba nakakaasar! For months dito lang kami sa house. Doing things and stuffs... Kahit rewards na lang sana! Reward for all our good deed - pero wala! He just kept on disappointing us and hurting our feelings!

~~> april 13, Thursday

I dunno for in some reason why I slept 10:30 am. I really am sleepy when I went upstairs, but I was at the room na... Wala na! I'm all awake!!! I placed my pillow right in front of my face! I wanna shout! I wanna say mean things, but I just can't! I want to release all my heartaches and pains kaya lang, I really can't!!! All I did was cry!!!

Till I decided to just go downstairs and just sleep there at the couch. Di din naman ako makatulog. Paikot ikot lang ako... So around 10:25 I went upstairs and locked myself inside the comfort room. Dun na lang ako nagyosi!

Some cop were calling our house pala... Interrogating my brother about the break in that happened last Monday at our place. He was investigating the case. The brother's victim (the one who barged in at our house) was filing a case against him. Mabait naman daw yun na tao, nawalan lang daw ng cellphone. So sabi nga nila, kaya pala nakapatay din sya ng dalawang tao...

So around 11 am My Mom, Tita Tei and Kuya Sander went at the Barangay Hall and filed a case. Mahirap na daw kasi...

I remember - my Mom was waking me up! Ayun nga, there was an emergency daw at home. My brother's baby was so sick! Talagang di na daw bumaba yung temperature. 40 na. Tas nagtatae pa... As in tubig. Nakaka10 dumi na sya when I went over at my Mom's place.... So I told them to bring it at Lourdes Hospital and ipa-stool exam nila... Mahirap na... For sure dehydrated na yung baby.

So after an hour they decided to rush the baby at the hospital. Confine na lang daw. Sabi naman sa Lourdes, okay lang naman daw yung procedure that they're doing kaya lang kung talagang nag woworry sila, i-confine daw... My brother was having second thoughts, kawawa naman daw yung baby kapag dinextrose. She's only 6mos. old. So ayun, nagpatawag kami ng manghihilot. If I am not wrong I remember Nice fell from the bed a week ago... Di na nila pinaalam sa brother ko... So sabi ko baka pilay lang. According to my Tita naman kasi, may nagtatae din sa pilay. So ayun nga, they found out may pilay nga si Nice. Kaya lang mga aroung 11:30 om pale na yung lips nung baby. So my brother decided to confine her na lang. The baby's at Fe Del Mundo Children's Medical Center. Dinextrose daw and she went through a lot of examination. Stool, Urine and CBC... Negative naman daw lahat. Dun sa unang lab, they found out that the baby has UTI. Kaya lang sa Fe Del Mundo nagtataka sila why at that age (that young) bakit daw meron ng UTI. So she have to undergo another urine test.

Haay, kawawa naman si Nice... Baby namin yun eh!!! :( My Tita Cathy called up. My Lola Lina dropped by at the house. She brought us Guinataang Kamote.

Tambay lang ako sa house ni Mommy... Waited for my brother. Tas ayun...

Get to chat with BBK...

Watched Gladiator! Gosh di ko na alam kung pang ilang bese na ito... Pang twenty na ata... All time favorite ko din kasi yun eh... ;)

~~> april 14, Friday

Was having an early forum with Bane... Just talking about stuffs lang naman! Talked about love... Stupid thing called love!!! Why everybody have to be so hooked up with love? Nakakagalit!!!

Received an early call from my Dad. Had my usual late lunch. Daing na Bangus and Atsara from Tita Lani. Tita Lani asked me to text Tito Daboy, coz her baby's sick too... Grabe naman 'tong Biyernesanto na to... Lahat na lang kids... Kawawa naman sila... Lahat na lang ng babies dito, nadedehydrate na...

Around 5:30 my Mom arrived from the Hospital. Galing nga daw dun yung family ni Tita Cathy and Tito Rommel. Ganun lang. We talked about Nice. Kawawa naman kasi eh... Had a serious talk with Tita Tei. Grabe as in we talked about a lot of stuffs!!!

Adrian texted me... Ayun in love daw sya pero malungkot. But whatever it is - Adrian, I know you'll get thru that.

Pao, super miss na kita! Sorry kung di ako nakakapag online. Dami kasi nangyayari lately dito sa amin! :)

Ian, whatever it is that's i n your mind lately... Hayaan mo na yun! Past is past and we should all live with the future. Konting araw na lang... Sana naman, the good Ian right now is yun na yung totoo, no more revenge or any thing... Ikaw din naman kasi ang tinatamaan. i do hope you understand what I'm talking about...

Kath, grabe! Di pala ikaw yung nasa Forum! Grabe... I am speechless! Wala na akong masabi with what's happening!

Heidee, it's been a while since our last chat! Anyways, we still do text pa naman! Take care a lot! Ingat sa health... Wag masyado sa exercise at diet, mabibigla yung system mo, lalo ka magkakasakit... ;)

Anyway, just got back from the hospital. I brought Napkin for Karen, Iberet and Biogesic. Di na nya kasi kaya. Hirap daw. Halos wala silang tulog. Ayun... buti nagising si Nice, I got to play with her even for a while... Basta ako, continuos pa rin ang prayers ko na sana gumaling na sya. Sana wala naman lumabas na di maganda sa Urine Test niya...

Anyway, till here muna!!! Sobrang bumabagsak na mata ko! Super antok na'ko! Goodnight everyone! I miss you all!!!

Au Revoir! :)

Current Mood: Sleepy
Current Music: So Sick (female version)

UNBELIEVABLE

2006-04-11T22:48:00.000+08:00

For the first time this year 2006. My family organized an outing!!! Finally!!! The moment I'm waiting for!!! I can't wait to hit the BEACH or the POOL... I don't care as long as there's SUN... Loud music, foods, COKE, marlboro greens... I'll be very happy!

~~> april 11, Tuesday:

5 am -- Just thinking of things to bring on our outing! The truth is we still haven't find a place where we'll spend our outing. We're still deciding whether Laguna or Batangas... Bryan gave me Mrs. Lina Gumpal's cellphone # - that's at Tali Beach at Batangas. I inquired sa Montemar Beach Club sa Bataan (too expensive!!!)

6 am -- Went upstairs, comfort room to be in particular. I brushed my teeth. I pee. Went inside the room. Do my night rituals (as usual)... Prayed and cleanse my face. I registered for a 2 days unlimited text at Smart. I forwarded a 'good morning" quotes to my friends.

7 am -- I received a text from my Tita Lani. "di ba friend ka, minsan usap naman tayo"... Was a little curious about her message so no matter how sleepy I am I still managed to text her back and asked what is it about. She told me kulang pa daw ako sa tulog and I might as well sleep first and we'll talk about it in the morning.

7:30 am -- Slept... sound asleep GoOmOrNyT to me...

11 am -- I woke up... Call of nature. But I checked my cellphone first. I received a message from my friend Desiree & Ma'am Chona. Also received a message from Pao, asking me to go online na nga and he has something to say daw... So i texted him back, sarap pa tulog ko, maybe in a while mag oonline ako.

11:30 -- I fixed my bed. Piled my pillows. Fold my comforter. Went downstairs with my puppies Cotton and Candy. Heat our food. And went online....

1 pm -- I logged in sa YM... Nanibago ako kasi Heidee's not online. Sent a message kay Pao. Jomar pm me. Ayun chat kami. After a while nag online na din si Marge. We talked a lot about things and stuffs. Nagkachat din kami ni Ian, who I lost in touch for days... Was just glad, we were able to chat. May fansite na pala si Marge and so as Ian. It was Jomar naman who made his site. Jomar made a fansite for Marge too... So sweet...

4 pm -- Still online. Chat pa din kami ni Pao. Tapos ayun nga...

5 pm -- We talked about our outing and who's gonna come...

6 pm -- Went over at Tita Lani's place. Saw her eyes na sobrang maga and I know that's from crying. She told me the reasons. I empathized her. I know how she feels. I just hope I could do something to cheer her up and lift her spirits up. I was having this exchange of text messages with Jomar. He's on his way to Bicol kasi. Well, wishing him a safe trip. Jomar, Enjoy & have fun!

Dramathon... Watched Gulong ng Palad, Sa Piling Mo, wasn't able to finish Panday, kasi nakatulog ako sa couch. They just woke me up kasi dinner na nga raw.

11 pm -- Took my long relaxing bath... Nagbabad talaga ako sa shower. because it was so freaking hot!!! Sarap ng feeling maligo!

12 midnight -- Nag online ako, and finally got the chance to chat with Adrian and Marge. Was so shocked sa site. I really am so speechless!!!

1 am -- Finished my activity - I might not finish it kung ipagpapabukas ko pa.

We might be leaving early this morning or late night... So Adrian, Ian, Heidee, Kath, Marge & Pao, I will miss you guys! Hope I'll enjoy!!! Stay safe and be safe. Love you all! Marge, you'll get through that. Pao, thanks a lot for your help sa activity. Really words aren't enough for your good deed. I just wanted you to know how much I appreciate your work (following my concept) - really from the bottom of my heart thanks! I love you guys! You will always be a part of me... You just all made me complete!

Au Revoir!!! :)

~ mwaHuggZ :-* >:D< ~

~*~ currently listening to Craig David's UNBELIEVABLE!!!

TRAUMATIC DAY!!!

2006-04-09T19:35:00.001+08:00

~~> april 10, Monday:

5 am -- Issued checks for MWSI, Bayantel, PLDT, Meralco and Credit Card bills. Still up keeping track on the records of the ins and outs of money. Did the book keeping. Wrote the expenses and miscellaneous stuffs on our planner. Checked and updated the Credit Card bills.

~*~ currently listening Bonnie Bailey's Ever After...

6 am -- I asked Papu to get me a Sprite 500 @ 'ta Jhick's place. I'm so sleepy and still there are a lot of stuffs I have to finish. Kuya Sander opened our vacation for this Holy Week... We might be leaving Tuesday (tomorrow) or Wednesday... We might be staying at Laguna first. Sa house ng Uncle Jigz ko sa Bel-Air... If we'll be receiving a text from my Tito Elly that they'll be on their way to Batangas, biyahe na din kami to Batangas.

7 am -- Went upstairs to the Comfort Room and brushed my teeth. Then after, sa Bedroom na and did my night rituals... Prayed first then did my beauty regimens... Eskinol, Petroleum Jelly on my lips as lip balm, Powder, Cologne and then Lotion... Chikahan muna kami ni Bane tapos umakyat na din sila Kuya Sander and Bryan... Usapang sunmates kami. Jokes, Quotes and stuffs... Tapos ayun, napag-usapan namin si Bong Aycocho from Forerunner Technologies. Pinagtripan namin sa Sun. Nakakaloko talaga! Sobrang tawa kami ng tawa! We laughed so hard that my eyes were teary eyed na from too much laugh...

7:30 -- Ayun na. Tinamaan na ako ng antok... Asleep...

10:45 -- Call of nature. But I checked my cellphone muna kung meron nag text. Kahit isa wala!!! So I stood up. I saw some dog shit behind the door, I ignored it for a while (Cotton & Candy sleep with us kasi sa Bedroom) and unlocked and opened the door. So dun muna ako sa porcelain god. Di ko nga namalayan, nakatulog ako ulit... For 5mins. Then I hear the phone rang. So I washed and went out to answer the phone sana. I heard Bryan and Papu downstairs from school (distribution of report cards kasi). So I guess either of them answered the phone na. I was thinking na I want to go downstairs and magsaing na. Get ready for Lunch. I still have 4 tilapia kasi sa freezer, kaya lang sudden change of mind. So I went back to the room instead and picked up the dog shit.

11 am -- I heard this footsteps sa rooftop! Parang tumatakbo... So ako, "SHIT!!! ANO YUN" (sounds panicking na ako)... So Kuya Sander stood up and checked and peeped sa blinds. Wala naman syang nakita. So he climbed up ung bed namin ni Bane and silip sya dun sa maliit na butas sa may frame ng aircon. He saw this guy who was running nga and climbed up naman sa roof ng bedroom ng Mom ko... So panic na talaga kami. I heard people shouting. I heard my brother's voice and the neighbors din...

I checked on my Mom and was all pale. Sobrang hypertensive sya. She doesn't know what to do and all she did was demonstrate what happened. My cousin Papu saw what happened to.

Our place kasi is a compound. 5 houses lahat. Our maid Meck who was currently doing the laundry when she saw a guy who has one "dos por dos" in his hand who crossed the dividing wall from Mang Pinong to our terrace. Sinita pa niya. Sabi niya "Hoy! ano yan?". She was appaled lang kasi yung ibang kapitbahay sinundan na yung lalaki na umakyat sa amin. She was afraid pero tinuloy pa rin niya yung paglalaba niya. My Mom naman who was supposedly to gather water from the tupuro sa dirty kitchen (coz palabas na sya ng pinto) saw this guy who jumped from the roof! Mayron pa kaming isang gate dun sa likod connecting to Annie Mae & Mang Nonong's house. Dun bumagsak yung lalaki. So my Mom closed the door and hide behind our blinded windows. Nakita ng Mom ko na from the gate na pinagbagsakan nung lalaki tumakbo papunta sa dirty Kitchen namin. He dropped the piece of wood he has and that hit the trash can. So natumba yung basurahan. We have this sink there and in front of the sink were the hanging hooks for the laddles, turners, thongs, strainers and butcher's knife that we have. Just last March 17 I cleaned that place up. It was neat & imamaculate. I washed all the kitchen accessories that was hanging there. Nagulat na lang ang Mommy ko when she saw that the man was grabbing the butcher's knife. There were three buthcer's knife there. He was grabbing two. He can't easily get it coz the hooks were tight. So instead he pulled out the largest one and natanggal yung hook na pinakakabitan nung itak. When my Mom saw that he was holding two "itak" na... She ryshed through the door ang locked it. Fortunately di na siya nahirapan (pasaway din kasi yung glass door na yun). The man saw her and ran towards our door. He pulled the locked door twice. He was even staring at my Mom daw (with fiery eyes). So what my Mom did was run through the stairs - kaya lang instinct nga naman bumabagal na daw sya maglakad. The man opened one of our kitchen's window and looked at her angrily with his right hand on the air and scared my Mom. Nung nakaakyat na yung Mom ko, nagulat sa kanya si Arjay (my brother) & Karen (his wife). They went straight ahead sa Terrace and checked kung nasan na yung lalaki. Yung Mom ko naman out of curiousity opened my empty room. Pag silip nya sa bintana, nakita nya yung lalaki who was running away papunta sa may Barbershop namin. He can't go out sa Barbershop dahil nakabarrel bold ang pinto. Meron stairs dun papunta sa stockroom sa compound umakyat sya dun and saw the wall that connects to Mang Nonong's house, dun sya dumaan. Tumalon sya dun and dun na din sya sa gate nila Mang Nonong lumabas. Our neighbors chased him. he crossed the railroad (home along the riles kasi kami). Nakita daw niya yung "panciteria" and initak yung lalaki na nagseserve. Naharangan sya ng isang bumibili initak nya din. Sa may Paltoc naman there were some people who were forming for a rally - there cops there. Nadiscover namin na nung umakyat sya sa bubong namin may humahabol na pala sa kanya. When the cop tried to stopped him, initak nya sa may upperlip. Right there and then the cop shot him. We heard 8 gunshots.

