Wednesday, April 26

 

All Of A Sudden


A surge of emotions
Too ambiguous to understand
Intense
Overflowing
Bewildering
Capturing the heart
Beholden by a spell
Enslaved by the majesty of the moment
All of a sudden
Crazy over the thought
Of spending a lifetime together
Closer
Deeper
Stronger
Conquering the test of time
A vox to fulfill
When two hearts become one
All of a sudden
Through the years
Counting the blessings one by one
Blissful
Rosy
Sunny
Bundles of joy
Who delight over fairytales
Giving a reason for being
All of a sudden
Choices to make
Hurdles to take
Painful
Bitter
Confusing
Farther apart we go
Silence in between us
Strangers we are to each other
All of a sudden

 

Confusion...



~*~ There's this certain song that keeps on running in my mind... Since yesterday that I watched the video at Myx, I just can't simply take it off my mind. I know you all know the song "JUST ONCE" - as what with my last posts on ProBoards... I remember I once declared that I wanna be in love. I need some loving. Someone who'll understand me. Someone that I can give my love whole-heartedly...

Recently I had this thinking, that I may not have had the perfect relationship, but I know that in each relationship I went through - I know that it made me stronger. I've had almost all the bad relationship. I wasn't fooled once. I wasn't fooled twice. But still I continue living... I continue loving life. It's just that LOVE's a little out of my way.

They say that LOVE is like a butterfly that the more you chase it, the more it eludes you. But when you just let it fly, it will come the least you expect it... Just open your hand and that butterfly will surely make it's way right into your palm... I've always believe in that saying.

That I shouldn't find love. That it's love - that has to find me. There has been a lot of surveys in Friendster that I have answered. If I'm not mistaken, the question "have you been in love?" has been overused for quite some time now. And all I have to answer is "WHO DOESN'T?" Now tell me? It's right, right?

We all have been in love. We all loved the feeling of being in love. We all have been crazy in love. But most of the time, we all end up bruised - by love... We all end up hurtin'... We all end up in pain. But no matter hoe painful it is - I know and I believe that everything happens for a reason. Everything that happened in our life has its own purpose. It may be good, it may be bad... But God knows that He gave us that trial because He know that we can overcome it... We'll surpass it and we'll learn from it...

I just can't simply understand why FRIENDS CAN BE LOVERS but LOVERS CAN'T BE FRIENDS... I, myself really is aware of that. Sometimes, it just confuses me. Coz some people around me still ended up friends with their ex lovers. When I myself, can't. They always told me that maybe I am just being "bitter"... I know down deep in my soul that once I called it quits - it ends there. Yes, I am open for friendship - but the closeness we had before we'll never be the same again. I still do believe that maybe some ex couples became friends is either because thay really didn't love each other that much or maybe there really is no love deep inside...

But somehow, I'm wondering, why some people can be a total strangers after all....

I dunno what popped in my head, why I am so all over for love right now. I am recuperating because I've gone sick for a few days - but what really strucked me now is L.O.V.E. - maybe because I am a hopeless romantic and I am now open for any chances...

I've took risks, I've taken chances before but still - I didn't get much love in return. I just wish, that maybe someday, somehow, love will find it's way to me...

Friday, April 21

 

VACAY


~~> April 17 , Monday

Woke up around 11 am, kaya lang nag CR lang muna ako... I went back to my bedroom, climb up the bed and guess what?!? Natulog ako ulit!!! Hehehe!!! Naalimpungatan na lang ako when I checked my cell and see what time it is... OMG!!! 18:00!!! Hala!!! Lagot! Kaya ako naman, dali-dali talaga akong tumayo! Grabbed my purse and my cellphone! Deadma muna ako pagbaba ko! wala lang... Hahaha!

We asked Bane na pumunta sa palengke and check kung may mabibilhan pa ng liempo. After 20 minutes she came back, and WALA NA daw! Hala!!! Patay na! Kung kailan tuloy na tuloy na yung outing namin tsaka naman, wala mabilhan ng liempo! So ayun, inutusan na lang namin si Bryan and Bane na pumunta ng SM and dun na lang bumili ng liempo.

Nung nakabalik na sila... I did my thing na. Nilinis ko na yung chicken. Nagprepare na ako ng dalawang bungkos ng garlic. Basta lahat ako na! I swear! Mahirap! Nilinis ko yung mga liempo. Ang hirap talaga kapag walang assistant! Si Bane naman kasi naglinis pa ng kamay at paa!!! Tama daw bang kung kailan oras na ng trabaho tsaka magmamanicure and magpedicure!!! Haay naku talaga!!!

We're going to borrow my Dad's MB100... Para van na lang kami. Para di na kami magdadalawang sasakyan. Mahal ang krudo!

Late night while I was preparing the foods, my dad came! Ininvite din kasi sya ni Tita Lani. Since maghihiram kami ng van sa kanya nakakahiya naman kung di namin sya isasama di ba? Anyways, ayun kwentuhan sila sa bahay namin! Ako naman, talagang nagpakabusy na sa pagpeprepare! 2 1/2 kilos of pork liempo and 2 kls of chicken for adobo ang niluto ko. Ang sakit pa sa kamay ng bawang! Muntik na din ma-overcook! Naawa pa ako sa mga puppies ko kasi sobrang late na and di pa sila kumakain! So I rushed everything! Pinalabas ko na sa fridge
yung 4kilos of liempo pa (para naman sa ihaw-ihaw)... Tinimplahan ko na din! Salt and vetsin na lang! Mahirap pa dun, mabuto! Kaya ang kamay ko - eto puro sugat...

~~> April 18, Tuesday

2:30 am -- when I finished preparing the foods. RJ and Kuya Sander come with my Dad. Kukunin kasi nila yung van. So ako, I took my time. Naligo na ako! Ayaw ko naman bumyahe ng di naligo! Ayaw kong manlagkit and wala din ako tulog! So I went upstairs and grabbed my bath things! Nung nasa CR na ako, I texted my fellow vHousemates muna... Phew! At long last! This is it! Tuloy na nga kami! Pagod pero I know pwede na din! Iilan lang naman kami kaya pagdating dun pwede na kami magtulong-tulong.

3:30 am -- ayun, nag pack up na talaga ako! I grabbed my swimming gears. I grabbed 4 tees, 1 skirt, 1 shorts, 5 undies, and some of the things I'll be needing. Since I have my period I bought one pack of napkins. Mahirap ng maubusan!

4:00 am -- we received a call from Kuya Sander, asking kung prepared na nga raw ba! So ako I woke up Bryan and told him to get ready, Kuya Sander's on his way na. So ako, bumaba na agad. Checked on the things we'll be bringing sa biyahe.

5:30 am -- kinamada na nila yung mga gamit sa sasakyan! Magdadalawang sasakyan pa sana kami, kaya lang 3 lang naman yung sasakay sa Safari so, sabi namin! Sama-sama na lang. Saktong 6:30 we left. Nakakalungkot pa nga kasi di man lang makakasama mom, my brother and his wife and his baby... So sabi ko sa kanya, pilitin niyang makasunod!