Just this afternoon according to our neighbors from the market told us that 2 was killed by the brigand. The cop was injured and the man was killed.

Even my cousin who was only 13 years old - saw everything behind a closed accordion. We all know naman that I doesn't stay at my Mom's place. Dito talaga ako sa mga pinsan ko who was just three steps away from the house. Buti na lang din and Papu didn't open the accordion coz if that happens kami ang papasukin. Pababa na din ako that time - and on that instance baka kami ang nagkasalubong nung lalaki.

The man was reportedly a cellphone snatcher but according to what he said from the people outside... His cellphone was stolen and he was provoked to chase the man who snatched his cellphone. Nag amok lang daw. We don't care about that anymore.

Di lang ngayon nagyari 'to. Siguro twice na 'to. Mabait lang talaga si God dahil di niya hinahayaan na may masaktan or mawala sa amin.

I am just so thankful that from that incident walang nawala sa bahay namin (just the itak). I just have to say thankyou God that nobody from my Family was hurt by that man...

*** LESSON LEARNED:
Always lock the gate. A lot of bad people are now surrounding. We can't prevent them (we doesn't have the power to do so). Kaya everytime lalabas ng bahay always lock the door and once you get back, i-lock ulit. We all don't know what will happen next...

*~* A photo of our home is attached... :)

IS THIS FOR REAL?!?!?!?!

2006-04-09T19:35:00.000+08:00

OH MY GOD!!! The expression that's been so overused lately... Everything that's happening has been such a whirlwind! In this game - Ive gained a lot of friends. I felt so thankful & grateful 'coz I've known such special people through this Virtual Game. I didn't apply for this. There's just this day that when I checked my Friendster, I got this message from BBK (Big Bad Kuya) asking me, if I want to be a housemate... I just replied plain and simple "YES" - The first thought that popped into my mind was the Pinoy Big Brother in ABS-CBN... But when BBK replied on my message he included this link (http://pbbfg2.blogspot.com/) so out of curiousity, I browsed on the net and checked on the link. So that was it! The answer to my confusion... Just then I found out that PBBFG stand for PINOY BIG BROTHER FANTASY GAME. And it's not Big Brother who's in it... It's Big Bad Kuya. May sound a bit absurd... I thought BBK's "mean", "cocky", "bossy" and some bad stuffs that associates with Big "BAD" Kuya... But he isn't. We managed a good rapport. He's comical. Sometimes timid that when you ask him questions he'll answer you with an icon and you have to dig deeper on what he really means. He definitely loves the "yawn" emoteicon! So as always - I do offer him a coffee (an icon too)... He will either send you a reply using the "straight face" icon or "don't tell anyone" icon. BBK's approachable and at times he will test you on how much you trust him on the activities or tasks that he will ask you to do. Some task may be difficult but fraknly, you will learn a lot from it.

Anyway, so to update you guys...

~~> april 07, Friday - I found out from my cousin Kuya Sander that my Dad's new girlfriend, JingJing already arrived from Tagbilaran... And nung April 01 pa!!! I'm so insensitive!!! Why didn't I felt that? It was like... How could he still do it? At his age!!! I would be happier if he'll look for friends na lang... Do something that will make him feel better wag naman na yung ganun... It's so freaking desperate!!! I knew this around 6am in the morning - kaya naman after hearing it - parang I felt this terrible thing that made my mind boggle... I was so bothered! And I just can't take this anymore...

Now, where was I this day? I think I'm just at home - not that I'm aware of... Slept the whole day coz till 6am my cousin Bryan has been practiving his DJ mixing. He's practicing a lot of House pieces like Ever After, Dove (I'll Be Loving You Forever), Just The Way You Are, etc... I can't get myself to sleep coz of the sounds! He has this 12" speakers at home and 2CD Mixers and 1 Disco Mixer. I felt like I'm in some Club and have to dance and booze up the night away. There were also my two cousins Bane and Papu who were slapping each other because of Scrabble. Not one of them doesn't want to lose the game and the other one ended up hiding a piece inside her pocket so she'd win the game!

I slept the whole day. I remember, Jen-Jen called me up around 2:30, my brother was waking me up and I told him to please tell Jen that I'm still asleep. So around 4:00 the phone rang again and it was me who finally got it - and that was it - it's Jen on the other end of the line... :) We talked for about an hour... I just missed the good old times. Also received a message from Remcyl... They just made my day worthwhile.

My Mom left for Laguna pala with my Tita Cathy, Tito Dante, cousins Camille, Angel and Dannah and a maid... They went there to unwind. Especially my Mom who's recently hurting from my dad's womanizing....

Jen, I know tampo ka sa kin... Whatever it is sasabihin ko pa din naman sa'yo. It's not true na porke wala ka na sa Virtual House di na kita iaupdate with what's happening - of course I'll still will... Maybe not just now... in due time Jen... Hope you understand...

~~> april 08, Saturday - Nothin' really special... I was just at home and had my chat my Paolo who I've been missing for the past few days... BBK also told us about the new activity re- the collage! You know what? Honestly speaking, I really don't know how to do that sort of thing. It's really not into my sytem. But BBK told that it's okay to ask for help.

Nothing much... It's scorching hot and freaking BORING in here!!! I just hope that one day I'll get out of this house and find myself some things that will make me glad... Like shopping, outings or any activities that includes water! and Shopping!!!

We had this event at Cafe Lupe who are contact was Mr. Joel Alumno (an alumni from UST) and another event at Ortigas Mansion. It's a Graduation Party naman care of some guy named Carlo who was fromerly a student of San Sebastian College (highschool)

My cousins left and went to Pier One to meet Dj NaKIMURA. They're gonna return the CDs that they borrowed the other night. I was just a bit disappointed though... Coz I thought they're gonna ask me to come with them. I didn't log in the whole night - I just waited for their texts that they'll pick me up and tag me along at Pier One. But they did not. Oh well it's there and done. Sorry for myself...

~~> april 09, Sunday - Just @ home. Woke up real early. Went to the market and bought 2kls of live tilapia. Mas masarap pag buhay, mas sariwa at di lasang gilik!

I logged in sa YM and received an IM from Jomar (a VH from PBBFG Season1) - it was a pleasure on my side to know someone from the Season 1. We talked a lot of things. About his school (Philippine Science High School) and the outing that he's organizing at Bicol with his fellow batchmates. Was also real glad coz Neil TG (the big winner of Season 1) posted a message on my thread and he's looking forward to know me... Likewise Neil TG! And it's a pleasure!

I spent my day chatting and listening (again) with Bryan's mixing! I'm kindda being immuned with it kahit sobrang sablay talaga...

My Dad left for Baguio nga pala with her new girlfriend!!!

Pao, asked for my house number... After a few seconds the phone rang - and it was him!!! Kaya lang sobrang tahimik niya. But I'm real glad coz he called a lot of peeps including his adviser when he was still here and I'm one of those few persons that he called... PAO, from the bottom of my heart. Thanks for the time! It was good to hear your voice. Hope to hear from you soon.

Adrian, really had fun with our chit-chats thru text last night. At least kahit di sa YM - I still got the chance to know you. MALUPUD SA ATAY MU? A Cebuano expression that I recently learned from Adrian that means Lumilipad atay nya sa complements ko sa kanya! :) Update your blog naman na...

Kathryn, the PENALTY QUEEN, goodluck! don't worry you'll be having my "to save" points! *lol* I missed you girl! Can't wait for Monday, kasi that's the day I'll be calling Gazeboo Royale and Acclaim (for Butterfly release) - I'm way too excited on your Wedding Day and I'm looking forward to it. Just received a text message from you . Hahaha! Funny naman, I was typing this message for you then my phone beeped and it was you!

Heidee, sayang di tayo nakapagchat today... Anyways, I know we still have a lot of things to share with... And I can't wait to share things with you! And know a lot more things about you!

Marge, we haven't been in touched for a day... hahaha!!! You texted me this morning kaya lang when I was replying... I ran out of load na pala. Wala na din ako unlimited... I miss you sis!

IAN, I am so touched naman sa last entry mo... I'm one of your closes pala and for you magaling din ako mag advice. I feel so blessed kasi talagang sa kin mo nireveal ang lahat lahat. Your life was so colorful and kindda intriguing but everytime we touch you do always tickled me pink... I miss our chats and our crazy talks... I miss you too!!! :)

Anyway, enough for now. I still do have a lot more things to say kaya lang these things are the recent happenings that I gone through pa lang the whole day today...

Honestly, the voting system this time really is giving me a hard time. It really the toughest one!!! I just hope that you will do all understand my decision in the future...

I love you guys!

Ciao!!! :)

~~ P!NK L!FE ~~

2006-04-05T04:24:00.002+08:00

Pink Life

I'm searching for a day of simple life

I'm on the clouds, the sky is blue

Watch the stars falling around at night

My dream, your dream, dreams come true

Try and hide

Always follow what's in your heart

Always listen to what's inside

Always fly high

And don't come down

Push yourself over the limit

Push your mind I had with your spirit

Push it well

You never thought you could go right

And never come down

Oh-oh-ohoh...

You ran away from very stressing life

And take some time to think of you

Try to change the colour of your life

My dream, your dream, dreams come true

Try and hide

Always follow what's in your heart

Always listen to what's inside

Always fly high

And don't come down

Push yourself over the limit

Push your mind I had with your spirit

Push it well

You never thought you could go right

And never come down

Oh-oh-ohoh...

I love this song and definitely talks about life and how to live it... A simple life... Do always follow what you feel, what's in your heart and mind... Fly high... And I know DREAMS DO COME TRUE...

Something Wonderful...

2006-04-05T04:24:00.001+08:00

~*~ tHe sTaRt oF sOmEtHiNg WoNdErFuL ~*~

Been kindda busy the past few days. I haven't been online for a longer hour unlike before. 'was just so not myself lately. But anyway I've been working on my diet - I gained a lot of weight and I really don't know how to start all over again. But as the saying goes... "Live life to the fullest..." I guess that's what I'm doing now. I'm living life to the fullest and I don't care what to eat and not to eat. March 21, I started my diet. I just lessen the foods I am taking especially the rice. As much as possible 5 spoons of rice lang. I just don't know if there were any changes, but I hope sometime soon, there will be.

December of 2005 I tried the South Beach Diet. Almost everyday, I researched on different recipes I can use. South Beach Diet unlike any other is great. Because in here you'll still be eating delicious and nutritious foods but there won't be any cravings... You'll be giving up your carbs for 2weeks. That would be for Phase I of the diet. I just can't imagine what I did just to keep myself in track of this SBD... I even hit the grocery and bought a 2L Canola Oil, 1L Pietro Corricelli Extra Virgin Olive Oil, Fat Free Cheese slices... It was such a craze! But anyway, now I am more willing to do this diet again! Summer is on and I can't wait to wair my pair of Adidas two-piece *lol* (the nerves, Mats...)

Just a few updates about what happened before...

April 03, MONDAY ~> Nothin' really special. I was at Laguna Bel-Air the whole day. By 6pm we hit the road back to Manila. I don't know what I'm so excited about... But I really wanna go home. I was planning to go to Greenhills and do my groceries @ Unimart. 8pm we're still at Aurora Blvd. so we decided to just stopped by at SM Centerpoint. I tried Churros (I have to admit it... I didn't like it) I bought 3 boxes of Polland Hopia Mongo and a large Coke (it was scorching hot the whole day and I need to quench my thirst). Then...

So there I did my grocieries.
I bought:
3 packs of Cuddles Cotton Squares
2 big bottles of Eskinol Dermaclear-C
3 packs of Spirit with Wings
2 dozen of Ariel with a scent of Downy sulit pack
2 dozen of Wings Fabric Softener
1 Big Colgate Whitening
1 (9 rolls) 3-ply Softee Bathroom Tissue
2 Cowhead Lite
Cosmopolitan month of April issue (with Bea Alonzo on the cover)
Yes Magazine (with Lucy Torres & Gretchen Barretto on the cover)
Star Studio Magazine (Toni Gonzaga on the cover)
2 kilos of Alpo (for puppies)
2 packs of Ground Black Pepper
1 pack of Whole Black Pepper
(necessities ko kasi yan sa Kitchen... and I can't live without those peppers)
and a lot more thing...

When I was finally home I went straight at my Mom's place and gave her a box of Polland Hopia, it's her, Karen and Arjay's favorite! So the next thing I did was to check on my 5 puppies. I tried giving them dog food (Infant's milk is way too expensive and they can consume 1 400grams for 2days) I was just so glad coz they loved munching the dog food bites. Funny too coz now they puppies can growl and bark. The whole day what my puppies did was roam around the house and do nothing but eat and sleep.

I checked on my mails. Got emails from Gina Victoriano and some staff from Belo's Medical Group who's inquiring on how much they will cost if they're gonna hire us as Caterer for a private party at Vicky Belo's House for 30 pax. Haven't replied yet because I'm still thinking on what packages I 'll provide them. Checked on PBBFG proboads. My whole day at Laguna was such a blast coz what I did was post messaeges and replies... I was able to have a chat with Heidee (my co Vhousemate) whom I discovered that we have a lot in common with. We started talking about our Top 3 Beauty Products and Summer Getaways. It was such a priveledge for finally knowing her. I remember the first Nomination Night that we had at the Virtual House. Just days later we both found out that we voted each other out and also for the same reasons. Good thing though, that she were given a second chance to stay at the house and few words... I am glad to finally get acquainted with her.

April 04, TUESDAY ~> Nothing special. Just stayed at home and I received an early text from someone I really don't know. I just texted the number back and asked who he/she is. I received a reply saying "he was Wayne a friend and an officemate of Repsi who's working at Teleserv. We texted each other the whole day. At first it was a lot of fun but still I'm glad coz now I have a new textmate. Had Halu-Halo ( a not so special though) but at least it helps me with the ver humid weather.

Had this chat with Marge (as usual...) my ever little sister. We talked a lot of things and send each other emoteicons... We just laughed around... Also had chats with Heidee who now calls me "TEL" then there's BBK my constant chatmate. Also had chat with Jen-Jen... I super missed him so-so much! I felt like I was missing a lot of things about her. There, I found out that James Boot's back here at P.I. and they met (again)... I'm just so happy to hear about it.

Jen-Jen, I miss you! Hope we could still chat and talk over the phone! Goodluck sa dance lessons mo! Have fun playing badminton. Don't worry will meet up soon. My birthday's fast approaching... Lahat kayo pakakainin ko!
Remcyl, you don't know how overwhelmed I am whenever I receive a text message from you. I do hope one day magkausap tayo! I miss you and Jen so damn much! I super miss the kulitans we have kapag nagcoconference tayo!

I checked the PBBFG2 site and saw a new Immunity Challenge! So out of excitement... I hurriedly answered it and submitted my answer to BBK via Friendster.

April 05, WEDNESDAY ~> I woke up starved to death! There's no food on the fridge to eat. So I asked our helper to buy Knorr Crab and Corn and an egg. I fried two jumbo Hotdog and there I had my lunch. I was surprised though coz out of no where Papu just appeared and gave me one serve of Halu-Halo (again). Bought Titanic. What's this Tinanic by the way. It's this very large and hard bread. How to eat it? you're just gonna pinch little by little ang munch it. Believe me? It tastes definitely good and you'll be wanting for more!

My cousin Elaine called. We had crazy talks over the phone! She's back home. She stayed at Bicol with her Mom for 2years. Now, she's back and she'll be taking up her College here in Manila. Also received an urgent call from Mr. Edwin Cosme from Ocean Tower. He'll be needing our service for April 06, Thursday. Kiddie Birthday Party. We closed the deal for Php 4,500. He even asked me how much we charged him on his last event last March. He didn't negotiate - instead he told me same set-up. So when I checked on his previous quotation - 'was a bit shock coz we only charged him for 4k. I had this guilt feeling, but it's done and that's money. And it's badly needed. *lol*

I logged in at Yahoo Messenger and saw Dylan online. We had this chat. He's at Davao and they had this problem with their business. I also found out (just then) that he's a DLSU student! I felt so stupid. I remember he told me "si ate talaga, di nagbabasa ng blog!" I do read blogs but I wasn't able to read his introduction the first day at Virtual House. Really had fun with our chat! Hours after Marge was online naman! We both had crazy talks and I had this presumptions (since the start of this game) with her! And when she told me something about that "MH" thingy I wasn't shocked at all. What shocked me was... *toot toot* cellphone stuffs and other things. Virtual House is now getting more interesting everyday.

I have this comic chat with BBK when I received a text message from the newcomer Adrian, and I was just happy that, at last we had a little conversation. We talked about a lot of things. Adrian, you look hot kapag kalbo ka! Believe me, there's this unknown impact in me when I see kalbo guys! Not a lot of guys do look good kapag nagpakalbo kasi. You look cool on your skinhead! Regarding what I told you a text... That's true and I do stand for my word. I'll keep you posted and in touch with what's happening. I will update you in everything. You're not a heist - just so you're a newcomer in the game. It doesn't matter. yeah, we all know a lot of things about each other but you will always be special coz you were never too late naman when you entered the house! You were never aloof and I know you're flexible. Let's just do our thing and I know we will be friends. I just hope that we can have a chat some time so we can chillax! And since you love walking - maybe we can have a virtual walkathon!

Also had this short chat with Ian... We haven't chat for quite some time. We talked a lot of stuffs. He's really excited to come back home. I also heard that Ian and Dylan will be meeting at Davao, since Dylan's there too till Holy Week (I guess...) I just hope I can tag along with them. But I can't! I'm saving a lot of dime right now for Bora... Anyway, I was ready for my dinner when my cellphone rang! It was a direct call from Korea! So I know it's IAN!!! Hahaha! Finally I heard his voice! It was a lot of fun talking to him, unfortunately the line was cut. Hope to hear from you soon when you're here in Manila na...

It was a little late and I'm still online. Kath logged in too. We had silly chats regarding the Nomination. It was really hard kasi. Especially right now that we're all friends! We had a conference with BBK too, together with Marge and Kath - but Kath left too soon. Her hubby's sleepy na daw kasi.

April 06, THURSDAY ~> Received an early call from Pearl, Mr. Edwin Cosme's secretary. They were looking for the crew daw. It's too early, although I told Sir Edwin that we'll be setting up before lunch since their event will start at 3 in the afternoon! Nasira na ang tulog ko! I swear...

I received a text message from Paolo... And his text really bothered me. He texted me around 12:39 noon and I read the message around 2 in the afternoon! I super felt guilty coz I wasn't able to reply on his text. We haven't been chatting for almost a week now, and I really do miss this sweet American Idol fanatic guy. I felt so incomplete. So what I did was rushed downstairs and get online. I logged in at YM but I didn't find him there! I sent him several messages even SMS messages. I even texted him a two page message saying KELLIE PICKLER... but still no reply. I am really worried!!! Honestly never felt like this before. I felt like he really needed someone to talk to... He texted me but I wasn't there for him the time that he needs me.

~~> PAO, hope you do read this... From the bottom of my heart - I'm realy, really sorry... Hope I can do something to make it up to you. You and Marge are the only ones left for me. And I really don't like what's happening right now. Di na kasi tayo nagkakausap. I really miss your company. Your "VICTIM" thingy... Hope to catch up with you soon!!! I miss you much!

Had chats with Heidee (again) the whole day... Just talked about what happened right after she was evicted (the first eviction night)... I'm fond of those things. You know sharing thoughts and things. I don't want my co Vhousemates to feel outnumbered and behind from what had happened...

Anyway, si BBK panay ang pa-kwento. So what we talked about was my Business. I will soon post stuffs about it. Pictures too.

To Marge, I have something for you... My pic with Mark Herras @ Nine Ball, Tomas Morato...

~ wHaT cOuLd tHeRe Be? ~

2006-04-05T04:24:00.000+08:00

What could there be in love that there

couldn't be in a thousand sunsets?

What could there be in truth that could not

be in lies?

What could there be in spring that could

not be in winter?

What could there be in you that could not

be in another?

If I asked you these questions would there

be an answer?

I've asked myself a thousand times before,

What could there be in your reply that I

can find in no other?

Is this some kind of spell?

Is there some kind of exhilaration more

profound than this?

The kind pent-up desires feel like the

sweltering summer heat.

This pleasure-pain is really new to me

But I'd like to feel it again and again and

again.

The surreptitious gazes of those around me

Only add up to the naked longing I have for

you.

What could there be in this

That I'd go through it all over again?

It's just the mere thought of missing someone and asking what might have been...

They say there's no such thing as forever - but I say this place is forever, and memories once been built here will always be an ember that will glow in my heart & mind forever...

HAPPY TALK...

2006-03-29T23:29:00.001+08:00

a little tired fro all the talks i had. but really had a nice night... enjoyed the talks too...

totally forgot updating my blogs na nga eh... but anyway, 'am back!!!

~> march 30, thursday... we have this event... sa Philippine Science High School... Commencement Exercise... di na kami nagpunta... kasi pwede naman na dun yung dalawa naming crew... so i just stayed at home... do my thing... i remember my mom's starting to nag na... kasi it's her 28th anniversary daw the next day... she's asking what we should prepare, coz she'll be inviting my dad over... pero as usual deadma lang ako... an hour later the phone rang and it was Mannique on the other end of the line... nakikibalita sa dad ko... i forgot Mannique is one of my dad's ex... they broke off na din... kasi naman ang dad ko may bago na namang chicks...

by afternoon, Archie and Nadz came over at our place... Archie brought blank cds... magpapaburn daw sya ng mga cds sa kin... yung friend nia daw kasi asked him a favor... so ako, okay! ayos! pero mega kwentuhan kami ni Nadz... i thought they're "solid"... not pala... nagkaproblem pala sila... Archie kasi is my cousin. and Nadz is his girlfriend... Sobrang nag girl talk kami... Bonding ika nga... kaya lang, malakas makaamoy yang Archie na yan, and i think for some time that day, he's trying to keep Nadz away from me... kasi naman noh, lahat na lang ng naging girlfriend niya ako ang naging sumbungan... shempre, hingaan ng sama ng loob... yun naman lagi ang papel ko... but i do love it... malakas kasi makaramdam yung lalaki na yun!

the same night i received a message from my Dad... nagpapaburn din ng cds... and gusto pa rush! ang taray di ba? wala lang... malakas din naman ako makiramdam and i know that's for some girl that he's been dating... obedient kasi ako kaya sige lang...

that night, wala ako ginawa kundi magburn ng cd... not to mention my late chats with BBK... funny kasi we've been posting our site's link sa different chat rooms sa YM... natutuwa daw kasi si BBK na makakita na nadadagdagan ang flags sa site...

~> march 31, friday... my Mom and Dad's 28th Anniversary... (di naman nagsasama... di din in good terms)

we have this event sa Philippine Schience High School ulit... High School graduation naman... yung crew na lang namin ang andun... puro playback lang naman kapag ganun ang labas, so kayang-kaya na nila yun! we had this biglang labas... DJ service naman... kaya we woke up Bryan and asked him to do the thing... makati shangri-la ang venue... sa quezon ballroom... medyo maarte daw ang director and they'll be needing 2 DJs... kailangan pa namin gumawa ng drama kay Mr. Phillip Santos ng Forsc Ink, pano medyo maselan yun... he got the event talaga... sa min lang yung DJ service... the event was Awarding ng Nike... sa sales naman... Nike Park ng Glorietta ang nanalo na Best in Accounts... James Yap and Kris Aquino were there too according to Bryan... James Yap was awarded daw ng Nike...

by 3 in the afternoon, i was a bit astonished... my cousin Paulo kasi has been shouting... someone's looking daw for me outside... nakapangtulog pa ako... (take note! pangtulog... so picture me in spaghetti strap top & boxers) so ako naman dali-dali lumabas, i just grabbed on this face towel that i placed on my chest... only to find out - it's just my Dad and Adobo... my dad's in a rush and he was asking me something... deadma lang ako... i even hit him on his arms tapos i kissed him... i told him about the olive oil that i asked him to bring... sya naman, very busy texting... oo lang sya ng oo... tapos, he tapped on me on my arms sabi nia, nasan na nga raw ang cd... ayun! naalala ko na! yung cd! so balik agad ako sa house to get the cd that i burned for him... tapos dumating din si Sheriff Rosalio Sigua, he has this anullment papers for some Liza from ventura Street somewhere in Sampaloc, he just saw my Dad's Pajero parked on the sidewalk kaya naisipan niya to dropped by...

ayun! my dad left na! so ako, i kept myself busy na sa kitchen... have to prepare for a Steak (na naman!) yun kasi ang naisip ng brother ko...

so by 7:30pm i texted my dad and asked him where he is na... i told him that the dinner's ready and sya na lang ang hinihintay namin... we had this cozy dinner kahit ako di pa nakakaligo! after dinner, my dad had this little chit-chats with me... usapang chicks na naman... meron pala kasi syang 2 girlfriend... Joyce Anne, a girl who's working at a call center and Jing Jing who works at the Supreme Court naman... hainku!!!

~> april 01, saturday... i'm here @ Laguna Bel-Air...

i'm staying at my uncle's place... ang ganda ng place nya... centralized ang house... nakalandscape ang garde... we have this event kasi here... Debut naman...

sa Manila naman, we had this event ulit sa Philippine Science High School... Yung Band Concert... truibute sa isang student... graduating student who was poisoned by her schoolmate using mercury... nilagyan ng mercury from the laboratory yung coleman... actually it's not for Gelyn (ung na-poison) - nakiinom lang sya... kaya sa kanya tumama... ang bilis daw effect... sinagot ng PSHS ang hospitalization and dialysis... but they're still undergoing an investigation... hanggang sa umamin nga yung mga kabarkada nung suspect... weird! pero yung gumawa ng crime, nakapasa na pala sa Massachusetts... lahat ng proceeds nung concert sa school nila yesterday mapupunta sa family nung Gelyn... how sad lang talaga... her liver and kidney was really damaged daw and still they can't detect where the mercury was... till 3years daw yun... maswerte lang daw kung lumagpas ng 3 years si Gelyn... anyway, i ask everybody... to pray for Gelyn's recuperation...

~*~ almost forgot about the april fool's day thingy sa site... i was online... i was having problems logging in sa proboards... nakakapag-log in ako kaya lang i can't post a comment and can't reply either...

i have this chat with Pao... i asked him to register me ulit sa board... pero when i tried it sa computer that i am using ayaw pa din... buti na lang, tatlo ang computer sa house ng tito ko dito... so i used his old computer... OKAY! at long last! Pao, told me na tignan ko nga daw ang site... ABA!!! i was super shocked!!! nag quit si Kathryn... and then BBK "im" me sa YM... send my reactions daw on Kathryn's quitting... so ayun na nga... aside from sending BBK a message for my reaction sa decision ni Kath, i texted Kath din... i was even calling her kaya lang congested na naman ang Sun, as usual so hindi ko sya nacontact! message ako kay bbk sa ym, sabi ko pigilan niya si Kath sa decision niya... wala kasing reasons...

while i was watching Pinoy Big Brother Big Night i received an sms message from BBK saying, "he's quitting na raw sa PBBFG" so ako naman, dali-dali nag online to check... nagpost muna ako sa proboards... but no reply... so nag log in ako sa ym... i saw BBK online, nagmessage ako sa kanya... till he sent me a link... i saw a photo of Kath with her hair like Toni Basil's on "Mickey"... with a dirty finger... so ako, out of curiousity... visit ko ang site...

right there and then!!! MY GOD!!! they got me there!!! I was fooled!!! nakakaasar! buti na lang, i was on a good mood, kasi it's not a good joke (honestly...) sobrang nalungkot ako sa naging decision ni Kath - can't even find the right words na sasabihin ko sa kanya for my reaction sa kanya... kaya lang andun na yun... what's on my mind na lang is that - baka activity yun... special task nga... kasi kahit si BBK ganun din... so in short nagkaron ng CONNAIVANCE sa house... come to think of it, pati ang administrator ng PBBFG magqquit! BIG JOKE di ba? hanggang sa nag online din si Marge... tapos sabi ni BBK kay Marge he's quitting daw as so as I... so follow lang ako... ayun! nag init ang ulo ni Marge, uunahan nya na daw ako... di na din nagreply si Marge sa mga pm ko sa kanya sa ym... ako naman, i was a little disappointed kasi... parang! ah ganun! so ganun na lang din pala yun! sabi pa ni BBK okay lang naman daw kay Marge na magquit ako... si BBK talaga, parang gusto pa ako bigyan ng issue and pati si Marge... medyo nalungkot ako sa bilis ng mga nangyari sa site... pero sige, ganun talaga eh! pati nga si BBK ganun din... niloko ko na magqquit ako, balewala lang din sa kanya... ganun naman talaga...

Heidz texted me too asking if BBK really is quitting...

tama si Marge, iknow till the end kami kami na mismo na mga naging close friends ang magbobotohan sa isa't isa... i have to accept it, this is just a game... i'm happy i won a lot of friends and dun pa lang masaya na ako...

wala lang... nakakalungkot lang yung mga nangyari but at least - okay na din! Enjoy na din kasi kahit papaano nag exist ang April Fool's Day!!!

~> april 02, sunday... still here @ Laguna Bel Air...

feels like I'm enjoying di ba... anyways, uuwi na din naman ako in a while...

had my lunch alone... wala kasi yung family ng Uncle ko... they went to hear mass... they didn't wake me up na kasi i was tired daw... had 2 itlog na maalat and 2 tomatoes! yum!!!

when i got home, i bathed my dogs! wala eh! yun lang ang magagawa ko eh...