~*~ on the road... wala naman masyado traffic! ~*~
7:30 am -- Ayun na! Sa wakas nahanap din namin ang VILLA V... Hahaha!!! Nagbreakfast muna kami... Swim! And played Badminton with Paulo! Hahaha!!! Mega sound blast kami agad! Para naman masaya! I texted my co vHousemates na andun na nga kami!
Nakipagkita kami dun sa dati naming driver.
Ayun na! Nag-umpisa na ang mga kalokohan! Swimming dito! Tulakan dito! Lunuran dito! Dapat walang pikunan! Nung nagkapaguran na kami! I dried myself na! Nung okei na ako! Punta na ako dun sa room ko! I changed my shorts ...
Natulog muna ako... Mga 1 hour lang siguro... Paano ba naman, I heard my cousins shouting "Andyan na sila!!!" So ako, tayo agad ako! and checked kung sino dumating. There, I saw my Dad's Pajero... He's with his friend Dyunie, Lando and 2 maids Jessa and Jobie. I also saw my cousin's Safari... Yung kapatid ko na pala ang nagdala! I saw Karen, Nice (the baby), My mom and our maid Meck. So kumpleto na! Wala ng kaming hinihintay! Swim na lang talaga ulit!
By 11pm inantok na talaga ako! Di ko na talaga kaya!!! Kaya I took a short shower - I clamped my hair and strike anywhere na lang ako! Natulog ako! Di ko alam, sumunod pala sila Papu, Bane and Bryan sa akin. Natulog din. Nilatag na lang nila yung sleepingbag na dala nila.
Dumating din pala yung Dad ni Kuya Sander with Thessa, Yonick, Criselle, Yonick and Ian. Sorry, pero talagang di na kinaya ng powers ko and di ko na sila naharap! Di nga din ako nakapagdinner... :( Lahat ng pinrepare ko - di ko natikman...
~~> April 19, Wednesday
Mga around 3:00 nagising na ako, kasi nagtalak na mommy ko sa room! So I stood up... Direcho na ako sa labas. Sabi ko sa Mom ko kung may makakain pa - sobrang sakit na talaga ng sikmura ko. Ayun nakapagtabi pala si Kuya Sander ng hipon. While I was having my meal, lumapit Dad ko and gave me a money. I asked him, what's it for... For the puppy? Di daw... So, ok... I told him thanks... I can't kiss him kasi dirty lips ko. Kumakain ako eh...
Wala na din pala kami maiinom, pano naubos ang yelo! So nagpaalam ako sa Dad ko na lalabas kami and bibili ng yelo. Dinala na namin ang van. Sumama na sa kin sina Bane, Paulo and Bryan drove us sa bayan. Bumili ako ng Vodka Cruiser, melon flavor. And isang lapad ng Tampurador - este Emperador, for the youngsters! I bough some cup noodles din for my Dad and Mom and para kay Bryan. Pano... Walang natira sa amin. Swerte namin ni Bane kasi naka tig dalawang hipon kami kahit papaano. Pati yung 4kilos na Liempo that I prepared, wlalang natira! Sinigang na Hipon wala din! Pati ung napakaraming mais na binili namin, wala! As in SIMOT!!!
Pagbalik namin sa Villa V, dun kami sa kabilang cottage, inom! And card games kami! Tulog na lahat and yung Dad ko naman nagpapababa ng tama sa dami ng nainom!
Mga around 5:00 am nagaalam Dad ko. Alis na daw muna sya. Punta sya ng Sta. Cruz Laguna with Dyunie and Lando. Iwan na nya yung mga maid nya para makatulong. Sad to say! Wala naman naitulong! Walang mga kyeme eh...
Around 6:00 am I talked to the the caretaker of the Villa magpapaextend kami till 12 noon. Okay daw. Hanggang sa nagising na lahat and asked me to talked to Ka Azon ulit kung pwede kahit till 10pm na lang daw kami para di mainit sa biyahe... Yun nga lang dagdag 2k daw. So till 7pm na lang kami nagpa extend.
I practiced some divings. Yung una ulo. That I can't do kasi. When my brother decided to swim, ayun, sabi niya dive daw ako ulit. Ayun, kung di talaga matiga ang ulo ko, huling dive ko na nga, nadisgrasya pa ako! Nauntog ako! Tumama ulo ko sa flooring ng pool. Sumobra naman ata! Eh di nagkabukol ako sa right side ng forehead ko! Have to admit it - MASAKIT TALAGA!!!
Pati lunch - late na ako kumain. Paano, nakaidlip ako. Around 2 pm ginising lang ako ni Bryan para makapag lunch na daw ako... Inihaw na tilapia! My favorite! Pero konti na lang nakain ko - kasi sobrang antok na ako! So after eating my lunch, tulog ako ulit. This time dun naman ako sa room nila Tita Lani. Dun kasi solo ko lang. Para walang maingay!
They woke me up mga 5:00 pm. Magprepare na daw kasi uuwin na. So I packed my things and sinakay ko na sa van. Naguni-muni muna ako...
Sakto 7pm biyahe na kami! We got home 9pm... Di pa ako agad natulog! Nilinis ko muna lahat ng cooler na dala namin! Inayos ko mga puppies ko... I took a long cold bath! Ang init kasi eh! Then Bane called me, kasi dinner nga daw... Ayun, had a quick dinner then, my cousin asked me to make an excuse letter for his friend who was with us, si Japheth...
After that, I brushed my teeth and cleansed my face... I slept na...
I'll be attaching some pics... Proof na talagang I really gained weight... hehehe!!!
1st pic... 'was just takin' a break...
2nd pic... that's Villa V. That's we're we spend our night.
3rd pic... Siyeata ko yan! Bago ako nagpahinga nung tanghali... Di kasi namin nadala yung digicam kaya cellphone cam na lang...
4th pic... Sa cottage while having an afternoon shots! With Kuya Sander, Bryan and Eric (dati naming driver)
Last pic, bago ako nagkabukol. With my cousin Bane...
Anyway, miss you all!!! Adrian, Heidee, Kath, Paolo...

Monday, April 17

 

PHOTO COLLAGE (isn't it lovely?) butterflies... angelic... :)


When BBK told me about this next activity, I was a li'l worried on how I'm going to accomplish it. I don't know hos to use Adobe Photoshop. I don't have programs where I can edit and design pictures here in my pc. Although I have a lot of things in mind on how to do it - still I dunno where to start and how to start.

I was thinking of how to make a collage that will reflect on my personality. So with a little help from my friend Paolo, I told him everything that I want my collage to be. I told him about my concepts, the theme and the colors that he will use.

I love butterfly. I love the beach and I love summer. So I told him to use a butterfly as a pattern for my collage. I want him to emphasize on the color Pink, Red, Baby Blue and Black. I just couldn't imagine about the outcome. Since that was just an imagination for me. I was so super shocked when I saw the finished product. I totally fell in love with the work - the art! It so adorable.