Archie and Nadz came over ulit... kinuha yung mga cds na pinaburn sa akin... tapos kami ni Nadz shempre kwentuhan to the max na naman! kung anu ano na naman... busy kasi si Archie sa NBA... we had dinner din with Nadz - di na kumain si Archie - diet daw sya eh... tapos they went home na din...

**BAD NEWS!!! may naiwan kami sa laguna, kaya ayun balik kami ulit! so now... dito ako ulit sa Laguna!!! uwi kami tomorrow na! di man lang ako nakapag online ng maaga... namiss ko tuloy lahat ng vHousemates ko!

you know what strucked me??? when i checked on the site!!! at aba!!! si Adrian!!! special task din pala and mangloko ng kanyang vHousemates... o sya!!! enough of being punk'd... tama na!!! baka magkaron na naman... ano yun? sequel?

~~> so paano ba nyan? april fool's day over! and enough of it na! we all had enough! marami kaming naniwala... so back to basics na ulit... hahaha!!!

message to the connaivers:

WAGI KAYONG LAHAT!!! MABUHAY kayong TATLO!!!

IBANG KLASE

2006-03-29T23:29:00.000+08:00

bakit? kasi si BBK, online and funny part wala syang ginawa kundi tumawa...

anyways, i received a text message from Jen last night... "Hi ate mats, jen 2! Nde aq makaka2pag-OL n0w nd t0m huh... Pakisbi nlng lal0 na kay miguelit0.. May exam me 2m eh! Hai e2 nga sama pakiramdam q, super sakit ulo q and nagsu2ka me! Ngatz kau.. Mizz q na kau! Nytz.. Muah! Luv q kau! heheh!" now, if Pao's reading... i hope u understand why Jen can't go online lately...

anyways, what time na ba ako nakatulog last night... umaga na kasi tinapos ko pa ang mga labada ko... mga 3am dumating sila Kuya Sander and Arjay from Pier One... wala naman silang take out, kaya okey lang... I was freaking tired and talagang bumabagsak na ang mata ko when they got home... kaya lang napakwento pa ako... sobrang wala nga daw tao sa bar, unlike before...

ayun, di din agad nakatulog... dahil before sleeping, nag asaran pa kaming magpipinsan... mahirap din kapag madami kayo sa bahay...

march 29, wednesday - woke up around 10am... nagkahulan kasi yung mga aso ko... so i though baka may tao sa baba... ginising ko si Papu to check on it... wala daw...

Sheriff Rosalio Sigua texted my cousin, follow up niya kung what time sila magmimeet sa may City Hall para mai-file na ang anullment ng kasal ni Bryan and Ella... long story yang mga yan... Ella's menor de edad... my cousin Bryan is petitioned for U.S. and he is scheduled to leave before June, kaya lang ang problem, lumabas sa census that he's married... now they have to do something with their wedding, para lang makaalis siya ng Pilipinas... his parents have spent a lot of money just to rush his petition... pinagsabihan namin si Bryan before, but he didn't listen... now, ayan ang problema...

Ma'am Ivy Samala of Philippine Science High School called up regarding the Band Concert on April 08 to be held at PSHS Gymnasium... they're going to confirm daw but we're still in the middle of negotiating the package price.

we had this early ingress din sa PSHS kanina for tomorrows Commencement Exercise... 8am ang call time... nag set-up na yung mga tao para tomorrow, programs na lang ang aasikasuhin nila and not the setting up anymore...

i decided to get online... i saw Ian online, i sent him an IM but he's in class daw, so... wait na lang ako... Heidee was online too, chat kami... for the first time nagkachat kami & i learned that we have a lot in common... we both love fish... especially grilled tilapia and kilawin na tangiuge... dami din namin napag-usapan... nakakatuwa lang dahil at long last nakausap ko sya... after a while nag online na din si Kathryn... Kathryn and I talked about her wedding... plan daw sana nila na sa Fernwood Gardens kaya lang baka daw di kaya ng budget nila... buti na lang naisip namin yung Gazebo Royale sa may Visayas Avenue sa Q.C. 'am gonna call the contact person there si Anna Palisoc, ako na mag iinquire at least may help na ako kay Kaths... kahit na sa December 18 pa yun, dapat kasi okay na... may options and different ideas na, para maganda ang touch sa wedding... nag conference din kami kanina nila Heids and Kaths, and the topic!?! FRIENDS... we're all FRIENDS addicts pala... we talked about Rachel Green, Monica and Ross Geller, Chandler Bing, Phoebe Buffay and Joey Tribbiani...

i got the chance to chat with Dylan too, nakakamiss na talaga kapag dahan-dahan ng nababawasan yung virtual housemates... Nakachat ko din si Ian, as usual - ang aming love topics... we shared a lot of things to each other na and i know - there are more crazy things we'll be sharing in the future... you're asking me for a pasalubong di ba? kahit wala na, ang importante makauwi ka dito sa Philippines, safe and sound... for me that's more than enough...

plus i'm having problems withproboards din, di ako makapagpost and i can't reply using my username... kakaasar! buti na lang mahaba ang pasensya ni BBK sa akin, pero i know nakakapagod ang magturo ng ganun especially kapag sa chat lang... BBK, i forgot... THANKS SO MUCH pala for the time... really had fun & i appreciate your help bigtime (kahit wala naman nangyari sa gusto ko na makapag post sa proboards natin)

had my dinner with my brother Arjay and sister in-law Karen... yum nga eh... Beef Stew, it's my brother who cooked our dinner tonight...

what else? wala na ata... have to sign off early din... kasi maaga ang event tomorrow...

anyway, Pao... miss na kita, especially ngayon na wala na ikaw posts for me sa Shout Box...

Adrian, already add your ym id sa ym ko... hope to have a nice chat with you so we can chillax...

Heids, i know there are more things we share in common - and now i will have the chance to know you more na... thanks for your time kanina... i really appreciate it. :)

Ian, you deserve to be happy... sa gimmick mo sa friday (tama ba) di ba may imimeet ka? can't wait to hear your kinky stories... take care always and stay cool!

Marge, i know you're on your way back here @ Manila... I am really sorry if I wasn't able to give you a call... basta, pag andito ka na sa Manila madali na lahat! i missed you girl... tagal nawala ng little sister ko...

ate Janette, thanks sa text kahapon... hope to talk to you soon... chat pala... i know busy ka ngayon...

Kaths, looking forward sa iyong Grand Wedding, I would be delightfully glad na makatulong syo and to your hubby... You deserve to be happy... Stay pretty... we have a lot to share pa...

Rems & Jen, sana makapag-OL naman kayo one of this days, miss ko na ang Crazy two... kasi nag iisa na lang ako...

Please Remember...

2006-03-29T01:18:00.000+08:00

i was posting my first blog hours ago when my mom called me up and told me that it was raining... i didn't believe her at first... so i published my entry and waited till i saw that i already updated my blog... when i heard Kuya Sander's cellphone ringing... i answered it and it was Bryan on the other end of the line... i asked him why he called and he asked me to tell Kuya Sander to go out coz it was raining really hard outside and there's no place he can park the car... so there it is! it was indeed raining...

when suddenly i realized the clothes i left at the "batalan"... my God!!! so i rushed myself and checked on my laundry... naka!!! lahat ng whites na sa isang lugar na tinatamaan talaga ng ulan! i quickly piled up the empty pails in one place para lumuwag dun sa batalan...

anyways, i just finished my laundry, isasampay ko pa lang when i thought of doing another blog... dapat kasi kasama ako ni Kuya Sander and Arjay sa Pier One to attend the famous (way back '80's) DJ Jon Tupaz's birthday party... di ko na din kasi kaya... ayaw ko namang mapasma... i started washing clothe around 4:30 this afternoon... i cleaned up the batalan pa, kaya super late na din ako natapos... kaya i decided not to come na lang... sila, sila na lang... i am starting to become anti-social lately na ata...

anyway, i remember my long time crush lang naman while i was doing my laundry... i dunno the reason why... kaya lang bigla ko syang na miss... i had a crush on him 2nd year highschool pa lang ako... he's 3years older than me... his name is Sheen... nakakatuwa lang isipin coz kahit papaano i got the chance to know him... 3years na din sya di bumabalik dito sa Philippines... kahit i know na meron na siya ka live-in sa States, deep in my heart i still believe that somehow, magiging close friends pa kami... kabarkada sya ng mga cousins ko sa Victoria School Foundation... hearthrob sya before... even nung last visit nya dito sa 'Pinas - it's still pretty obvious na iba pa din ang dating niya... malakas pa din ang sex appeal niya...

i will never ever forget what happened the last time he was here sa P.I. - for long i will keep it inside my heart and forever treasure it... i know that kahit papaano i was at some point lucky - coz of that thing... naging sweet din naman kami... he always complement my cooking... kahit simpleng perfume lang ang ilagay ko - napapansin nya, and lagi nya sinasabi na ang bango ko... for me those things meant a lot... i know kasi na i should be thankful for those little thoughts coz some don't even start... we had this overnight outings every now and then kapag andito sya ng summer sa Philippines... i remember we had this event for Aboitiz-Jebsen, kasama namin sya along with his cousins and friends... we would dance the night away on the poolside while taking a booze... he never took advantage of me... lagi lang kami naglolokohan... i remember, he used to tell me, na swerte daw ang magiging boyfriend ko, kasi I'm everything a man could ever want... sarap pakinggan di ba? kaya lang hanggang dito na lang kami...

we sorta had this thing everytime he's here... i often told him na pwede namang ako girlfriend nya dito sa Pilipinas... HOW DESPERATE!!! i guess that's LOVE...

he has this Burmese partner for 3years na din... i am happy for him and his girlfriend... i used to tell him na swerte si Whit sa kanya, kasi he's a one woman, man... nagkaroon din sya before ng girlffriend na Filipina whom he loved so much, kaya lang may nakilala na iba and got herself pregnant with other guy while he was out of the country - bulding himself up to be "somebody" for that girls family... sa d but true... ang story nya was "been there, done that..." i know that there's no perfect relationship especially when it is a long distance one... i know din na "walang talunan" sa barkada...

kaya where i am now... kung anuman ang standing ko... i know and i am happy to be a friend for him...

i have this song for him... it was composed and sang by LeeAnn Rimes and I will forever dediate this song for him... it's entitled ...

PLEASE REMEMBER

Time, sometimes the time just slips away

And your left with yesterday

Left with the memories

I, I'll always think of you and smile

And be happy for the time I had you with me

Though we go our seperate ways

I won't forget so don't forget

The memories we made

Please remember, please remember

I was there for you

And you were there for me

Please remember, our time together

The time was yours and mine

And we were wild and free

Please remember, please remember me

Goodbye, there's just no sadder word to say

And it's sad to walk away

With just the memories

Who's to know what might have been

We'll leave behind a life and time

We'll never know again

Please remember, please remember

I was there for you

And you were there for me

And remember, please remember me

Please remember, please remember

I was there for you

And you were there for me

Please remember, our time together

The time was yours and mine

And we were wild and free

And remember, please remember me

And how we laugh and how we smile

And how this world was yours and mine

And how no dream was out of reach

I stood by you, you stood by me

We took each day and made it shine

We wrote our names across the sky

We ride so fast, we ride so free

And I had you and you had me

Please remember, Please remember

*** NOTE

the pic i'll be posting was last april 22, 2k4 pa... (where i was wearing a black lace top)

the other pic was taken april 19,2k4 (kararating nya lang from California)

those were the days...

ABA-BA-BA!!! winks ;-)

2006-03-28T18:20:00.000+08:00

aba!ba!ba! naka!!! matalak daw ako? how i wish - i am... pero kung yun ang tingin nyo sa akin, well i can't do anything about it... first of all i wanted you guys to know that BBK advised me to update my blogs... you know say something about the things i do, my work, the events i handle, the happening in my life... well i just did, like what i read with Heidee's new entries or posts...

hoy Ian! siraulo ka talaga! hahaha!!! anyways, BBK also sent me a message regarding - you guys blogs too... paki update na lang raw...

late last night, katext ko din si Pao and Marge... i was trying very hard to call Marge sa sun cell nya, di ko naman sya macontact! kaasar! di tuloy kami makapagchikahan! si Pao, di na ulit nag reply sa akin... anyways, i understand he's at school... anyway, i miss you guys...

well, what now? i woke 7:00... wala lang, i just checked my cellphone! funny kasi i read a message from Marge,"goodmorning: :D" daw!!! really had a good morning though... i woke up with a smile on my face... i texted marge nga na i will sleep ulit, kasi parang kulang pa ang tulog ko... i slept 6:30 kanina kasi my dad and his friends left our place 6:30am na... of course the undying videoke, beer drinking and kalokohan sa chicks! nakakatuwa kasi talagan namang deadma ko sila... i was exhausted the whole day yesterday... pero ano pa nga bang magagawa ko, eh di makisalamuha sa kanilang lahat... okay naman kasi, kumita dad ko sa 2 Mitsubishi Delica na binenta nya for only 130k, shempre naambunan naman ako kahit papaano... :) happy shempre si mats...

march 28, tuesday - shempre nag ready ako ng lunch... ininit ko lang yung mga leftover foods from last nights... meron pang 1whole chicken and a large bowl of soup... okay na kasi di na ako magpapapalengke...

my mom talked to me - i was just a little shocked... kasi nagsumbong sya sa akin about what happened 3nights ago sa house... nagkaroon ata sila ng misunderstanding ng sister-in-law ko... sabi ko lang, hayaan na nya... talagang dumarating yung mga ganung point...

i received a text from Jen-Jen, ayun natutuwa kasi may rewards daw ako sa site... ngayon ko lang din nalaman, kasi i just logged on... sobrang pagod na daw si Jen kasi nag exam daw sya... you know her plans going to Germany, she's gonna study daw dun and magpapart-time job na din... ako din malapit ko ng gawin yun! hahaha!

anyway, right now, I AM BUSY DOING MY LAUNDRY kasi... naipon na!

ate Janette also texted me via ym naman, okay naman na daw sya, and i was very glad to hear that from her... at least we're both okay na from our LBM attack! wahahaha!

i received a call from Jasmine Daquis of Philippine Trade Training Center... they'll be hiring us for event daw... kaya lang wala pang definite date... I received a call from Mrs. Collado of Philippine Science High School din... we'll be providing them the sounds and lights rental for the Commence,ent Excercise... The first will be on March 30 (Thursday) 8:00 am ang start for lower bed... and then on March 31 (Friday) 9:30am naman for highschool... at least di naman kami na-zero ngayong week na ito... i am expecting a Subic event naman this April - i just hope ma close deal...

now what? i have to attend to my laundry na ulit... para makapag-online ako mamaya...