Sunday, April 16

 

a mistake


I was up till 10:30... CRYING... For some reasons that any man can't explain. I've been doing a lot of thinkings lately. I've been asking the Lord for guidance and signs for me to stop. Stop doing things for the people who are close to my heart. I've been crying myself to sleep for 4 nights straight. I dunno if it's normal, but just what I learned in Psychology - CATHARSIS - releasing pent up emotions. Everynight, after all my night rituals, I would lay down on my bed. I felt so uneasy. I would end up seeng myself turning myself from side to side - thinking of what I might have done to hurt other people's heart. But I just can't think of any thing that I've done to cause them pain. I was once hurt when I asked my Kuya about my money. I told him that i've been doing a lot of hard works lately and I guess I deserve to get my money in whole. Not just by partial means. I've been working for his company for 4 years and I haven't asked for anything in return. I just wanted to help and see his company growing. I've been taking good care of our clients so that they wouldn't seek for another company that can also provide them of what we can provide them for the past few years. What hurts me was when he told me "Bakit, may ginawa ka ba?" It's just so painful! Coz all this time, that I've been a part of his company, I did my best and I did my part. It's just not so easy putting all your pains inside your heart and not letting it out. Everynight ang lagi ko na lang kausap is our Mighty Father. Coz I know that he's always there and listening to our mourns, cries and heartaches! What we wanted was just a simple outing. An outing that will make everyone happy and make us unwind. But what's been happening lately was "urong-sulong" I dunno what his reasons were - I know there is...

Kasi kami na kasama niya dito sa compound ang lagi niyang karamay and still he's longing for others company. My Aunt and I are willing to do all the works... The cooking, the preparing and everything. Di naman na siguro mabait yun. Coz we offer him everything so that our outing will materialize. I just pity my little cousins who were expeccting from him. Okay na nga lang kahit di na ako sumama - ang happiness ko lang is to see my cousins happy and at least this summer, nag enjoy naman sila...

There was also a certain reason wherein I can't state it here that really broke my heart... He would keep on telling me that some of my relatives really wanted to spend this vacation with me, especially sa outing nga... To those person that he mentioned to me... Katext ko silang lahat. Everyday, I've been sending them quotes - but how come not a single text have I receive from anyone of them saying that they miss me and they're all looking forward seeing me this summer? Lahat sila naka-line... Ako prepaid lang - but still I managed to text them... Am not talking about smart to smart things... Some of them use globe too... Kahit naka unlimited ako I still do remember them... Not just once in while but everyday of my life. It's just breaking my heart!!!

just an explanation:
~*~ Another one... I just saw the site (PBBFG2)... Nalulungkot ako with the outcome of the nomination... I don't want Kath out of the house... Naging close na sya sa akin and I know that there are a lot of things I still want to know about her. Kaya lang parang pinagdadamot naman ata ng tadhana! I know that there's this particular virtual housemate who just voted her out... I hope he or she did a lot of thinking before he or she voted. Kath is a good person. Being a penalty queen is not the basis in this game. Threats are not the basis in this game. I just don't know why some people are so narrow, shallow that they forgot to do some rational thinking. I do believe in free will - it's his or her decision to vote Kath out - but has he or she thought of what he or she might be missing... I myself made a mistake during this 2nd re-nomination. Not that I'm blaming myself but when I voted I was so excited coz I know that we'll be leaving any hour that night and I have to accomplish everything in the virtual house. I submitted my Photo Collage Activity. I wrote and updated my blog... I voted... I left a message for the virtual housemate who recently quit the game.... Everything's been a rollercoaster ride lately... I don't want the same thing that happened when Dylan was voted out. It wasn't intentional. It was an honest mistake.

This time, I know some things are clear and some things aren't... I just hope that for the next few weeks to come, maging clean game na ito. I hate "siraan" I hate "revenge"

I'm a person who happens to believe that for whatever happens we should all be ready to accept the fact... Whether it might be the good or tha harsh way. I've met a lot of people here. I've won a lot of friends and for that I will be forever thankful and grateful that even for just a hundred days... I've met some people who's real and unreal. Life is a stage. We're the actors who plays in it. There will always be villains and people na "naaapi" - but I hope this will end well. Let's not pretend! Let's all be open!

It's not a matter of who's playing it right or the wrong way - but let's all remember that everything will end with just a single flick of a finger. We don't know what will happen next... Kung sino man ang magiging next evictee - I'm wishing you well... Kung sino man ang matitira... Let's all be friends... There's no money involved in this game! Not even a trip to U.S. sana naman let's all pust the past aside... Forget about it! Start anew...

Current Mood: Sad
Current Music: Only Time - Enya

Saturday, April 15

 

Tearing me into pieces


I really dunno what's in my mind lately. But honestly, I really am confused on what's happening! I dunno, why I'm feeling like this. I've been crying for 3 nights straight... Am I too emotional? Or was it just my heart and mind who's feeling like that?

~~> april 12, Wednesday

Watched Passion of the Christ... Kindda dragging pero talaga namang naiiyak ako...

Where am I? Just at home! Doing my rounds (as usual)... In and out of the house. Drinking coke sakto or puffing a cigarette... The usual. I heard that Karen brought her baby at Dra. Roque's Clinin at Anonas... My niece, Nice is sick. On and off yung fever niya. The doctor prescribed her a medicine and anti-biotic. The doctor also asked them to change her milk... Enfapro instead of Promil Gold...

I've been expecting a lot lately... Expecting things from a lot of people. Our outing was scheduled today. We're supposed to leave today, but my Kuya Sander's been acting a little weird. He's suddenly becoming so fickle-minded... Biglang "aalis" biglang hindi na nama!!! It really is pissing me off! I just can't take it anymore. He made us expect too much - that in the end we end up st home and doing nothing! It's so irritating. He's leaving all the decisions to us. We don't have any contacts for vacation spots - it's him who has all the contacts! Sa totoo lang, parang ayaw naman niya talaga! He just have to admit it. I know that we're not the people he's expecting to be wiht him this week, kaya lang mas okay sana, kung di na niya kami pinaasa and pinaandaran na aalis. We packed our stuffs tapos wala naman pala!!! Di ba nakakaasar! For months dito lang kami sa house. Doing things and stuffs... Kahit rewards na lang sana! Reward for all our good deed - pero wala! He just kept on disappointing us and hurting our feelings!

~~> april 13, Thursday

I dunno for in some reason why I slept 10:30 am. I really am sleepy when I went upstairs, but I was at the room na... Wala na! I'm all awake!!! I placed my pillow right in front of my face! I wanna shout! I wanna say mean things, but I just can't! I want to release all my heartaches and pains kaya lang, I really can't!!! All I did was cry!!!

Till I decided to just go downstairs and just sleep there at the couch. Di din naman ako makatulog. Paikot ikot lang ako... So around 10:25 I went upstairs and locked myself inside the comfort room. Dun na lang ako nagyosi!

Some cop were calling our house pala... Interrogating my brother about the break in that happened last Monday at our place. He was investigating the case. The brother's victim (the one who barged in at our house) was filing a case against him. Mabait naman daw yun na tao, nawalan lang daw ng cellphone. So sabi nga nila, kaya pala nakapatay din sya ng dalawang tao...