IAN ('bak), kaasar! di tayo nakapag chikahan yesterday! di ako nagtatalak huh... nagsheshare lang ako ng mga activities and happening ko sa buhay ko... :D

HEIDEE, i hope one day magkausap naman tayo... btw, cool pics! okay ang beach! i think we both love the beach... chikahan naman tayo minsan :)

ADRIAN, i know mag kiclick tayo, looking forward chillaxin with you too... ;)

ate JANETTE, namimiss na kita... buti na lang we're both well na... pero ako meron pa din migraine...

KATHRYN, girl... text mo ako sa sun ko kapag mag oonline ka, para naman makachika kita ng mas longer... :)

MARGE, i'll call you anytime today, we have a lot of catching up to do... baka naman nag hahunk hunt ka na dyan... don't forget me... hahaha! kidding aside, I MISS YOU GIRL!!!

PAO, tomorrow, early ako mag nenet para makapag usap na tayo ulit... kahit 9 pa yung iba mong ka-chat, i won't give a damn... miss yah!

to Jen and Rems, naku huh... magparamdam kayo sa kin, especially ikaw Rems... si Jen-Jen, chat tayo huh... miss you both much...

oh God!!! scoffs

2006-03-27T21:57:00.000+08:00

you just don't know how tired i am today...

last night i signed off early... wala lang i felt bad din kasi from all the chores that i did... i had a long chat with Ian and also my long time virtual friend Jen... goodnight na lang talaga ang last words namin for each other... pano ba naman, i got tired waiting for BBK's update sa site! hahaha! anyways, di ko na din nahintay, although Ian asked me a favor na message ko sya kung anuman ang magiging outcome or results ng nomination...

march 27, monday - nakakalungkot lang kasi si Dylan ang evicted sa game... although i made friends with others na, pero close din kasi sya sa kin kahit papano... we shared a lot of pretty cool things... from foods to love na ata... i just heard from Jen-Jen that Dylan was the evictee... Jen texted me early in the morning...

anyways, i did my night rituals (as usual) before i slept... i said a prayer... i cleansed my face... put on my durance orange-pamplemousse lotion - and then put myself to sleep na... una nga di pa ako, nagcocomforter, kasi naman it's freaking hot even with the aircon... kaya lang mga after 10mins i can feel na lumalamig na ang sumisiksik na sa skin ko yung lamig, so i grabbed on my comforter and sleep na... wow!!! lamig! how i wish i have someone beside me, para naman meron akong human jacket, masarap ata matulog ng may kayakap ka and waking up with that person... you know the feeling na you see this person the moment you open your eyes... hay naku! i'm just being so mushy right now... paano ba naman, i have no one!!! hahaha!

anyways, there's this bad thing! nag brown out bigla, right in the middle of the night na kung kailan sarap na ng tulog ko... wow! kaasar di ba? but anyhows, after 10mins. naman nagkakuryente na ulit...

bakit nga ba ako nagising ng maaga?... take note 8:30... first time in the philippines history? oh yeah, i heard my puppy (cotton) crying... i was like roaming my eyes inside the room and i can't find him anywhere... hanggang sa tawag na ako ng tawag sa kanya... i was like hanging my hands sa bed... ayun! lumapit sa kin! i placed him right beside me, tapos konting tulog ulit... later nagulat na naman ako, kasi may umiiyak na naman! i checked on the puppy lying next to me, pero andun pa din si cotton... there! si candy pala! the other puppy... so ayun! happy together kaming tatlo sa kama! sleep ulit...

mga around 10:30 ayun na, i stood up na... do my morning rituals naman... went to the comfort room... pee, brushed my teeth and changed my shorts and my blouse... nag ordinary tees na lang ako...

i went downstairs and checked on if there was any new inquiries... oh well! wala naman... puro calls from citibank, offering a credit card and a call from DPC paranaque, asking if somebody came over na to pick up the check...

i had my lunch... pork nilaga lang... di na ako nagluto kasi naman, it really was scorching hot, so i asked Papu na lang to buy for me... me and my cuzins had our lunch na... till Balong dropped by to get the water dispenser that he was selling... may iba na daw kasing buyer... ginising na muna namin si Bryan kasi he's gonna drive Balong at our warehouse and get the water dispenser...

i just stayed at home... fed my puppies cotton, candy, fruit, cocktail & bogs! hahaha! funny name 'ayt?

an hour later, Kuya Sander gave Bane a money and asked her to do the marketing... post graduation party for my cousin Papu kasi... no visitors are expected naman only my dad & his friend Deuni... we bought 5 whole chicken and ingredients for Chicken Sopas...

i cooked the chicken with MAX'S Fried Chicken Style... kaya lang nagkaasaran kasi, i did everything naman... i prepared everything! as in everything... ni hindi pa nga ako nakakaligo... sobrang alinsangan pa naman! it feels like nobody wants to help me sa kitchen... kaya nagkapikunan kami dito sa Bahay ni Kuya...

anyways, my dad arrived na with his friend nga and some guy that i dunno where he just picked! sa batangas pa ata... hahaha!

i took a bath... and tumambay sa room ng mom ko... lamig dun grabeh!

we had our dinner naman! everbody was happy naman kasi kahit mainit, masarap naman ang food!

what else? katext ko lang naman si Marge and Jen the whole day... nakakatuwa kasi itong si Jen nang iinggit na kumain sya ng 2pc. chicken joy and rocky road ice cream... hahaha! ok lang kasi naman we had chicken din dito and meron din akong quezo real na ice cream! hahaha! peace jen, love you! :-P

si marge naman, i am super touched kasi she made this very nice testimonial for me... same as si Jen last night... ganda ng mga testi nila and i felt so loved talaga!!!

I miss you marge! i miss you jen! i miss you rem! i miss you pao! i miss you kath! i miss you ate janette! i miss you ian... looking forward to talk to heidee and the new vHousemate adrian...

sige, mag vivideoke muna kami...

keep u all posted again...

yung pic na yan is with Deuni (checkered polo), my Dad and of course MEEH!!! hahaha!

missing someone...

2006-03-26T22:35:00.000+08:00

march 26, sunday ~ family day

just an ordinary day for me... what time na din kasi ako natulog last night... i took a nap for 30 mins first, kaya lang, dumating na yung mga kasama namin sa bahay from their respective events... although Bryan and his friends encountered some financial problems with their reunion... Bryan (my cousin) was the organizer for that event kasi... Bryan was even so into his thoughts din - na okay daw magiging outcome ng reunion nila... But it turn out wrong! Sila pa tuloy ang nagkautang sa bar, that his friend Jay-P was even constrained to leave his videocam at the bar, nextweek, papalitan na lang nila and they're gonna pay for how much they owe the bar pa... hai...

around 04:30 am, umatake na naman ang tiyan ko... first it was just my hips na masakit... and it really ached a lot! sobra! i'm in pain... i just thought that maybe it was due to my kidney failure din... then after a while my stomach ache naman, i rubbed on some white flower on my hips & stomach - Bane even looked for painreliever para lang ipainom sa akin... kaya lang, i have this attitude din na before uminom ng gamot eh dapat kahit papaano, may laman ang tiyan ko... so i grabbed on some skyflakes & drank nesvita... after 10 mins., iba na ang nararamdaman ko & it was thies "call of nature" ... shempre lbm pa din... my God!!!

pero right after the call of nature, i put myself to sleep na... yun ang dapat eh... i have to rest...

i woke up around 11am... i received texts from friends and also from marge... tawagan ko raw sya kapag may time ako... kaya lang i ran out of load na sa sun since march 25 pa... - kaya KATHRYN, sorry kung di din ako nakakapagtext sa yo... anyway, back to marge, till now di pa din ako nakakabili ng load... pero i know she understand naman... she even texted me na, she's using 3G phone raw and tatawagan niya raw ako...

too bad, my uncle visited my mom... kaya ito namang mom ko, mega feel nya magyabang, so she borrowed my cellphone and used it for her sim... sya na daw muna ang gagamit... hahaha! vain din eh noh! so now, ginagamit ko yung cellphone ni Bane na 6020... di pwede ang 3G...

~*~*~ hainku!!! i am really missing someone... i dunno...

i really dunno what's with me now... sobrang affected ako, for reasons i don't know why i have to miss this person... everytime the phone rings - i always pray that it's him... kaya lang - wala eh... i know naman, we just met and everything - i shouldn't expect too much din... kaya lang i really have this feeling talaga! i never felt this way before... pero iba talaga!

before, okei lang sa akin yung kung anu - anong bagay d'yan... i remember i once met this guy din thru YM, he asked for my number... he called me but i didn't answer... pero yung ngayon, iba, i felt something... kapag nagriring nga ang phone, naeexcite ako! para akong tanga noh? i know these things are only for teeny boppers - I AM NOT!!! but i still love the feeling of "magic", the "thrill" feeling...

hainku!!! how i wish, kahit one of these days, i'll hear from him again... even for once... titignan nyo ko ng ganito... MALOKO, FLIP - but in my heart - i do believe in something called "LOVE"... how weird di ba? but who knows... :)

today, i got to chat with ex-vH Jen-Jen (as ever, as usual)... funny lang... kasi last night when Jen, Rems and I were having this conference, puro kalokohan ang pinag-uusapan namin! you just all don't know what crazy things we were conversing! but it was a lot of fun! kaya nga i super miss Jen and Rems na talaga! how i wish, none of them quit na lang... but i do respect their decision - i know naman that they will always be there for me... happy ako, kasi kahit papaano, si Jen lagi pa din nandyan for us... nakakamiss na tuloy ang PAJEMAREMA... si marge naman, still at Boracay pa din sya! wow!

this may sound so unbelievable, pero wanna know the truth? di pa ako nakakapunta ng Boracay - but i believe that one day I WILL... hahaha! kaya Bora, humanda ka na! hahaha!

ayun, confe din kami kanina - with Dylan, Pao, and Jen... nakakatuwa kasi di pa kami nakapag confe ng ganun... you know talking and laying everything under the sun... nakakatuwa! i wish everyday ganun! si pao, nga biglang gusto nya bumalik ng Pilipinas, nakakamiss naman kasi talaga!

ayun, kachat ko din ang lashing kagabi na si Ian... hahaha!!! i enjoyed out conversation... don't you worry, i'll buy a mic na, para kapag tinawagan mo ako at trip mong magtalak eh magkausap naman tayo...

to heidee the comebacker! welcome back! i didn't had the chance to get to know you before, i hope now's the time... to adrian, hope to meet you soon... you know! we should all catch things up!

Remcyl & Jen-Jen - I misz you both much...
Marge, come back na! hahaha!
Pao - you take care always... i am always here for u, keep that in mind!
Dylan, nakakatuwa ka, wala sa itsura mo yung revelations kanina sa aming hot seat! hahaha! but you really are cool! goodlooking na cool pa!
Janette, i hope you're well na... lbm issues natin eh...
Kathryn, hahaha! misz na kita! di naman kasi tayo magtagpo eh... nakakainspire naman ang pictures mo sa U.K. (ask BBK din) nakakainggit!

nga pala BBK, di ba sabi mo, trip to U.K. tayo sagot mo? hahaha!!! :-)

anyways, till here muna, update you soon...

nakakalungkot...

2006-03-25T14:44:00.000+08:00

tagalog na tagalog noh? wala lang... nakakalungkot talaga eh... :(

march 19, SUNDAY - nothing special... just spent the whole day @ home... pano ba naman, start ng period ko! tama daw bang sabihin un! eh wala na, jan nag start ang aking topak! as usual! ganun naman lagi eh... kaya nga meron pang pms di ba? *lol* but anyway, kahit naman ganyan - i worked the whole day at home! although nag rest ako dahil sobrang pagod ako sa event namin nung 18. pero, dahil masipag nga ako, i did all the chores at home... i wanna see my surroundings clean... para naman masarap gumalaw... 'di hassle or what... nagiging Obsessive-Compulsive na ata ako eh...

march 20, MONDAY - shempre, same old, same old pa din ako... nothing new pa din! still busy with the office works... doing late nights paper works... dami na kasi kailangan submit-an ng quotations and kung anu pang mga churva... *lol*

busy all day sa kitchen, general cleaning and everything... dinner i prepared Nilagang Bulallo... un ang request eh! kaya lang di na dito nakapag dinner sila Bryan and kuya Sander, pumunta sila sa Cainta...

my dad dropped by din kaya sya natikman ny yung niluto ko, he's with his friend Deuni...

march 21, TUESDAY - just at home... my brother and i talked about his wife's condition... wala lang... i just stayed at home lang... nothing much...

anyway, since kumita kami sa last wedding namin... Kuya Sander gave us a budget and mag STEAK nga daw ako... so i prepared for a T-BONE STEAK ala pobre shempre...

march 22, WEDNESDAY - wala ng masarap na ulam kasi 2 straight nights yummy ang recipe ko...

But anyway, i have this SURPRISE CALL from California... Joshua Escueta... sarap sya kausap... may sense... I really am looking forward meeting this guy... if given a chance lang naman...

Jen-Jen called me din, wala lang chit-chats lang... as always...

march 23, THURSDAY - woke up 9am... prepared myself for a meeting with Mr. Elcid Reyes of Tianshi Phils., Inc. I went straight to the bathroom/comfort room... the day i had this worst lbm... i can't back out naman kasi, our client is expecting me... so i went straight to the showe and take a bath... after, i get dressed and prepared the things i have to bring for the meeting. kuya sander and i went to makati na din agad. kaya lang talagang masama na ang tiyan ko... first i really wanna pee lang... kaya nga dami namin stop over on our way to kingscourt 1. when we get there... ayun, i looked for Mr. Reyes... we discussed their upcoming event and also the other activities they'll be holding for this year. we had a wonderful talk naman and we're all looking forward doing business together for their convention...

after the meeting nag cr muna ako ulit, too bad when i pee ayun na meron ng konti, good thing i have this handy tissues with me... kaya i really felt uneasy all the way back to the parking... i asked kuya sander if there's a place where i can buy more tissues, wet ones, etc... right across the street sa pasong tamo, merong mercury drug, kaya ayun, mega bili agad ako... then i checked din kung san ako pwede gumamit uli ng cr, kasi talagang massakit na yung tyan ko... - buti na lang meron red ribbon, dun na lang ako nag stop over - hassle nga kasi ni hindi man lang kami nag order or bumili ng kahit ano...

buti na lang di na ulit bumalik ung feeling na na-ccr ako... dumiretsi na kami ng Quiapo to buy medicines for my sister in law... right after we went straight sa sa Greenhills, pinarepair namin yung cellphone ni Bryan... I bought a nleather case for my cellphone din... funny kasi dual ung leather case that i bought - kaya itong kuya ko, mega canvass ng maliit na cell with camera para daw dun sa leather case ko... blessing din naman that i brought with me Bane's cellphone, pinaswap na din namin... pang SUN lang... pinaswap namin ung 7650 sa 6020... maganda naman... before going home nag dinner na lang muna kami sa Razon's we heard from our previous clients Clarence and Aya kasi that food there is great, so we tried nga... di naman ako mashado nakakain kasi masama ang tiyan ko... i'm afraid baka kung saan na naman ako abutan...

we went home na... i had this conversation with my brother Arjay and her wife Karen, kung anu-ano lang... we discussed the medications and how to drink it...

okei naman na din sila... yun nga lang, my brother asked me if i can wake up early daw, so i can help him and his wife taking care of their baby... strong kasi ung gamot ng wife nya...

IAN's back in the game! hahaha! goodluck! and for now, do good!

march 24, FRIDAY - my cousin Cedrie's graduation... elementary lang naman... pero funny, kc pinagraduate sya ng kulang pa sya ng isang final exam. funny din kasi, he failed 5 subjects and we just asked his teachers to just give him the chance na makapasa, kahit bigyan na lang sya ng special projects... for me, mas okey na sana na magrepeat na lang sya, kasi, wala naman syang natutunan, kaya lang naisip ng mga pinsan ko, sayang daw yung tuition fee tapos uulit lang... at least next school year ipapasok na lang namin sya sa public school at least dun baka sakali mas maging okey sya... parang ang labo noh!

i was waiting din for them to give me a budget na panghanda kaya lang sa Sunday na lang daw...

i still have this bad LBM, as in very bad na! nakachat ko nga c ate janette and she adviced me to drink gatorade... i bought one bottle muna and i ate saging latundan din... kaya lang when i talked to bea, cousin ko who's taking up med. wag daw mashado sa gatorade kc meron daw sugar... dapat daw makapagpacheck-up ako kasi, bka may GI bleeding ako, or perforation or whatsoever... tinakot daw ba ako... my God! nawindang ako! (bigtime) ... baka daw gastrointestinal bleeding - secondary daw sa isa pang sakit or ulcer or baka daw napressure na ang butt ko... the thing is "nagtatae" lang naman ako... kaya nga lang mei bleeding na... kaya that's what concerns me the most...

i just felt so bad today... pano ba naman, I am not feeling well na nga tapos, i heard from Jen din that she already quit the game! my God i just lost a close friend sa game! then we had a chat same as with Pao. funny nga kasi i helped Pao din sa assignment nya sa English! hahaha!

tapos, di pa dun nagtatapos ang bad day ko, nag pm sa kin si Rems - and guess what? nag quit din sya! now tell me, DOES THAT MADE ME ANY BETTER? hindi eh... kasi two of my closes friend nag quit na! i still have marge and pao, okei kaya lang nakakalungkot kasi parang may kulang na! kaya nga i decided to log out na lang... kasi mashado lang ako na hurt sa sudden decision nila...

my dad visited us din. kaya lang he didn't stay long... ayun puro kwentong grilfriend na naman sya! and take note apat ang cellphone nya ngayon! mamakyaw daw ba ng cellphone? *lol*

i slept early din kaya lang, my cousin Bane woke me up around 3am ata, to drink medicines... tapos i received a text from Jen-Jen din... we texted for a while kaya lang di na din ako nakapagreply kasi i fell asleep na...

march 25, SATURDAY - three events kami ngayon - pero I'M NOT FEELING GOOD right now... still have migraine & LBM (hahaha) di bagay... i feel like i am so dehydrated na... i am having this talk with BBK with regards to the virtual house... wala lang... ka-chat ko din si Jen-Jen, sobrang nakakalungkot nga kasi two of my closest friends sa PBBFG2 nag quit na... Remcyl and Jen-Jen...

Anyway, we have this early set-up sa Malabon, Followspot rental lang naman kaya di matrabaho... the venue is at San Bartolome Parish, contact person is Angelo Farinas... early ito kaya hihintayin na ng crew namin hanggang sa matapos...

The other event is at Imperial Palace c/o John de Castro na naman... Debut ulit, kaya lang wala ng Sound Systems Rentals... Lights and effects na lang...

Yung isa pang event is San Sebastian Class Reunion naman, nag coordinate is my cousin Bryan and his friends Jay-R, Jay-P and Keith... :)

Nakakapanibago lang today kasi, nag quit na nga yung 2 closest friends ko... pero i know they're still here for me... i know walang magbabago... i love them both... sa game lang naman sila nawala... but they're in my life na forever...

EVER AFTER...

2006-03-21T15:58:00.000+08:00

WOW!!! what now? just glad that everything's over... the 2 weddings and the debut... saturday was really a tough day for me...

saturday, march 18... was at home till 4am... they didn't bring me at the set up anymore... the peeps were at the ite around 9am... they assembled the stage, the sound and lights system... u-turn band was early for their set up and sound check too...

the personnels at our event at pasig were Bong (stage), Eric (stage), Rowell (church), Bhoy (reception), Junior (reception), Rio (reception) and another guy (who i don't know his name) for the band equipments naman...

the set up was really "madugo"... talaga namang parang nag sun bathe ung mga tao... lahat sila umitim!!! buti na lang di na nila ako sinama...

i wasn't able to check on the church ceremony... i was asked to go at ortigas kasi and buy our personnel's meals... they didn't provide snacks for my crew kasi... they didn't have lunch or meriendas... so i was constrained to go at Emerald (mc donald's) - i bought them chicken and a lot of extra rice...

i arrived a little late at the recepttion... almost all the visitors left already when i got at the site... the band u-turn was playing though (at least naabutan ko sila)... i just had little dinner... nag yosi lang sandali sa labas.. ganun naman ako pag natetense eh... i remember one of the members of u-turn apporoached our technical crew... nagkaron ata ng konting reklamo, kasi malakas daw masyado ung monitor speaker nya... but it all went fine...

running for how many hours yung aming bubble stream... kwela talaga... they also had confetti blasters... after nakatawid yung couple sa assembled bridge sa pool, nagpaputok sila ng isa and another one after the groom kissed the bride for their toast...

super maganda yung set-up... i didn't thought na magiging ganun kaganda yung magiging outcome, but it was really elegant... a garden wedding (just what i always dreamed of)

around 8:30 nad pack up na ng gamit yung personnel ko who ran the church ceremony... then sinakay na namin sa sasakyan... we ran back sa recption site and subo lang ng konting dinner... after that Doinx, got into the bj's booth... nag start na kasi yung ballroom dancing... sya na yung nag mix sa ballroom... grabe talagang hataw ang mga oldies... they even brought their own dance instructors! sobrang kwela talaga... i remember... marge texted me regarding the activities naman... and then jen-jen texted me too... konting chikahan lang kami... she's sick nga daw and nakapagpa check-up na din... hay naku! i super miss the OLD JEN-JEN yung super hyper and ayaw tumigil sa kakaYM... iba na sha ngayon...

anyway, around 11pm naman, Clarence, the groom spotted me at my table... he approached me like, "ui... ikaw pala! jan ka na pala!" i just replied with "ui ka din!" sa super tense ko i forgot to congratulate him on his wedding... he asked for my kuya... and then that's it we had a little chit chats...

i remember, nagbiro pa si kuya na idismantle na nga raw yung stage... may nakarinig ata... aba ang mga old women, nagsampahan sa stage at kahit my humps na ang tugtog, hataw pa din!!!

after nun, naspot-an na naman ako ni clarence... hahaha!!! "there you are" na naman... hahaha! he asked me who he's gonna talk regarding their payment for the system...

after nung makiha na namin yung payment, pinasadahan na namin ang pag baba ng gamit sa warehouse... ung mga equipments muna sa Church ang pack up namin! take note... from Pasig to Galas naman kami... then we left Rowell na sa warehouse para sya na magkamada ng mga gamit sa bodega... we dropped by sa house naman... nagpa kusot kami ng face towel... para magising ang aming mga utak! then we drove back sa Pasig sa reception naman... we gathered more equipments na pwede magkasya sa sasakyan namin... nauna na si Eric sa ibang gamit... then we went back sa warehouse...

naka apat din kami na balikan from pasig to galas... from galas to pasig... ang dami...

by 6:30 naman nagpunta ako ng Pasay to accompany my personnel naman sa Shrine of Jesus kasi meron kami Smoke Machine Rental dun... i asked my crew na nga lang to take the cab pag uwi na sya... hirap kasi eh... ang daming gasolina na ang nagagamit namin...

7am na rin ako nakauwi from that balik-balikan trip ng aming set up!!!

hahaha!!! i feel so exhausted...

TODAY, what I'm doing naman is doing this formal quotation / proposal... as usual...

early in the morning Mr. Elcid Reyes gave me a call... and he's askin me why i didn't include the sgate artworks design for backdrop... wow! so i told him we really have to meet up for that, so we can have a glimpse of their design then i can discuss it to the artist... mahirap kasi ung puro estimate lang... he also asked me for video monitoring with editing and stuffs like that pa... some pictures from our big events... so what i sent him was our event for Innerwheel (female counterpart ng Rotary Club) and our Nestle Kick-Off events...

i also sent a quotation for kat guevarra... debut na naman... hahaha!!! and i also talked to daisy ching for her wedding naman on June 10. and another acoustic night for amee... sangkatutak pa... also mr. domeng mendoza, i emailed him quotations too... convention naman yun for 2 days sa colegio de san agustin, binan, laguna... 9th national prex convention... i just hope sa dami ng nakausap ko the past few days and today, may ma-close naman ako...

also talked to mrs. collado from philippine science high school (our loyal client) they're gonna hire us for graduation this march 30 & 31 naman... and another band concert this april naman...

anyway, i just had this semi long chat with ate janette... funny lang, kasi i used to have chats with pao, especially like this hour kaya lang, i was a bit shocked kasi, who i saw online was ate janette... i read her message for me sa shoutbox, well, ochie, kitams nagkausap din tyo!

kaths, it was really a soft thing in my ear... maganda ako... it was really a compliment! parehas lang tyo...

same as with jen-jen, wala na ginawa kundi purihim ako, nagmana lang naman ako sa kanya...

marge, i miss you na - especially si pao pao, buti pa sya sa Vegas na!

rems, really appreciate your gudnyt text last nyt.... i really miss you...

till then... keep u posted pa...

x's: sorry, i wasn't able to took a pic sa last event ko... anyway, i'll just post a pic from our gig with kitchie nadal at bluwave...

Same old, same old...

2006-03-18T03:32:00.000+08:00

How my day started?

Well, I woke up early and of course do my morning rituals...

I didn't come with my company at work coz I have a lot to finish... Things are giving me a lot of headaches lately... Although I first thought of the things we need to prepare for laters event at Parkwood for Wedding... And a Debut at Sta. Rosa Laguna...

Last Thursday, March 16 and Friday, March 17 - we had this event care of Jollibee. It's an Auto Trade Show... The engager was Shirley Amarillo... Our personnel was just feeling so sick... Coz in our every evnt, the client is supposed to provide meals for our personnel in charge. We dropped off our personnel at Ruby Road 6am, but our engager didn't ecen gave him a budget for his meal... Kung wala sana sila ipapakain, sana kahit bigyan naman nila ng kahit magkano yung tauhan namin, kahit pantawid lang... But anyway, the dame has been done. He survived a whole day naman.

Same day March 17, Friday - the client who called me last Saturday gave me a call - Mr. Edwin Cosme... He confirmed a Birthday Party at 16-G Ocean Tower at Roxas Blvd. Actually, I wasn't expecting that he'll be calling us again... I know kasi that it was a rush... And I was thinking maybe he hired other company na... But he called me and informed me, that they will confirm nga and my people should be at venue by 3pm coz the party will be starting at 6pm. But we have to negotiate for the package price pa, kaya naman, for me to be able to close our deal I gave Sir Edwin a 500 discount from the proposal I sent him... CLOSED DEAL!!!

Also, Engr. Elcid Reyes gave me a call today... He thought that maybe I have forgotten about his request for a quotation for Sounds, Lights, Stage and Backdrop Rental for Tianshi Phils.' Convention which will be held this June or July at either Westin Philippine or Manila Hotel. I explained everything to him... I even told him that - actually I was doing the proposal na and I'll be sending it after 20 mins... Funny! So I rushed... I was having this chat with Pao, while I was doing the quotation for Engr. Reyes... Engr. Reyes is considering us kasi for their event... Ayaw na daw niya ng marami pang kausap. One stop shop in other words...

So I sent him the quotation or proposal via fax and even sent him a copy through his email.

Harris Carreon called up too. He's requesting for a proposal for a Wedding naman at April 08... Medyo marami talaga trabaho...

Non stop phone calls and paperworks!!! But it's all worth it naman...

Today, VMarch 18- VHs please bear with me... I may not be able to get online the whole day... Isang event namin for today will be held at Sta. Rosa naman - the organizer is a nephew of VP Noli de Castro naman, John de Castro, a young man na sanay na sa services namin. Actually sa March 24 may schedule na sya ulit sa amin...

Anyway, I will be monitoring our event at Parkwood Subdivision at Pasig kasi. By 9am set up namin ang Reception... By 2pm naman yung Montefalco Parish Church... Our equipments must be assembled first kasi - mahirap na ang mauuna na makapag set-up yung caterer... Di kami makakakuha ng pwesto...

The caterer who's gonna provide for the food will be VS&F who the owner is Mr. Buddy Abesamis. We used to cater before kasi and we already met him - and he really is a good guy! He's the owner and at the same time, he 's the one doing the on the spot cooking for their client's menu.

By the way, one of the Principal Sponsor of Diaz-Quisana Nuptial will be Councilor Nanette Castello-Daza of Quezon City. The guest band who's gonna perform for 45mins will be U-Turn...

Basta Sunday or Monday, I might post a pic from one of our events...

I hope you all understand me...

I am terribly missing you all... I miss PAJEMAREMA (much,much)
Kath, off mo kanina, nakapag online naman ako, kaya lang di na naman tayo nagtagpo... Ate Janette, hope you're feeling well na... Rowen & Dylan goodluck sa finals nyo! Kaya nyo yan! Marge, di na tayo nagkakausap... Rems, same with you... Jen, sorry kanina, sobrang busy ako, kaya di ako agad nakakareply sa'yo... Kung miss mo na kami, mas miss na kita, eh ikaw lagi ko ka-chat eh... Pao, hahaha!!! spread love, celebrate love... PAOLO MIGUEL MATA & KELLIE PICKLER... MARISTEL OCAMPO & ACE YOUNG!!! hahaha!!!

I miss you all so damn much!!!

What if one day your house get burnt? (knock on wood)

2006-03-14T00:37:00.000+08:00

KNOCK ON WOOD, right?

*lol* what if one day our house get burnt? (knock on wood talaga) I really dunno what to do... I live my whole life in this house. For 26 years and 10 months... This house has really been a big part of me growing up... I've seen a lot of things in this house... Went through a lot of experiences... Been through all ups and downs... Witnessed my mom and dad's fights and separation... I've seen the wonder of me and my brother growing up... And I saw all the pain that we've been through... Pain may be a li'l deep though, but without it, we won't learn...