So around 11 am My Mom, Tita Tei and Kuya Sander went at the Barangay Hall and filed a case. Mahirap na daw kasi...

I remember - my Mom was waking me up! Ayun nga, there was an emergency daw at home. My brother's baby was so sick! Talagang di na daw bumaba yung temperature. 40 na. Tas nagtatae pa... As in tubig. Nakaka10 dumi na sya when I went over at my Mom's place.... So I told them to bring it at Lourdes Hospital and ipa-stool exam nila... Mahirap na... For sure dehydrated na yung baby.

So after an hour they decided to rush the baby at the hospital. Confine na lang daw. Sabi naman sa Lourdes, okay lang naman daw yung procedure that they're doing kaya lang kung talagang nag woworry sila, i-confine daw... My brother was having second thoughts, kawawa naman daw yung baby kapag dinextrose. She's only 6mos. old. So ayun, nagpatawag kami ng manghihilot. If I am not wrong I remember Nice fell from the bed a week ago... Di na nila pinaalam sa brother ko... So sabi ko baka pilay lang. According to my Tita naman kasi, may nagtatae din sa pilay. So ayun nga, they found out may pilay nga si Nice. Kaya lang mga aroung 11:30 om pale na yung lips nung baby. So my brother decided to confine her na lang. The baby's at Fe Del Mundo Children's Medical Center. Dinextrose daw and she went through a lot of examination. Stool, Urine and CBC... Negative naman daw lahat. Dun sa unang lab, they found out that the baby has UTI. Kaya lang sa Fe Del Mundo nagtataka sila why at that age (that young) bakit daw meron ng UTI. So she have to undergo another urine test.

Haay, kawawa naman si Nice... Baby namin yun eh!!! :( My Tita Cathy called up. My Lola Lina dropped by at the house. She brought us Guinataang Kamote.

Tambay lang ako sa house ni Mommy... Waited for my brother. Tas ayun...

Get to chat with BBK...

Watched Gladiator! Gosh di ko na alam kung pang ilang bese na ito... Pang twenty na ata... All time favorite ko din kasi yun eh... ;)

~~> april 14, Friday

Was having an early forum with Bane... Just talking about stuffs lang naman! Talked about love... Stupid thing called love!!! Why everybody have to be so hooked up with love? Nakakagalit!!!

Received an early call from my Dad. Had my usual late lunch. Daing na Bangus and Atsara from Tita Lani. Tita Lani asked me to text Tito Daboy, coz her baby's sick too... Grabe naman 'tong Biyernesanto na to... Lahat na lang kids... Kawawa naman sila... Lahat na lang ng babies dito, nadedehydrate na...

Around 5:30 my Mom arrived from the Hospital. Galing nga daw dun yung family ni Tita Cathy and Tito Rommel. Ganun lang. We talked about Nice. Kawawa naman kasi eh... Had a serious talk with Tita Tei. Grabe as in we talked about a lot of stuffs!!!

Adrian texted me... Ayun in love daw sya pero malungkot. But whatever it is - Adrian, I know you'll get thru that.

Pao, super miss na kita! Sorry kung di ako nakakapag online. Dami kasi nangyayari lately dito sa amin! :)

Ian, whatever it is that's i n your mind lately... Hayaan mo na yun! Past is past and we should all live with the future. Konting araw na lang... Sana naman, the good Ian right now is yun na yung totoo, no more revenge or any thing... Ikaw din naman kasi ang tinatamaan. i do hope you understand what I'm talking about...

Kath, grabe! Di pala ikaw yung nasa Forum! Grabe... I am speechless! Wala na akong masabi with what's happening!

Heidee, it's been a while since our last chat! Anyways, we still do text pa naman! Take care a lot! Ingat sa health... Wag masyado sa exercise at diet, mabibigla yung system mo, lalo ka magkakasakit... ;)

Anyway, just got back from the hospital. I brought Napkin for Karen, Iberet and Biogesic. Di na nya kasi kaya. Hirap daw. Halos wala silang tulog. Ayun... buti nagising si Nice, I got to play with her even for a while... Basta ako, continuos pa rin ang prayers ko na sana gumaling na sya. Sana wala naman lumabas na di maganda sa Urine Test niya...

Anyway, till here muna!!! Sobrang bumabagsak na mata ko! Super antok na'ko! Goodnight everyone! I miss you all!!!

Au Revoir! :)

Current Mood: Sleepy
Current Music: So Sick (female version)

Tuesday, April 11

 

UNBELIEVABLE


For the first time this year 2006. My family organized an outing!!! Finally!!! The moment I'm waiting for!!! I can't wait to hit the BEACH or the POOL... I don't care as long as there's SUN... Loud music, foods, COKE, marlboro greens... I'll be very happy!

~~> april 11, Tuesday:

5 am -- Just thinking of things to bring on our outing! The truth is we still haven't find a place where we'll spend our outing. We're still deciding whether Laguna or Batangas... Bryan gave me Mrs. Lina Gumpal's cellphone # - that's at Tali Beach at Batangas. I inquired sa Montemar Beach Club sa Bataan (too expensive!!!)

6 am -- Went upstairs, comfort room to be in particular. I brushed my teeth. I pee. Went inside the room. Do my night rituals (as usual)... Prayed and cleanse my face. I registered for a 2 days unlimited text at Smart. I forwarded a 'good morning" quotes to my friends.

7 am -- I received a text from my Tita Lani. "di ba friend ka, minsan usap naman tayo"... Was a little curious about her message so no matter how sleepy I am I still managed to text her back and asked what is it about. She told me kulang pa daw ako sa tulog and I might as well sleep first and we'll talk about it in the morning.

7:30 am -- Slept... sound asleep GoOmOrNyT to me...

11 am -- I woke up... Call of nature. But I checked my cellphone first. I received a message from my friend Desiree & Ma'am Chona. Also received a message from Pao, asking me to go online na nga and he has something to say daw... So i texted him back, sarap pa tulog ko, maybe in a while mag oonline ako.

11:30 -- I fixed my bed. Piled my pillows. Fold my comforter. Went downstairs with my puppies Cotton and Candy. Heat our food. And went online....

1 pm -- I logged in sa YM... Nanibago ako kasi Heidee's not online. Sent a message kay Pao. Jomar pm me. Ayun chat kami. After a while nag online na din si Marge. We talked a lot about things and stuffs. Nagkachat din kami ni Ian, who I lost in touch for days... Was just glad, we were able to chat. May fansite na pala si Marge and so as Ian. It was Jomar naman who made his site. Jomar made a fansite for Marge too... So sweet...

4 pm -- Still online. Chat pa din kami ni Pao. Tapos ayun nga...

5 pm -- We talked about our outing and who's gonna come...

6 pm -- Went over at Tita Lani's place. Saw her eyes na sobrang maga and I know that's from crying. She told me the reasons. I empathized her. I know how she feels. I just hope I could do something to cheer her up and lift her spirits up. I was having this exchange of text messages with Jomar. He's on his way to Bicol kasi. Well, wishing him a safe trip. Jomar, Enjoy & have fun!

Dramathon... Watched Gulong ng Palad, Sa Piling Mo, wasn't able to finish Panday, kasi nakatulog ako sa couch. They just woke me up kasi dinner na nga raw.

11 pm -- Took my long relaxing bath... Nagbabad talaga ako sa shower. because it was so freaking hot!!! Sarap ng feeling maligo!

12 midnight -- Nag online ako, and finally got the chance to chat with Adrian and Marge. Was so shocked sa site. I really am so speechless!!!

1 am -- Finished my activity - I might not finish it kung ipagpapabukas ko pa.

We might be leaving early this morning or late night... So Adrian, Ian, Heidee, Kath, Marge & Pao, I will miss you guys! Hope I'll enjoy!!! Stay safe and be safe. Love you all! Marge, you'll get through that. Pao, thanks a lot for your help sa activity. Really words aren't enough for your good deed. I just wanted you to know how much I appreciate your work (following my concept) - really from the bottom of my heart thanks! I love you guys! You will always be a part of me... You just all made me complete!

Au Revoir!!! :)

~ mwaHuggZ :-* >:D< ~

~*~ currently listening to Craig David's UNBELIEVABLE!!!

Sunday, April 9

 

TRAUMATIC DAY!!!


~~> april 10, Monday:

5 am -- Issued checks for MWSI, Bayantel, PLDT, Meralco and Credit Card bills. Still up keeping track on the records of the ins and outs of money. Did the book keeping. Wrote the expenses and miscellaneous stuffs on our planner. Checked and updated the Credit Card bills.

~*~ currently listening Bonnie Bailey's Ever After...

6 am -- I asked Papu to get me a Sprite 500 @ 'ta Jhick's place. I'm so sleepy and still there are a lot of stuffs I have to finish. Kuya Sander opened our vacation for this Holy Week... We might be leaving Tuesday (tomorrow) or Wednesday... We might be staying at Laguna first. Sa house ng Uncle Jigz ko sa Bel-Air... If we'll be receiving a text from my Tito Elly that they'll be on their way to Batangas, biyahe na din kami to Batangas.

7 am -- Went upstairs to the Comfort Room and brushed my teeth. Then after, sa Bedroom na and did my night rituals... Prayed first then did my beauty regimens... Eskinol, Petroleum Jelly on my lips as lip balm, Powder, Cologne and then Lotion... Chikahan muna kami ni Bane tapos umakyat na din sila Kuya Sander and Bryan... Usapang sunmates kami. Jokes, Quotes and stuffs... Tapos ayun, napag-usapan namin si Bong Aycocho from Forerunner Technologies. Pinagtripan namin sa Sun. Nakakaloko talaga! Sobrang tawa kami ng tawa! We laughed so hard that my eyes were teary eyed na from too much laugh...

7:30 -- Ayun na. Tinamaan na ako ng antok... Asleep...

10:45 -- Call of nature. But I checked my cellphone muna kung meron nag text. Kahit isa wala!!! So I stood up. I saw some dog shit behind the door, I ignored it for a while (Cotton & Candy sleep with us kasi sa Bedroom) and unlocked and opened the door. So dun muna ako sa porcelain god. Di ko nga namalayan, nakatulog ako ulit... For 5mins. Then I hear the phone rang. So I washed and went out to answer the phone sana. I heard Bryan and Papu downstairs from school (distribution of report cards kasi). So I guess either of them answered the phone na. I was thinking na I want to go downstairs and magsaing na. Get ready for Lunch. I still have 4 tilapia kasi sa freezer, kaya lang sudden change of mind. So I went back to the room instead and picked up the dog shit.

11 am -- I heard this footsteps sa rooftop! Parang tumatakbo... So ako, "SHIT!!! ANO YUN" (sounds panicking na ako)... So Kuya Sander stood up and checked and peeped sa blinds. Wala naman syang nakita. So he climbed up ung bed namin ni Bane and silip sya dun sa maliit na butas sa may frame ng aircon. He saw this guy who was running nga and climbed up naman sa roof ng bedroom ng Mom ko... So panic na talaga kami. I heard people shouting. I heard my brother's voice and the neighbors din...

I checked on my Mom and was all pale. Sobrang hypertensive sya. She doesn't know what to do and all she did was demonstrate what happened. My cousin Papu saw what happened to.

Our place kasi is a compound. 5 houses lahat. Our maid Meck who was currently doing the laundry when she saw a guy who has one "dos por dos" in his hand who crossed the dividing wall from Mang Pinong to our terrace. Sinita pa niya. Sabi niya "Hoy! ano yan?". She was appaled lang kasi yung ibang kapitbahay sinundan na yung lalaki na umakyat sa amin. She was afraid pero tinuloy pa rin niya yung paglalaba niya. My Mom naman who was supposedly to gather water from the tupuro sa dirty kitchen (coz palabas na sya ng pinto) saw this guy who jumped from the roof! Mayron pa kaming isang gate dun sa likod connecting to Annie Mae & Mang Nonong's house. Dun bumagsak yung lalaki. So my Mom closed the door and hide behind our blinded windows. Nakita ng Mom ko na from the gate na pinagbagsakan nung lalaki tumakbo papunta sa dirty Kitchen namin. He dropped the piece of wood he has and that hit the trash can. So natumba yung basurahan. We have this sink there and in front of the sink were the hanging hooks for the laddles, turners, thongs, strainers and butcher's knife that we have. Just last March 17 I cleaned that place up. It was neat & imamaculate. I washed all the kitchen accessories that was hanging there. Nagulat na lang ang Mommy ko when she saw that the man was grabbing the butcher's knife. There were three buthcer's knife there. He was grabbing two. He can't easily get it coz the hooks were tight. So instead he pulled out the largest one and natanggal yung hook na pinakakabitan nung itak. When my Mom saw that he was holding two "itak" na... She ryshed through the door ang locked it. Fortunately di na siya nahirapan (pasaway din kasi yung glass door na yun). The man saw her and ran towards our door. He pulled the locked door twice. He was even staring at my Mom daw (with fiery eyes). So what my Mom did was run through the stairs - kaya lang instinct nga naman bumabagal na daw sya maglakad. The man opened one of our kitchen's window and looked at her angrily with his right hand on the air and scared my Mom. Nung nakaakyat na yung Mom ko, nagulat sa kanya si Arjay (my brother) & Karen (his wife). They went straight ahead sa Terrace and checked kung nasan na yung lalaki. Yung Mom ko naman out of curiousity opened my empty room. Pag silip nya sa bintana, nakita nya yung lalaki who was running away papunta sa may Barbershop namin. He can't go out sa Barbershop dahil nakabarrel bold ang pinto. Meron stairs dun papunta sa stockroom sa compound umakyat sya dun and saw the wall that connects to Mang Nonong's house, dun sya dumaan. Tumalon sya dun and dun na din sya sa gate nila Mang Nonong lumabas. Our neighbors chased him. he crossed the railroad (home along the riles kasi kami). Nakita daw niya yung "panciteria" and initak yung lalaki na nagseserve. Naharangan sya ng isang bumibili initak nya din. Sa may Paltoc naman there were some people who were forming for a rally - there cops there. Nadiscover namin na nung umakyat sya sa bubong namin may humahabol na pala sa kanya. When the cop tried to stopped him, initak nya sa may upperlip. Right there and then the cop shot him. We heard 8 gunshots.