Di ko kakayanin siguro ang masunugan ng bahay... My God!!! This house is my home! This house is my life... Mababaliw ako pag nangyari yun!!! Just like my Lola's famous line, "di bale ng manakawan, wag lang masunugan..." That's very, very true... I've had friends na nasunugan and talagang mahirap... Like for us, I know, mga parents ko madami naipundar just to proviede us shelter tapos mauuwi din lang sa lahat... That would be very sad...

I remember March '95... There's this one incident that our house was almost getting burnt because of the old house just a few meters from our place... That old house was filled with old newspapers & receipts... The house was made of old woods that's been a home of termites for almost a decade... The only person who lives there is an old man named Mang Pinong... They have no electricity... Candle is the only thing that brings light in his house... He fell asleep, and left the candle lit until it burneed all the papers inside his house... His house is just a few meters from our house and frankly, ang hirap!!! My mom, got so nervpus that she took our wireless phone and attempted to call a fireman but she ended up holding the phone and staring blankly at the numbers... My tita Cathy who used to live with us, out of panic took her one month baby at the street... She ran her way out without a slippers... My packed stuffs that aren't useful if ever...

What I mean is, no matter how hard you will try to save things that you've spent your life with just to have that thing - talagang wala... Nasunog na eh....

Like for instance now, I refixed my bedroom... I have it repainted... from rags talaga yung bedroom ko... I used to share room with my mom, but when I was earning my own money na... I have it fixed... Tapos masusunog lang... Mahirap... I have a lot of important and expensive things there... I know material things lang yun - but the money I spent in buying those things, pinagpaguran ko... It's the fruit of my labor...

Kaya ako... A word of advise,,, better yet, be a lot more careful... Be aware... And dapat, laging may nakaready na malaking bag kahit under the bed lang... Para whatever happens, madali magbalot *lol* hahaha!!! Just kidding...

Anyway, dapat lang talaga, mas maging secure tayo sa lahat ng bagay,,, dapat din mas maging maingat para maiwasan ang mga hindi magagandang bagay... If we're not using for instance - the electric fan, we turn off the power strip or bunutin na lang natin from the socket... Kung may aircon, dapat, lagi natin patayin yung safety box which separates the aircon from the other eclectric...

Better safe than sorry! ;) (winks)

wanna take a glimpse on my new refixed bedroom... chaka eh... pero cge, share ko...
the 1st picture was with my cuzn Bane (ung tibo), Nica (my half sister) and Doinks (Big Brother)
ung isa namang pic, that's our counter, that's were we eat dinner... Pero pinuno namin ng fruits... New Year 2k6 yun eh!

... most influential woman ...

2006-03-12T22:54:00.000+08:00

Besides my Mom, the most influential woman in my life is my Tita Baby (antonina romero)... She was born June 12, 1956 she shares the same age with my Mom. They've been friends for quite some time din. Tita Baby was first wife of my Tito Elly, who happens to be the brother of my Dad. Actually my Mom and my Tita Baby were in-laws before...

Both my mom and Tita Baby were first wives... My mom was married to Reynaldo Ocampo (3rd from a family of 6) and Tita Baby was married to Elly Ocampo (2nd to the eldest)...

Both my mom and my tita Baby got separated from their husbands... Mas nauna lang si Tita Baby. My Tito was beating her up and she has another relationship with some woman kasi... His family accuse my Tita that she's stealing money from them... Kung may ibigay naman ang Tito ko sa kanya, she's just saving it for her children... Lysander (32) and Elly Sander (30)... They got separated and my Tita met Ato... Really a long story... Ato became her lawyer defendant, when she sued a case to my tito...

Anyway, why she became the most influential person my life? well well well,,, because she fought for the rights of her two clidren... She never hesitated fighting for the rights... How I wish my mom did the same thing for us but she didn't...

We're not so close before... But when I stayed with my Tita Luz (my dad's sister) - I finally get to know her. Eventhough, at first I know it's hard to reach out on her... Now we're close as ever...

My dad left us when I was 5 and till now I feel pain from him... He's attitude - masyadong weather-weather , but still I kept on fighting...

That's why I kept things in tact in my mind, that I HAVE TO BE STRONG like my tita Baby... I want to be a fighter like her and I want to have something of my own like her.

She maybe chatterbox at times but we're just the same...

*note*
Tita Baby's in white polo...

Bad Trip

2006-03-12T21:30:00.000+08:00

March 11, Saturday (a new day) - around 3am, still talking to Jen over the phone... O f course never ending giggles and laughters... But then time's running and we both have to sleep... So we decided to hang up and talk again the following day. Right after our long chat on the phone, I went upstairs and did my nightly beauty regimen... But I was worrying with my 5pups so I decided to check on them. I was very sleepy na, but I can see that the pups really are starved, so I made them a bottle of milk and fed each one and cleaned them. I finished feeding the pups around 6:30am.

I went upstairs and get myself to sleep, shempre I pray muna... I never forget to say my prayers before I go to sleep. It's part of my routine. And God is my inspiration.

I woke up 9:30am because my stomache's in pain. I can't sleep well because of it. Good thing din coz Remcyl texted me. Exhange texts kami ni Rem. And then I decided to go to the market and buy fresh live tilapia (for lunch) - I bought sky flakes and coke sakto for breakfast (hahaha!) - I asked Bane (my cousin) to feed my pups. I watched Papu (my cousin, din) prepare himself to school. I had 2 sticks of smoke. And then I get online. I saw Paolo online, but his status message was "busy" but then I still bother to send him a message...

Kaya lang because kulang ang tulog ko, mga around 11 noon, inantok na naman ako... So i decided to go to bed ulit... Kaasar nga kc I know PAJEMAREMA will be online any moment, kaya lang talagang anotok ako...

I woke up around 2:30pm. We have an event din kasi at Acropolis, Libis.

So my cousins Doinx and Bryan get themselves ready for the event. I asked Doinx to just pick me up even after the event na lang. Kasi, I'll be doing something... They left around 4:30pm... So nag online muna ako... I get to chat with Jen, Dylan, Marge and Pao... But when it's already quarter to six, bye-bye muna ko sa kanya coz I know, my cousins will be picking me up.

But I was a li'l disappointed, coz my cousin Doinx (big brother) decided not to pick me up - coz according to him, I haven't attend to my activities lately daw... One time lang naman. But I said sorry anyway, kaya lang, all's been done.

One quotation lang naman yung di ko nagawa. I didn't make it coz when I called Mr Anton Borja at Clear Waters, he wasn't there... Client call. So I said my deepest sorry to my Big Brother, my Big Boss... hahaha!!!

Next week's all lined up though...

A prob happened though early last night... I though my cousin Papu was just fooling around when he told me that my dad's outside and with my half sister Nica... andun nga sila... ok lang naman sa kin. it's there na eh...

After a couple of hours, dumating naman mom nia and an old woman naked VIKANG!!! and i super hate her! because she really is very judgemental - and it isn't good! she's at her place and scolding me!!! she's not even related to our family!!! i really hate her...

That's one of the reason why I have to stepped out from the computer... I was super bad trip!

exhausting!!!

2006-03-10T20:35:00.000+08:00

wow!!! how was my day? lemme see??? uhrmmm... to think i had a long sleep after last night's chores...

well for the past few days, i was spending late nights having Videoke with my family. We just had a glass of water, some smokes and you know the microphone. Just havin' fun after a long days work...

nothin' really special...

SUNDAY: uhrmmm... march 05 - just busy with meetings and oculars. i even went to metrowalk to meet my client for a wedding. i thought we're gonna discuss everything at starbucks, but i was very, very wrong... we had a convoy, cause we have to do our ocular at the venue... pasig... parkview subdivision in pasig. i spent almost half of my day talking to aya diaz... i thought at first, she was just a plain wedding organizer, only to find out when i asked her "sinong ikakasal?" aba! ang lola pala!!! wow! the wedding's gonna be a grand! on the recption their guest singers would be U-TURN, so we have to discuss all the equipments and services, coz we don't want to fail our clients. and we have to provide them the best quality and service... after visiting the venue... we drove back to the churck Montefalco Church - historical church, coz it is Philippine's tallest. anyway, by around 7pm we bid goodbyes to the future mr. & mrs. quisano...

i went straight at ortigas home depot to check on new copies of dvd. after going at sittie's place. i went at greenhills. i just claimed the cellphone that we asked jay (d cell technician) to repair. then i had a dinner at Italliani's... WOW! good food!!!

MONDAY: march 06 - well, well, well, i can't quite remember what happened. but i know one thing, i went back at greenhills and checked on the tiangges. hahaha!!! nothin special...

btw, it's remcyl's birthday!!! happy, happy birthday! enjoy aging!!! ;)

TUESDAY: march 07 - what now? nothin really special!!! just at home i think... i really can't remember a single thing talaga.

WEDNESDAY: march 08 - hahaha!!!

THURSDAY: march 09 - grand launching of BOYSEN's new paints (take note: paints with teflon) at Westin Philippine Plaze. i just dropped by at the event. checked on the status of the event. went back home and did my laundry instead. wow!!! i finished my laundry around 4:30 am...

FRIDAY: march 10 - well, still have that event at BOYSEN @ Westin... I didn't come na lang. There's another one pa pala... At Philippine Science High School naman. Just a talk... And then a bday party @ Palm Village, Makati @ Rockwell... I just contacted the clients that there will be guys on their way for their event.

I did vote na nga pala for PBBFG's 3rd eviction... I'm quite jittery though...

I talked to Pao, Jenjen, Rems, Janette, Rowen & Dylan

wala lang...

kay pao, i know whatever it is that's happening between this controversial "paolo-mica-remcyl" thing, i know you're gonna prove bbk that you & remcyl doesn't really know each other prior the games... about your mom, chatterbox pala sha, kapag nagpupuyat ka sa net. hahaha!!! u take care a lot pao...

jenjen, nakakatuwa naman at nabusog ang mga mata mo sa pagsasight-seeing yesterday at glorietta... hahaha!!! panu na nyan si james? wahahaha!!! anw, lookin forward for another day with u and the PAJEMAREMA and Take Five... hahaha!

rems,,, i missed u talaga!!! good thing na lang that we run into each other dito sa ym... and the good part is, we had pancit canton and coffee via ym - virtually...

janette, sayang naman! bkit naman kc, tinawag kapa ng boss mo? istorbo... anyway, we still have tomorrows naman eh...

rowen, i hope that we could still talk and discuss a lot of things... goodluck

dylan! mechado pala ang favorite dish mo... i really had fun chatting with u. talagang there's no dull moments with u talaga... don't worry, my sinigang's already cooked. tomorrow i'll cook ur favorite dish, mechado... ipagluluto kita dito sa house, but we're gonna eat it at virtual house. hahaha! btw, beef mechado huh? well, u take care a bunch! GOD bless....

kathy, miss na kita!!! rhea, goodluck sa task mo...

marge, get well soon li'l sister... i know we have a lot to share pa... really have a great time pag nakakausap ko kayo. we girls rock!!!
hahaha! 8wink* ;)

WEIGH YOUR WORDS (a thought to ponder)

2006-03-06T00:25:00.000+08:00

WEIGH YOUR WORDS

Weigh Your Words It is a wise love partner who is aware of the potential damage loose words can cause. Words spoken in anger inflict wounds that sometimes take a long time to heal. Think first, then speak. It is one thing to speak what you feel and quite another to speak what you feel without regard to the consequences of the pain that might accompany your words when spoken hastily to your love partner. The words we express allow us to predict the predicaments that will occur in our relationships. It is wise to be careful of the words we think. Thinking them becomes a dress rehearsal for what we can expect to happen. Speaking them activates the law of cause and effect. On the other hand, the words of encouragement, of understanding, of love, or any words that echo good will always elevate us to their own level. That is most likely a higher place than where we began. As often as you can, speak only words of love. Relationships don't die by themselves. We kill relationships with inappropriate words -- words from the head, not from the heart. Words once spoken create our present reality. Remember: You cannot un-ring a bell. They can never be recalled. We must remember to think before we speak. We must carefully weigh the cost of speaking our thoughts randomly and without evaluating the possible outcome. Be considerate of your love partner. Often our thoughts revert back to the "safe zone". . . the familiar. . . the way of being that we were before, and that didn't work. When we insist upon thinking and speaking past thoughts as words, we find that they will dominate our attention and only keep us stuck. Mentally rehearsing what doesn't work, doesn't work, if you want your life to be great. It only more deeply internalizes what you don't want. Focus on what you want in your relationship! In essence, we begin to believe that which we think is our very own new idea. In reality, most likely, those thoughts are from our past, and if concentrated upon, reoccur as our present and eventually as our future. Give it up! Make up some new and exciting ways of being. We must give up what we don't want in favor of what we would like to happen. In the Bible, Job said, "The thing I feared has come upon me." Those words were an acknowledgment of the power of his negative thinking, spoken as his word, which eventually became his very own reality. The power of the words we speak is proven daily in what shows up in our lives. The tendency is to place blame on the circumstances around us rather than accept responsibility that we authored the thoughts we spoke and that in speaking them as words, in truth, created our present condition. Our outer results will never be any different unless we make internal changes in the way we think and take caution of the words we speak.

From GoodNIGHT to a BAD Day

2006-03-04T21:07:00.000+08:00

Wow!!! How am I going to begin???? Let me see???

Last night was such a blast!!! Finally the one VH that I haven't been aquainted to was online... She was the only VH that I've been longing to meet. It's been I think weeks... I know I have to catch up with her. A lot of things have been missing then - until last night... Kathryn!!! Paolo's idol... it was such a wonderful feeling - coz at last I've met all the 11 VHs in PBBFG2... I never had the feeling that "I may not find her easy to get along with..." instead, everything happened spontaneously... We talked a lot about things... We eved had a virtual coffee... *lol* Now I know, win or lose - worries aren't there anymore... The friendship that I've long waited for is finally here...

Jen and I had nonstop chats (prang unlimited)... We talked a lot about things... Crazy things... Wild thoughts... *lol* but not so wild... We talked about her "special friend" and shempre "my special friend" - Everything was goin' on so smoothly... I felt so inspired for the past few days. And because of that inspiration, I even had sleppless nights... 2 sleepless nights to be exact... I felt so high that all I wanna do is to update my blog and share my happy thoughts with my co-VHs...

anyway,,, BBK, gave me and Ian a special activity... The Game Ka Na Ba One Million question wherein BBK posted a cluster map on our site and on that map were 6 locations and I have to choose 3 for myself and the other 3 will be for Ian... So what I did late that night (March 03) was to ask a help from Jen... By the way, The 6 choices were Mongolia, Iceland, Argentina, South Africa, New Zealand & Hawaii... I chose Iceland, South Africa & New Zealand... What I did was enter Yahoo Groups and go for Regionals... I searched for the countries that I chose... I joined 3 groups (I think) for each location that I have... I posted a message saying, "checkout this site http://pbbfg2.blogspot.com/" just that... I never really thought that I'm gonna gain the immunity. I know Ian was doing his thing too... I know coz he never missed a single activity here @ the virtual house...

Until this morning... I woke up around 10 am - I fixed myself a mug of hot nesvita... I lit up a smoke. Checked on my pups... and finally the much awaited... The PC... Shempre, I have to see if there were any updates from BBK. So I decided to - you know go online... Signed in at YM... I saw Pao there but his status message was he's sleeping... So I didn't bother sending him a message or buzzing him... I just stayed there "STEADY lang..."

Now... the turning point of all the happy things... A girl that my ex boyfriend has been courting months IM me... I asked her why... So we chatted for a while - until she asked me to buzz my ex boyfriend... At first I was hesitant to do so... Coz, for me I know,,, there's nothing more left to talk about... But the girl was really in favor - so I was constrained to drop a message to my ex... Our first conversation, was really fun... He even asked me who the guy on my avatar is... He even judged the guy who is recently courting me. So, i was just like... "ok, saloobin mo yan eh... I can't do anything about that". Things happened so fast... We had a confrontation... I received some bitter words from him... Words that really are hard to digest, if you are sensitive... I never anticipated that confrontation... I was fooled by him for months... He was a complete pervert... I was his girlfriend for months but there are three more girls that he has a relationship with (too) all at the same time. My God! I was totally blanked... I am speechless... I really am totally devastated...

That didn't end there... I received a message from one of my fellow VH... I won't tell you what happened or what were the things uttered on the message - but it really strucked me! If you want a friend - I can be one... More than what you expect a friend can do... I will always be a friend in deed... Not just by words...

But there was this one word that really hurt me...

When I read that, I can feel the dark clouds over me... I wanted to cry and burst out... I don't know how to release my pain... the anger... the disappointment... that I felt... I would rather accept physical pain, than to hear hurtful words against me. Sometimes it last for a lifetime, especially when I treated that person a friend to me...

But I know and I still believe that "Time will heal all these wounds"... Time will and I know there's no harm in giving second chances...

"The only way to have a friend is to be one."-

Ralph Waldo Emerson

"Be careful of what you say,friendship can end in one minutebecause of a stupid word."- Unknown

song ko for myself...

BAD DAY

Where is the moment when we need it the most You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost They tell me your blue sky's faded to grey They tell me your passion's gone away And I don't need no carryin' on You stand in the line just to hit a new low You're faking a smile with the coffee to go You tell me your life's been way off line You're falling to pieces everytime And I don't need no carryin' on Cause you have a bad day You're taking one down You sing a sad song just to turn it around You say you don't know You tell me don't lie You work at a smile and you go for a ride You had a bad day The camera don't lie You're coming back down and you really don't mind You had a bad day You had a bad day Well you need a blue sky holiday The point is they laugh at what you say And I don't need no carryin' on You have a bad day You're taking one down You sing a sad song just to turn it around You say you don't know You tell me don't lie You work at a smile and you go for a ride You had a bad day The camera don't lie You're coming back down and you really don't mind You had a bad day (Oh.. Holiday..) Sometimes the system goes on the brink And the whole thing turns out wrong You might not make it back and you know That you could be well oh that strong And I'm not wrong So where is the passion when you need it the most Oh you and I You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost Cause you have a bad day You're taking one down You sing a sad song just to turn it around You say you don't know You tell me don't lie You work at a smile and you go for a ride You had a bad day You've seen what you like And how does it feel for one more time You had a bad day You had a bad day Have a bad day Have a bad day

Wishing you all well... Love you all...

What a day?!?!?!

2006-03-02T23:04:00.000+08:00

Just at home the whole day... I just have to bear in mind that I have to recuperate (soon) and I know that soon, is now...

I slept around 8am today... Last night, I was online... Finally, I met Ate Janette! Then my fellow virtual housemates and me had a conference... Jen-Jen, Marge, Rowen and me... It's just a funny feeling, getting acquainted at last to the people I consider my FRIENDS... I spent almost my whole day surfin' the net and answering some of BBK's question at PBBFG2 Game Ka Na Ba... I was having fun, and it felt great on my part participating on the activities at the house... I even sent messages to BBK concerning our last activity, regarding "Rank the VHs based on your closeness to them(1 - closest, 10 - least)" BBK sent me that message, February 27 and the day I received it was exactly the same date I replied and answered the activity... Anyway, here's my copy of my ranking...:

1 - JEN-JEN

2 - REMCYL

3 - PAOLO

4 - MARGE

5 - IAN

6 - DYLAN

7 - ROWEN

8 - RHEA

9 - JANETTE

10 - KATHRYN

To give you at least a brief axplanation on my ranking... Well, here it goes...

I ranked Jen-Jen the 1st, coz we shared a lot of thoughts and things together, since PBBFG started... Although at first, I find it hard for me to finally get along with this girl. But as time goes by - I knew her, that she really is a great person inside. We both are talkative... We won't run of things to talk about... Patapos pa lang ang isang issue, meron na agad isa... We both laugh at silly things, simple things and the most crazy things people can do... She shared with me her emotions... Her growing love towards James...

2nd was Remcyl "Abraham Remcyl Viloria" - the only virtual housemate i thought was very snob! I was a little confused on her gender... I remember when BBK asked us to give our first impressions towards our housemate and what I ended up uttering was "he/she"... See? I really am confused... But when Rems opened up his true sexuality, wow!!! I super admire him. Bihira kc ung ganun... I never liked Rustom Padilla, but when he had this exposure - wow!!! Pero, wala syang panlaban kay Rem...

3rd... Paolo Miguel Mata... well... one of a kind... Kaya nga for me... He's the FRIENDLIEST virtual housemate ever sa bahay ni kuya dito sa net... Basta ako, yung initiation lang from him (when I received a message from him) was really a great priviledge for me to know this young stud... Bihira ung ganun... Yung nag iinitiate na iintroduce yung sarili nila sa isang tao... Some may find it awkward, pero for me - wagi!!! Doing the first move naman, doesn't necessarily mean na you want to win everybody's attention - that's not Paolo... He's but NATURAL... I like that attitude and bro! You rock!

4th, Marge... my ever dearest little sister in the house... Dapat sya talaga first sa rank ko... pero now that she's on the way to the middle ranks... simple lang... #1 sya sa teen edition dito sa virtual house... She's the little sister that I always dreamt of having my whole life... Siguro kung naging magkapatid lang talaga kami, super spoiled sya sa kin... I know Marge and I share a lot of beautiful thing inside and out... We're both KIKAYS and that made us pretty (*lol) hahaha!!! I'm happy coz it was never too late to know this girl...

5th IAN --- the undying SPICE in BBK's virtual house... Super he made my adrenaline rush!!! Pano ba naman he's the type of person na super full of mysteries... Pero kahit ganyan yan, super straight forward yan, kaya naman having him here - WiNnEr na!!! Basta be good lagi... Ian's being straight forward is a sure talk in the house... He may sometimes hurt people's feelings, kaya lang I know sometimes di na nya naiisip un... He just wanted to be honest... (hahaha!) correct naman di ba? Basta, watch your word... I'm still a Friend in deed and in need...

6th - Dylan, a really cool dude we've been constant textmates but I know a lot are in store for a more beautiful friendship for the both of us... I just hope that he feels the same way too...

7th Rowen... I remember I once told him that I've had a lot of frustrations on my younger years and that includes my studies on becoming a successful doctor sana... kaya lang because of my dad, walang nagyari... I just finished a 4year degree course... Kaya ako, I always wish Rowen luck... I always wish him to do good on his studies... For me, his a future role model for the youngsterz out there!!!

8th, Rhea, i felt like I have to know this girl... Although I know a little about her...

9th... ATE JANETTE... I should have known you before... You're worth the wait... At first I thought mahirap sha makasundo... I thought very strict sya... But those speculations at first we're wrong... Super kwela pala nya!!! Basta - now, I know we're friends na...

10th sad to say but it's Kath... I really wanted to know her, kaya lang di kami magkatagpo ever... This ranking doesn't mean naman that I am closing doors for me to get acquainted with her... Of course, I really wanna know her... I want to be her friend in the future... Isa din sha sa super idol ko dito...

Anyway,,, enough of my ranking and commentaries na nga...

Ito lang ang masasabi ko to the people na nag comment sa Virtual Kitchen...

"Spread Love, Celebrate Love..."

Enough na about sa kung anu anong speculations... we should all be friends... We're gathered here at BBK's virtual house not to build a fight - but to build trust and friendship...

Just a thought to ponder:

"To know someone here or there with whom you can feel there is understanding in spite of distances or thoughts expressed... That can make life a GARDEN..."

bbk...

2006-02-23T02:15:00.000+08:00

wala lang... i was just having fun!
sarap pala ka-chat si bbk!
i just hope na ung ibang VHs ay online... it's me & ian lang kc, plus shempre si BBK...
ate jannette, kathryn, and rowen - hope to know you na!!!
JEN, REMCYL, IAN, PAOLO, MARGE, DYLAN, RHEA miss ko na keong lahat...
love u all!!!

Nice Day...

2006-02-18T23:20:00.000+08:00

wow! wow! wow!

I've been so busy this past few days... Also got sad that I wasn't able to meet the rest of the gang here in Big Bad Kuya's Virtual House... Although, I really wanted to and I am looking forward to converse with them all, I simply can't - busy at work and organizing things for our event...

February 14, we had Valentines Dinner Party at San Pedro Laguna. A friend of my cousin was the one hosting the event but he hired our company for providing the Sound System for his events and for all the lighting and effects. I was beginning to have jitters - cause I know being "absent" in the house or maybe not having time for some conversation with the other VHs might be the one of the ground for my fellow VHs to vote me out for eviction. Ouch lang kasi, "di daw kami nagkakausap, kaya nothing personal daw..." and yung isa pa, never heard anything from me (daw), we don't have time to chat nor exchange messages (daw). Pero to my fellow VHs who voted me out, I definitely understand your reasons... I have mine too... But I still hope, kung sakali ako man ang maevict, I still hope that we can still get to know each other and sana makilala and makausap ko kayo, kahit late na... :) I guess I know who you are - I'm really looking forward knowing you... There's no harm on your votes naman, talagang hindi palang talaga tayo nagkakakilala kaya ganun...

As I was saying, I was nominated by my fellow VHs to get evicted this coming Sunday. I really don't care about the competition in here. But when I saw my name on the results of the 1st Nomination - my heart started pounding so fast that I got really nervous...

I woke up late today, coz last night I had an event at Oriental Gardens with Maegan Aguilar. We had an event with her too, tonight at Bay Garden @ Metroplitan Park near Le Pavillion. I didn't attend there anymore... Instead I just spent half of my days at the office. After having my lunch, I decided to get online. So I logged in at YM, and there I saw Jen-Jen and Paolo. Ang sarap lang ng feeling, kasi I get to chat with Paolo again. And shempre si Jen-Jen. We talked about the results of the nominations. We had fun!!! So much fun! Especially me, kasi at least kahit kaming 3 lang ang andun - i felt so blessed, spending my day with two of my favorite VH.

Anyway, I made plans with the guy who's recently wooing me for quite some time lately... I can say he made my day! Actually, late this afternoon, I started getting ready for our Acoustic Night, but then I received a call from Zidane. He told me that he's on his way to my place, and he's planning to take me out for dinner. So I was thinking, "do I really have to come over at my event and see what's happening in there?" So to cut the crap in my head, I just decided to skipped my event and go out with Zidane instead... He brought his car with him. But on his call, I told him, that we might as well take the cab or the bus na lang... I heard kasi na it's traffic. We can save fuel pa kung magco-commute na lang kami. Good thing, Zidane didn't argue with me on my idea. He agreed that we might as well take the bus na lang daw.

But you know, Maristel's kindda fickleminded... Zidane was planning to take me at Ortigas. We can have our dinner daw at any cozy restaurant there and celebrate post Valentines Day... As I was saying, fickleminded nga ako... I changed my mind... I told him, "mag tricycle na lang tayo, sa SM na lang tayo pumunta. Mas malapit pa... *lol*

Zidane's the type of person na super takot mag commute. First thing na naiisip nya is "hold up", so sabi ko nga "mas nakakatakot kaya mag bus... lalo na kapag pumapara na..." sabi nya, "what now? Ang gulo mo naman." FINAL!!! I uttered, "tricycle, the best! wala pang traffic." Althought it was just a short ride! It felt great, kasi my entire life kahit nung friends palang kami ni Zidane, never sya nag commute, ayaw nya mag commute.... Nasanay daw kasi sya ng may auto. I feel so complete lang... Kasi al my life, one of my plans was to finally convince him na mag commute with me. So we took the tricycle... Although it was a li'l bumpy - it was worthwhile! Coz I was spending a special time now with one of the most important person in my life, Zidane...

We ate dinner. We had potato salad, chicken and sinigang na tiyan ng bangus. We shopped. We shopped. we shopped. Until we decided that we're both tired from walking, strolling... I can say, I had a really nice day! I had a blast! When we're finally home, after a our last tricycle ride, Zidane, hand me something. Gift nya daw sa kin... Wag ko daw open, not until I haven't seen him leave... So I waited for him to get on his car again - I watched him drove away...

I went inside our house and headed directly at my bedroom... Shempre, dali dali ko in-open ung bigay nya, and guess what's inside the paper bag he gave me... Panties!!! as in panties... nakakatuwa di ba? *lol*

Hay naku talaga yun! Kasi naman, it's been months na, since I've been wanting to buy that... Lagi ko'ng gustong bilhin un, kaya lang, he keeps on insisting, wag daw! Pangit daw!!! Tapos kanina, yun pala yung matagal na nyang sinasabi na surprise nya sa akin... Ganda lang!

Anyway, Zidane just called - he's finally home na daw... Early daw sya matutulog, so I guess, I'll update you guys soon...

This is a day to remember... Spread love... Celebrate love...

maristelocampo_sweetesTING

THE ALL STAR

FINAL message...

FINAL QUESTIONS from the Ex-VHs

FINAL QUESTIONS from co - BIG FOUR

A MUST READ: Just Can't Take it Anymore...

gOt myself a new swim wear...

All Of A Sudden

Confusion...

VACAY

PHOTO COLLAGE (isn't it lovely?) butterflies... angelic... :)

a mistake

Tearing me into pieces

UNBELIEVABLE

TRAUMATIC DAY!!!

IS THIS FOR REAL?!?!?!?!

~*~ P!NK L!FE ~*~

Something Wonderful...

~ wHaT cOuLd tHeRe Be? ~

HAPPY TALK...

IBANG KLASE

Please Remember...

ABA-BA-BA!!! *winks* ;-)

oh God!!! *scoffs*

missing someone...

nakakalungkot...

EVER AFTER...

Same old, same old...

What if one day your house get burnt? (knock on wood)

... most influential woman ...

Bad Trip

exhausting!!!

WEIGH YOUR WORDS (a thought to ponder)

From GoodNIGHT to a BAD Day

What a day?!?!?!

bbk...

Nice Day...

~~ P!NK L!FE ~~

ABA-BA-BA!!! winks ;-)

oh God!!! scoffs