Just this afternoon according to our neighbors from the market told us that 2 was killed by the brigand. The cop was injured and the man was killed.

Even my cousin who was only 13 years old - saw everything behind a closed accordion. We all know naman that I doesn't stay at my Mom's place. Dito talaga ako sa mga pinsan ko who was just three steps away from the house. Buti na lang din and Papu didn't open the accordion coz if that happens kami ang papasukin. Pababa na din ako that time - and on that instance baka kami ang nagkasalubong nung lalaki.

The man was reportedly a cellphone snatcher but according to what he said from the people outside... His cellphone was stolen and he was provoked to chase the man who snatched his cellphone. Nag amok lang daw. We don't care about that anymore.


Di lang ngayon nagyari 'to. Siguro twice na 'to. Mabait lang talaga si God dahil di niya hinahayaan na may masaktan or mawala sa amin.

I am just so thankful that from that incident walang nawala sa bahay namin (just the itak). I just have to say thankyou God that nobody from my Family was hurt by that man...

*** LESSON LEARNED:
Always lock the gate. A lot of bad people are now surrounding. We can't prevent them (we doesn't have the power to do so). Kaya everytime lalabas ng bahay always lock the door and once you get back, i-lock ulit. We all don't know what will happen next...

*~* A photo of our home is attached... :)

 

IS THIS FOR REAL?!?!?!?!


OH MY GOD!!! The expression that's been so overused lately... Everything that's happening has been such a whirlwind! In this game - Ive gained a lot of friends. I felt so thankful & grateful 'coz I've known such special people through this Virtual Game. I didn't apply for this. There's just this day that when I checked my Friendster, I got this message from BBK (Big Bad Kuya) asking me, if I want to be a housemate... I just replied plain and simple "YES" - The first thought that popped into my mind was the Pinoy Big Brother in ABS-CBN... But when BBK replied on my message he included this link (http://pbbfg2.blogspot.com/) so out of curiousity, I browsed on the net and checked on the link. So that was it! The answer to my confusion... Just then I found out that PBBFG stand for PINOY BIG BROTHER FANTASY GAME. And it's not Big Brother who's in it... It's Big Bad Kuya. May sound a bit absurd... I thought BBK's "mean", "cocky", "bossy" and some bad stuffs that associates with Big "BAD" Kuya... But he isn't. We managed a good rapport. He's comical. Sometimes timid that when you ask him questions he'll answer you with an icon and you have to dig deeper on what he really means. He definitely loves the "yawn" emoteicon! So as always - I do offer him a coffee (an icon too)... He will either send you a reply using the "straight face" icon or "don't tell anyone" icon. BBK's approachable and at times he will test you on how much you trust him on the activities or tasks that he will ask you to do. Some task may be difficult but fraknly, you will learn a lot from it.

Anyway, so to update you guys...

~~> april 07, Friday - I found out from my cousin Kuya Sander that my Dad's new girlfriend, JingJing already arrived from Tagbilaran... And nung April 01 pa!!! I'm so insensitive!!! Why didn't I felt that? It was like... How could he still do it? At his age!!! I would be happier if he'll look for friends na lang... Do something that will make him feel better wag naman na yung ganun... It's so freaking desperate!!! I knew this around 6am in the morning - kaya naman after hearing it - parang I felt this terrible thing that made my mind boggle... I was so bothered! And I just can't take this anymore...

Now, where was I this day? I think I'm just at home - not that I'm aware of... Slept the whole day coz till 6am my cousin Bryan has been practiving his DJ mixing. He's practicing a lot of House pieces like Ever After, Dove (I'll Be Loving You Forever), Just The Way You Are, etc... I can't get myself to sleep coz of the sounds! He has this 12" speakers at home and 2CD Mixers and 1 Disco Mixer. I felt like I'm in some Club and have to dance and booze up the night away. There were also my two cousins Bane and Papu who were slapping each other because of Scrabble. Not one of them doesn't want to lose the game and the other one ended up hiding a piece inside her pocket so she'd win the game!

I slept the whole day. I remember, Jen-Jen called me up around 2:30, my brother was waking me up and I told him to please tell Jen that I'm still asleep. So around 4:00 the phone rang again and it was me who finally got it - and that was it - it's Jen on the other end of the line... :) We talked for about an hour... I just missed the good old times. Also received a message from Remcyl... They just made my day worthwhile.

My Mom left for Laguna pala with my Tita Cathy, Tito Dante, cousins Camille, Angel and Dannah and a maid... They went there to unwind. Especially my Mom who's recently hurting from my dad's womanizing....

Jen, I know tampo ka sa kin... Whatever it is sasabihin ko pa din naman sa'yo. It's not true na porke wala ka na sa Virtual House di na kita iaupdate with what's happening - of course I'll still will... Maybe not just now... in due time Jen... Hope you understand...

~~> april 08, Saturday - Nothin' really special... I was just at home and had my chat my Paolo who I've been missing for the past few days... BBK also told us about the new activity re- the collage! You know what? Honestly speaking, I really don't know how to do that sort of thing. It's really not into my sytem. But BBK told that it's okay to ask for help.

Nothing much... It's scorching hot and freaking BORING in here!!! I just hope that one day I'll get out of this house and find myself some things that will make me glad... Like shopping, outings or any activities that includes water! and Shopping!!!

We had this event at Cafe Lupe who are contact was Mr. Joel Alumno (an alumni from UST) and another event at Ortigas Mansion. It's a Graduation Party naman care of some guy named Carlo who was fromerly a student of San Sebastian College (highschool)

My cousins left and went to Pier One to meet Dj NaKIMURA. They're gonna return the CDs that they borrowed the other night. I was just a bit disappointed though... Coz I thought they're gonna ask me to come with them. I didn't log in the whole night - I just waited for their texts that they'll pick me up and tag me along at Pier One. But they did not. Oh well it's there and done. Sorry for myself...

~~> april 09, Sunday - Just @ home. Woke up real early. Went to the market and bought 2kls of live tilapia. Mas masarap pag buhay, mas sariwa at di lasang gilik!

I logged in sa YM and received an IM from Jomar (a VH from PBBFG Season1) - it was a pleasure on my side to know someone from the Season 1. We talked a lot of things. About his school (Philippine Science High School) and the outing that he's organizing at Bicol with his fellow batchmates. Was also real glad coz Neil TG (the big winner of Season 1) posted a message on my thread and he's looking forward to know me... Likewise Neil TG! And it's a pleasure!

I spent my day chatting and listening (again) with Bryan's mixing! I'm kindda being immuned with it kahit sobrang sablay talaga...

My Dad left for Baguio nga pala with her new girlfriend!!!

Pao, asked for my house number... After a few seconds the phone rang - and it was him!!! Kaya lang sobrang tahimik niya. But I'm real glad coz he called a lot of peeps including his adviser when he was still here and I'm one of those few persons that he called... PAO, from the bottom of my heart. Thanks for the time! It was good to hear your voice. Hope to hear from you soon.

Adrian, really had fun with our chit-chats thru text last night. At least kahit di sa YM - I still got the chance to know you. MALUPUD SA ATAY MU? A Cebuano expression that I recently learned from Adrian that means Lumilipad atay nya sa complements ko sa kanya! :) Update your blog naman na...

Kathryn, the PENALTY QUEEN, goodluck! don't worry you'll be having my "to save" points! *lol* I missed you girl! Can't wait for Monday, kasi that's the day I'll be calling Gazeboo Royale and Acclaim (for Butterfly release) - I'm way too excited on your Wedding Day and I'm looking forward to it. Just received a text message from you . Hahaha! Funny naman, I was typing this message for you then my phone beeped and it was you!

Heidee, sayang di tayo nakapagchat today... Anyways, I know we still have a lot of things to share with... And I can't wait to share things with you! And know a lot more things about you!

Marge, we haven't been in touched for a day... hahaha!!! You texted me this morning kaya lang when I was replying... I ran out of load na pala. Wala na din ako unlimited... I miss you sis!

IAN, I am so touched naman sa last entry mo... I'm one of your closes pala and for you magaling din ako mag advice. I feel so blessed kasi talagang sa kin mo nireveal ang lahat lahat. Your life was so colorful and kindda intriguing but everytime we touch you do always tickled me pink... I miss our chats and our crazy talks... I miss you too!!! :)

Anyway, enough for now. I still do have a lot more things to say kaya lang these things are the recent happenings that I gone through pa lang the whole day today...

Honestly, the voting system this time really is giving me a hard time. It really the toughest one!!! I just hope that you will do all understand my decision in the future...

I love you guys!
Ciao!!! :)

Wednesday, April 5

 

~*~ P!NK L!FE ~*~


Pink Life
I'm searching for a day of simple life
I'm on the clouds, the sky is blue
Watch the stars falling around at night
My dream, your dream, dreams come true
Try and hide
Always follow what's in your heart
Always listen to what's inside
Always fly high
And don't come down
And don't come down
Push yourself over the limit
Push your mind I had with your spirit
Push it well
You never thought you could go right
And never come down
And never come down
Oh-oh-ohoh...
You ran away from very stressing life
And take some time to think of you
Try to change the colour of your life
My dream, your dream, dreams come true
Try and hide
Always follow what's in your heart
Always listen to what's inside
Always fly high
And don't come down
And don't come down
Push yourself over the limit
Push your mind I had with your spirit
Push it well
You never thought you could go right
And never come down
And never come down
Oh-oh-ohoh...
I love this song and definitely talks about life and how to live it... A simple life... Do always follow what you feel, what's in your heart and mind... Fly high... And I know DREAMS DO COME TRUE...

 

Something Wonderful...




~*~ tHe sTaRt oF sOmEtHiNg WoNdErFuL ~*~
Been kindda busy the past few days. I haven't been online for a longer hour unlike before. 'was just so not myself lately. But anyway I've been working on my diet - I gained a lot of weight and I really don't know how to start all over again. But as the saying goes... "Live life to the fullest..." I guess that's what I'm doing now. I'm living life to the fullest and I don't care what to eat and not to eat. March 21, I started my diet. I just lessen the foods I am taking especially the rice. As much as possible 5 spoons of rice lang. I just don't know if there were any changes, but I hope sometime soon, there will be.

December of 2005 I tried the South Beach Diet. Almost everyday, I researched on different recipes I can use. South Beach Diet unlike any other is great. Because in here you'll still be eating delicious and nutritious foods but there won't be any cravings... You'll be giving up your carbs for 2weeks. That would be for Phase I of the diet. I just can't imagine what I did just to keep myself in track of this SBD... I even hit the grocery and bought a 2L Canola Oil, 1L Pietro Corricelli Extra Virgin Olive Oil, Fat Free Cheese slices... It was such a craze! But anyway, now I am more willing to do this diet again! Summer is on and I can't wait to wair my pair of Adidas two-piece *lol* (the nerves, Mats...)

Just a few updates about what happened before...

April 03, MONDAY ~> Nothin' really special. I was at Laguna Bel-Air the whole day. By 6pm we hit the road back to Manila. I don't know what I'm so excited about... But I really wanna go home. I was planning to go to Greenhills and do my groceries @ Unimart. 8pm we're still at Aurora Blvd. so we decided to just stopped by at SM Centerpoint. I tried Churros (I have to admit it... I didn't like it) I bought 3 boxes of Polland Hopia Mongo and a large Coke (it was scorching hot the whole day and I need to quench my thirst). Then...

So there I did my grocieries.
I bought:
3 packs of Cuddles Cotton Squares
2 big bottles of Eskinol Dermaclear-C
3 packs of Spirit with Wings
2 dozen of Ariel with a scent of Downy sulit pack
2 dozen of Wings Fabric Softener
1 Big Colgate Whitening
1 (9 rolls) 3-ply Softee Bathroom Tissue
2 Cowhead Lite
Cosmopolitan month of April issue (with Bea Alonzo on the cover)
Yes Magazine (with Lucy Torres & Gretchen Barretto on the cover)
Star Studio Magazine (Toni Gonzaga on the cover)
2 kilos of Alpo (for puppies)
2 packs of Ground Black Pepper
1 pack of Whole Black Pepper
(necessities ko kasi yan sa Kitchen... and I can't live without those peppers)
and a lot more thing...

When I was finally home I went straight at my Mom's place and gave her a box of Polland Hopia, it's her, Karen and Arjay's favorite! So the next thing I did was to check on my 5 puppies. I tried giving them dog food (Infant's milk is way too expensive and they can consume 1 400grams for 2days) I was just so glad coz they loved munching the dog food bites. Funny too coz now they puppies can growl and bark. The whole day what my puppies did was roam around the house and do nothing but eat and sleep.

I checked on my mails. Got emails from Gina Victoriano and some staff from Belo's Medical Group who's inquiring on how much they will cost if they're gonna hire us as Caterer for a private party at Vicky Belo's House for 30 pax. Haven't replied yet because I'm still thinking on what packages I 'll provide them. Checked on PBBFG proboads. My whole day at Laguna was such a blast coz what I did was post messaeges and replies... I was able to have a chat with Heidee (my co Vhousemate) whom I discovered that we have a lot in common with. We started talking about our Top 3 Beauty Products and Summer Getaways. It was such a priveledge for finally knowing her. I remember the first Nomination Night that we had at the Virtual House. Just days later we both found out that we voted each other out and also for the same reasons. Good thing though, that she were given a second chance to stay at the house and few words... I am glad to finally get acquainted with her.

April 04, TUESDAY ~> Nothing special. Just stayed at home and I received an early text from someone I really don't know. I just texted the number back and asked who he/she is. I received a reply saying "he was Wayne a friend and an officemate of Repsi who's working at Teleserv. We texted each other the whole day. At first it was a lot of fun but still I'm glad coz now I have a new textmate. Had Halu-Halo ( a not so special though) but at least it helps me with the ver humid weather.

Had this chat with Marge (as usual...) my ever little sister. We talked a lot of things and send each other emoteicons... We just laughed around... Also had chats with Heidee who now calls me "TEL" then there's BBK my constant chatmate. Also had chat with Jen-Jen... I super missed him so-so much! I felt like I was missing a lot of things about her. There, I found out that James Boot's back here at P.I. and they met (again)... I'm just so happy to hear about it.

Jen-Jen, I miss you! Hope we could still chat and talk over the phone! Goodluck sa dance lessons mo! Have fun playing badminton. Don't worry will meet up soon. My birthday's fast approaching... Lahat kayo pakakainin ko!
Remcyl, you don't know how overwhelmed I am whenever I receive a text message from you. I do hope one day magkausap tayo! I miss you and Jen so damn much! I super miss the kulitans we have kapag nagcoconference tayo!

I checked the PBBFG2 site and saw a new Immunity Challenge! So out of excitement... I hurriedly answered it and submitted my answer to BBK via Friendster.

April 05, WEDNESDAY ~> I woke up starved to death! There's no food on the fridge to eat. So I asked our helper to buy Knorr Crab and Corn and an egg. I fried two jumbo Hotdog and there I had my lunch. I was surprised though coz out of no where Papu just appeared and gave me one serve of Halu-Halo (again). Bought Titanic. What's this Tinanic by the way. It's this very large and hard bread. How to eat it? you're just gonna pinch little by little ang munch it. Believe me? It tastes definitely good and you'll be wanting for more!

My cousin Elaine called. We had crazy talks over the phone! She's back home. She stayed at Bicol with her Mom for 2years. Now, she's back and she'll be taking up her College here in Manila. Also received an urgent call from Mr. Edwin Cosme from Ocean Tower. He'll be needing our service for April 06, Thursday. Kiddie Birthday Party. We closed the deal for Php 4,500. He even asked me how much we charged him on his last event last March. He didn't negotiate - instead he told me same set-up. So when I checked on his previous quotation - 'was a bit shock coz we only charged him for 4k. I had this guilt feeling, but it's done and that's money. And it's badly needed. *lol*

I logged in at Yahoo Messenger and saw Dylan online. We had this chat. He's at Davao and they had this problem with their business. I also found out (just then) that he's a DLSU student! I felt so stupid. I remember he told me "si ate talaga, di nagbabasa ng blog!" I do read blogs but I wasn't able to read his introduction the first day at Virtual House. Really had fun with our chat! Hours after Marge was online naman! We both had crazy talks and I had this presumptions (since the start of this game) with her! And when she told me something about that "MH" thingy I wasn't shocked at all. What shocked me was... *toot toot* cellphone stuffs and other things. Virtual House is now getting more interesting everyday.

I have this comic chat with BBK when I received a text message from the newcomer Adrian, and I was just happy that, at last we had a little conversation. We talked about a lot of things. Adrian, you look hot kapag kalbo ka! Believe me, there's this unknown impact in me when I see kalbo guys! Not a lot of guys do look good kapag nagpakalbo kasi. You look cool on your skinhead! Regarding what I told you a text... That's true and I do stand for my word. I'll keep you posted and in touch with what's happening. I will update you in everything. You're not a heist - just so you're a newcomer in the game. It doesn't matter. yeah, we all know a lot of things about each other but you will always be special coz you were never too late naman when you entered the house! You were never aloof and I know you're flexible. Let's just do our thing and I know we will be friends. I just hope that we can have a chat some time so we can chillax! And since you love walking - maybe we can have a virtual walkathon!

Also had this short chat with Ian... We haven't chat for quite some time. We talked a lot of stuffs. He's really excited to come back home. I also heard that Ian and Dylan will be meeting at Davao, since Dylan's there too till Holy Week (I guess...) I just hope I can tag along with them. But I can't! I'm saving a lot of dime right now for Bora... Anyway, I was ready for my dinner when my cellphone rang! It was a direct call from Korea! So I know it's IAN!!! Hahaha! Finally I heard his voice! It was a lot of fun talking to him, unfortunately the line was cut. Hope to hear from you soon when you're here in Manila na...

It was a little late and I'm still online. Kath logged in too. We had silly chats regarding the Nomination. It was really hard kasi. Especially right now that we're all friends! We had a conference with BBK too, together with Marge and Kath - but Kath left too soon. Her hubby's sleepy na daw kasi.

April 06, THURSDAY ~> Received an early call from Pearl, Mr. Edwin Cosme's secretary. They were looking for the crew daw. It's too early, although I told Sir Edwin that we'll be setting up before lunch since their event will start at 3 in the afternoon! Nasira na ang tulog ko! I swear...

I received a text message from Paolo... And his text really bothered me. He texted me around 12:39 noon and I read the message around 2 in the afternoon! I super felt guilty coz I wasn't able to reply on his text. We haven't been chatting for almost a week now, and I really do miss this sweet American Idol fanatic guy. I felt so incomplete. So what I did was rushed downstairs and get online. I logged in at YM but I didn't find him there! I sent him several messages even SMS messages. I even texted him a two page message saying KELLIE PICKLER... but still no reply. I am really worried!!! Honestly never felt like this before. I felt like he really needed someone to talk to... He texted me but I wasn't there for him the time that he needs me.

~~> PAO, hope you do read this... From the bottom of my heart - I'm realy, really sorry... Hope I can do something to make it up to you. You and Marge are the only ones left for me. And I really don't like what's happening right now. Di na kasi tayo nagkakausap. I really miss your company. Your "VICTIM" thingy... Hope to catch up with you soon!!! I miss you much!

Had chats with Heidee (again) the whole day... Just talked about what happened right after she was evicted (the first eviction night)... I'm fond of those things. You know sharing thoughts and things. I don't want my co Vhousemates to feel outnumbered and behind from what had happened...

Anyway, si BBK panay ang pa-kwento. So what we talked about was my Business. I will soon post stuffs about it. Pictures too.

To Marge, I have something for you... My pic with Mark Herras @ Nine Ball, Tomas Morato...

 

~ wHaT cOuLd tHeRe Be? ~




What could there be in love that there
couldn't be in a thousand sunsets?
What could there be in truth that could not
be in lies?
What could there be in spring that could
not be in winter?
What could there be in you that could not
be in another?
If I asked you these questions would there
be an answer?
I've asked myself a thousand times before,
What could there be in your reply that I
can find in no other?
Is this some kind of spell?
Is there some kind of exhilaration more
profound than this?
The kind pent-up desires feel like the
sweltering summer heat.
This pleasure-pain is really new to me
But I'd like to feel it again and again and
again.
The surreptitious gazes of those around me
Only add up to the naked longing I have for
you.
What could there be in this
That I'd go through it all over again?
It's just the mere thought of missing someone and asking what might have been...
They say there's no such thing as forever - but I say this place is forever, and memories once been built here will always be an ember that will glow in my heart & mind forever...

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